Well, if you hadn't noticed...I've not jumped on to dance and announce my great weigh in. I was so close to my 10% goal...I wanted it so bad! Have you picked up on the doom and gloom yet??? Well, I gained .2 pounds. Thank heavens there was a decimal point before that two! I'm not overly upset about the virtual maintain. And yes, even though it showed a gain, can .2 really be considered a gain. That could be the difference between a pair of socks...or a pair of pants. Maybe I was wearing an extra ring or necklace. Yes, it is technially a gain. But I'm not upset.
I am upset that I didn't make my goal. I think it was the montly water gain that messed me up (which prompted me to eat all the good yummy fattening foods that one day). But, regardless of what caused my small gain, I'm upset because I was so determined to get to that goal. I worked out. I ate right. I did all the things correct. And it just wasn't good enough.
Well...that said. I'm not letting it bother me (too much). I'm just refocusing and working on this week. I can only take one day at a time. I can't stress about what is already done. I know I ate well (with the exception of that one day). I'm just continuing to eat in that fashion!
That said.....I've been exercising in the morning AND the evening. Trying to get at least one hour in!
The Biggest Loser! I just wanted to beat those girls upside the head during the 'voting session'. Yes, I know this is a game...but to call Ken a Bastard because he didn't bend to their wishes. They also made it abundantly clear during that session that they don't care about him...they only care that a girl loses it. Have they not gotten the concept of teamwork. Teamwork is the only way that ANY of the red team will make it to the final!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Society
I received an email from a friend this morning. In it, she talked about her day and then remarked about a program/challenge that her company was doing. It was one of the 10,000 step challenges. She mentioned that she was going to have to say goodbye, so she could go to the 'kick off breakfast'. She also mentioned how worried she was...because a company supplied breakfast could and many times DOES mean an eating landmine! She mentioned how she was going to have to remain strong if the choices were not good. She, and I...both thought that a breakfast kickoff for a HEALTH challenge was kinda ironic. From this email I realized how society is so programmed to feed feed feed. If you have a meeting around breakfast time..you either get breakfast...or at least donuts. Even a mid afternoon big meeting will net a cookie or two. In a company that I recently worked for. If the employees did something that the company deemed good....they catered in lunch. The thank us for working overtime to help through hurricane season (when all other sites were closed) they feed us pizza. They gave out candy as a thank you. Our society is programed to reward with food. I need to get out of this mental programming.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Sad Sunday
Well...the ick (TOM) came and went this week. I wisely stayed away from the scales during that time. This morning I awoke and knowing the ick was past...I jumped on the scales....ready to see how my week had been. I was excited...afterall, I had been totally on target with everthing that I had done this week. I'd eaten within my allowance of foods...I'd exercised religiously...I was doing great. UNTIL I looked at the scales........2 pounds up! ARRGGHHHH I told myself that it could be my scales...afterall, I know that they are not the most reliable scales....I also told myself that it could have been residual fluid retention from the ick. Who knows. I swallowed my disappointment and headed off for my day. After church Todd and I had an hour and a half before we needed to be somewhere. The end of town that we were in didn't boast too many options for lunch. I decided to go for broke. I was craving pizza...and since my numbers were already blown...why the heck not! So, Pizza we had. I am proud to say that I was able to pass up the buffet (I'm a sucker for the cinnamon bread sticks...I can eat them by the pound...not to mention slice of pizza after slice of pizza). So getting the dinner for two...AND thin crust was/is actually a step in the right direction. I also didn't put cheese on my salad! :-) BUT...the half pizza that I did eat...uhhh,mm...not good. :-) I didn't eat until I was sick though. SOooo off we went on our day. We spent a good deal of time at the nursing home with Todd's grandmother...went to Lowes and Sam's Club. The original plan had been to come home and eat a nice light meal (I was planning on a salad topped with grilled chicken...nice, easy and light!). Well...it was late when we got done at the last place....so we stopped at this phenominal little roadside joint (the owner has been a client of ours at the studio)...Red Neck Ribs. I can happily say that at least I didn't eat the bread/roll. But I had a beef brisket sandwich. It came with a bag of chips...UTZ, which I sadly did eat. And I had half an order of baked beans. NOt exactly weight watchers friendly.
So I come home...exercise for 45 minutes. I actually stopped because I dont' feel so well. I don't know if it is the guilt that is eating me up...or something else! Probably guilt.....poor Todd....in the middle of my workout, I dissoved into tears. Not so much that I ate poorly but that and the combination of the scales showing a weight gain. It's just frustrating!
Who knows how my Tuesday night weigh in will go!
So I come home...exercise for 45 minutes. I actually stopped because I dont' feel so well. I don't know if it is the guilt that is eating me up...or something else! Probably guilt.....poor Todd....in the middle of my workout, I dissoved into tears. Not so much that I ate poorly but that and the combination of the scales showing a weight gain. It's just frustrating!
Who knows how my Tuesday night weigh in will go!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Wednesday!
It's been a pretty good day. I was a little worried when I started the day. I woke up and felt like actually cooking a breakfast. (We usually do breakfasts on our own...and I usually do cereal). So making chipped beef gravy was not a good way to start the day. I plugged my recipe into the recipe builder to see where it would fall. I was actually shocked....it wasn't too bad. (Of course I use skim milk, and a while back I had already started making it with a heck of a lot less butter anyway). So, we had breakfast and only spent 7 points total (Man, gotta love Weight Watchers/Natures Own bread lines...low fat/low calories/high fiber)! For lunch I ate healthy, mostly fruits and veggies and one lite string cheese. My mid-afternoon snack was my yogurt (fat free of course) and strawberries. I was trying to be oh so careful because Todd had asked me to prepare Chicken Enchiladas. OUCH....can we say nice rich comfort food??? Once again, quite a while ago I had switched to the low fat versions of whatever ingredients I could. I figured out that with the adjustments it would be 5 points per enchilada. I figured I would be happy with 2 enchiladas. (I was.) But, because I knew I would use 10 points just for that, I knew I had to be careful. I managed. I also made some No Pudge brownies. Yum...they are excellent! I would highly recommend them...we actually had the Raspberry Brownies! Yum yum! I cut the brownies into 6 instead of 12...and that made the point value 4 for each brownie. So...when all was said and done. I was only one point over. I'm happy with that...especially since I exercised and earned 4 APS!
I'm so close to my 10% goal! I am determined to make it at my next weigh in. In fact, I'm so determined that I want to not only lose the 1.6 pounds to make my 10%, I want to lose 2.6 to make my 25 pounds lost goal!
I've noticed that I've been apologizing to Todd lately for being so single mindedly focused on losing weight and exercising. He seems to be ok with it. However I do worry that I'm focused that other things will suffer. And my marriage is one thing that I am not willing to sacrifice!
I actually enjoy cooking at home.....why we eat out so much is actually a mystery to me. I know I do enjoy eating out sometimes...but the rate that we do it...it's way too much. I'm really going to make a concerted effort to cook more at home. I know that if I stand firm and don't waver on eating at home, that TOdd will not mind. Oh yeah, there will be days where he just wants to get out (He works from home.....or technically we live at his business...lol) but for the most part, I want to eat at home!
Oh one HUGE exciting thing that happened to me in conjunction with the wedding this past weekend. About a month or so ago, I went through my closet and cleared out everything that was super big on me. I at that time was a solid 20....with the 20's being loose but not yet into the 18's. Well, I got rid of all my 'fat' clothes (that's my term for the clothes that are on the way out because they are too big.) I was all tickled. It left me with 4 pairs of casual/dress pants. Lucky for me I only need jeans and tee shirts so I don't need to have dress clothes for work...and then casual clothes for everyday living stuff. Anyway, I knew I had that wedding to go to. So I was ok...afterall I had these dress pants in the closet. Saturday rolled around and I pulled them out of the closet and LUCKILY tried them on early to decide which to wear. Does the word CLOWN pants bring anything to mind? These pants were huge on me...they literally made my bottom half look like a big round ball (the hem rested on the floor and the legs ballooned out). I was in a panic!
I had nothing to wear for a wedding that was in 2 hours! Luckily I
remembered a plastic bin full of stored clothes from COLLEGE that I just
couldn't bear to part with...and found a pair of pants....unfortunately they
weren't too dressy. But at least I founds something other than blue jeans!
I'm so close to my 10% goal! I am determined to make it at my next weigh in. In fact, I'm so determined that I want to not only lose the 1.6 pounds to make my 10%, I want to lose 2.6 to make my 25 pounds lost goal!
I've noticed that I've been apologizing to Todd lately for being so single mindedly focused on losing weight and exercising. He seems to be ok with it. However I do worry that I'm focused that other things will suffer. And my marriage is one thing that I am not willing to sacrifice!
I actually enjoy cooking at home.....why we eat out so much is actually a mystery to me. I know I do enjoy eating out sometimes...but the rate that we do it...it's way too much. I'm really going to make a concerted effort to cook more at home. I know that if I stand firm and don't waver on eating at home, that TOdd will not mind. Oh yeah, there will be days where he just wants to get out (He works from home.....or technically we live at his business...lol) but for the most part, I want to eat at home!
Oh one HUGE exciting thing that happened to me in conjunction with the wedding this past weekend. About a month or so ago, I went through my closet and cleared out everything that was super big on me. I at that time was a solid 20....with the 20's being loose but not yet into the 18's. Well, I got rid of all my 'fat' clothes (that's my term for the clothes that are on the way out because they are too big.) I was all tickled. It left me with 4 pairs of casual/dress pants. Lucky for me I only need jeans and tee shirts so I don't need to have dress clothes for work...and then casual clothes for everyday living stuff. Anyway, I knew I had that wedding to go to. So I was ok...afterall I had these dress pants in the closet. Saturday rolled around and I pulled them out of the closet and LUCKILY tried them on early to decide which to wear. Does the word CLOWN pants bring anything to mind? These pants were huge on me...they literally made my bottom half look like a big round ball (the hem rested on the floor and the legs ballooned out). I was in a panic!
I had nothing to wear for a wedding that was in 2 hours! Luckily I
remembered a plastic bin full of stored clothes from COLLEGE that I just
couldn't bear to part with...and found a pair of pants....unfortunately they
weren't too dressy. But at least I founds something other than blue jeans!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Weigh IN...week 8
Well...the big weigh in was tonight. I'm very pleased to announce that I
lost 2.8 pounds! That makes my weight 220.2 pounds. I'm tickled because
that puts me 1.6 pounds away from my 10% goal! I'm hoping for next week on
that one! Maybe that will keep me really on track! I'm so close to this goal that I can taste it!
lost 2.8 pounds! That makes my weight 220.2 pounds. I'm tickled because
that puts me 1.6 pounds away from my 10% goal! I'm hoping for next week on
that one! Maybe that will keep me really on track! I'm so close to this goal that I can taste it!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
A wedding!
Well yesterday I went to a wedding of a young girl who met her husband while teaching at a mission school in the Phillipines. How exciting! Although it really made me feel old as I babysat her! Eii yii yiii I tried to do as good as I could with the food. It helped that they had some seemingly healthier options there! They had an appetizer table, which contained the normal appetizers but also a lot of fruit! I was also pleased that they had two options of cake to eat....one of which was angel food. (it made an easier option for me, instead of the ultra bad choice of red velvet cake with the wonderful icing!...which yes, the old me ...or maybe the internal me...would have loved!) I was worried last night though. Because I did step on the scale before I went to bed. Yes, I know...weigh yourself at the same time during the day...and I usually do it in the morning! Well, it looked as if I was back where I was about a week or so ago. But this mornign it was pretty much back in line. I plan on doing a pretty big workout today after church! I do know that I have to watch carefully the next two days...especially since my weigh in is on Tuesday! I also know that I can't have two days like this a week on a regular basis!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Chinese
I had every intention of cooking and eating at home. EVERY intention. My intentions were so good that I have my little meal plan tucked into my daily tracker! I was goign to have grilled chicken, roasted potatoes sprinkled with olive oil and rosemary, green beans, and fresh kiwi. It's all on my little sheet. So what the heck happened when I talked to Todd and one of my first words was "Lets go to Chinese". I actually knew I had the points to manage Chicken and Brocolli. I was all set. I got there, glanced at the menu and laid the menu aside. I knew what I was getting. It was all good. Well, Todd was perusing the menu and must have felt weird about me just sitting there quietly so he suggested I try something new (I'm not a big chinese fan...I don't have a big repoitoire of foods that I eat a chinese places). I don't know why I didn't just say. "I know but I also know the points on my chicken and brocolli" NO...I just had to pick up the menu and found a dish that did sound REALLY good. It didn't sound too bad. The description actually sounded a lot like chicken and brocolli...instead of brocolli it was mixed veggies and water chesnuts. Sounds yummy. So I switched. When they sat the plate down in front of me I just looked at it. To my credit after the waitress left I did look at Todd and say, "I can't eat this" It was the deep fried chicken in the sauce mixed with the veggies. Todd was understanding (trying to take the blame..but it was ultimately MY decision. I'm the one that didn't stick to my guns). I smiled and said, "I'll just eat a small portion and we can take the rest home for your lunch tomorrow. The problem? Well, I tasted it and it was FABULOUS! I uh....ate the portion on my plate. Uhhh...ate a little more...and a little more...until it was all gone. Heck, I practically licked that plate clean!
I did come home and exercise a good bit to try to at least counteract those many points I devoured!
The Biggest Loser started last night. THat is motivational for me. I see other people goign through what I've gone through and it does help to know that I'm not alone!
I did come home and exercise a good bit to try to at least counteract those many points I devoured!
The Biggest Loser started last night. THat is motivational for me. I see other people goign through what I've gone through and it does help to know that I'm not alone!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Weigh IN!
Well, just got back from my weigh in. I was tickled to see/hear that I lost 3.8 pounds! Woo hooo! That brings my total weight loss since I joined weight watchers to 19.6 pounds!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Snuck a peek!
I know, I know, I know. I need to stop obsessing about the scales! I was doing pretty good there for a while, not checking at home. But I took a sneak peek the other day and didn't see much of a change, although as I mentioned earlier it was pretty close to my WI. I got on the scales this morning and although I'm not going to break out the party balloons or anything...I THINK I may be dropping. Woo hooo. It's so difficult to tell on my scales. Whether it's the scales fault or the old uneven floors in my house, who knows!
I've been pretty consistent with working out. I'm proud of myself. I purposely didn't exercise on Saturday. I decided to take that as off. But, I've been working out about 45 minutes a day. Some nights it kicks my butt though. I'm trying to shake it up and do varied exercises and routines. Not just always the gym...or always on my bike. Lately I've been doing a lot of exercise DVD's. My favorites right now is one Step Aerobics, The Biggest Loser Workout, and The new Weight Watchers Workout DVD (I really like the Cardio Dance). I can't wait to get to the post office tomorrow though..because I bought the XBOX game Dance Dance Revolution and two floor control pads. It always looks like fun when you see the game in the arcades. And when you see these kids playing it, they have worked up a sweat. I have a friend that bought it and confirmed that it can be a pretty good workout....so I bought it. I can't wait! :-) The other thing I'm anxiously awaiting is my exercise DVD...80's Blast....it's a Richard Simmons DVD....woo hooo! :-)
I'm very excited about "the Biggest Loser" season starting this Wednesday night! I know when I was able to watch it last season, it helped me stay motivated! Motivation is something I need to keep going!
I've been pretty consistent with working out. I'm proud of myself. I purposely didn't exercise on Saturday. I decided to take that as off. But, I've been working out about 45 minutes a day. Some nights it kicks my butt though. I'm trying to shake it up and do varied exercises and routines. Not just always the gym...or always on my bike. Lately I've been doing a lot of exercise DVD's. My favorites right now is one Step Aerobics, The Biggest Loser Workout, and The new Weight Watchers Workout DVD (I really like the Cardio Dance). I can't wait to get to the post office tomorrow though..because I bought the XBOX game Dance Dance Revolution and two floor control pads. It always looks like fun when you see the game in the arcades. And when you see these kids playing it, they have worked up a sweat. I have a friend that bought it and confirmed that it can be a pretty good workout....so I bought it. I can't wait! :-) The other thing I'm anxiously awaiting is my exercise DVD...80's Blast....it's a Richard Simmons DVD....woo hooo! :-)
I'm very excited about "the Biggest Loser" season starting this Wednesday night! I know when I was able to watch it last season, it helped me stay motivated! Motivation is something I need to keep going!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Wondering how my week has been!
Yes, I'm wondering if I've lost any weight. After my last weigh in, I'm just not sure. Ok, honestly, I sneaked on the scale on Thursday...and nothing. However, Thursday was only 1 1/2 days after my 'official' weigh in. I've stayed pretty much on plan. I've maybe gone a point or so over a day...but haven't touched my flex points (except for those loose points...like one or two points at most....on maybe 2 days...so we are talking like tops 5 points).
It was an extremely stressful day for me. My boss was upset at some things going on in our town and concerning her business and that made her quirky and irritated at everything and everyone. Can you say VERY stressed! I coulnd't wait to get out of there today! I came home and I just want to eat and eat and eat. I'm out of points....in fact, today I've already gone over about 3 points (it's all ok, I have only used those 3-5 flex points...so now I guess it's 8...)! ARRGGHHH So, I have to resist! (or find a no point snack...hmmmmm...no theres a thought!) Yes, I'm a stress eater. I want to eat to make myself feel better. Eat to 'drown my sorrows'. I know this and really have to gaurd against it. Course, knowing isn't making it any easier!
I just know that I HAVE to do this for my health!
I am taking today off from exercise. I worked out pretty hard yesterday. I know that I have to give my body a break here and there. So I chose today to do that!
It was an extremely stressful day for me. My boss was upset at some things going on in our town and concerning her business and that made her quirky and irritated at everything and everyone. Can you say VERY stressed! I coulnd't wait to get out of there today! I came home and I just want to eat and eat and eat. I'm out of points....in fact, today I've already gone over about 3 points (it's all ok, I have only used those 3-5 flex points...so now I guess it's 8...)! ARRGGHHH So, I have to resist! (or find a no point snack...hmmmmm...no theres a thought!) Yes, I'm a stress eater. I want to eat to make myself feel better. Eat to 'drown my sorrows'. I know this and really have to gaurd against it. Course, knowing isn't making it any easier!
I just know that I HAVE to do this for my health!
I am taking today off from exercise. I worked out pretty hard yesterday. I know that I have to give my body a break here and there. So I chose today to do that!
Wondering how my week has been!
Yes, I'm wondering if I've lost any weight. After my last weigh in, I'm just not sure. Ok, honestly, I sneaked on the scale on Thursday...and nothing. However, Thursday was only 1 1/2 days after my 'official' weigh in. I've stayed pretty much on plan. I've maybe gone a point or so over a day...but haven't touched my flex points (except for those loose points...like one or two points at most....on maybe 2 days...so we are talking like tops 5 points).
It was an extremely stressful day for me. My boss was upset at some things going on in our town and concerning her business and that made her quirky and irritated at everything and everyone. Can you say VERY stressed! I coulnd't wait to get out of there today! I came home and I just want to eat and eat and eat. I'm out of points....in fact, today I've already gone over about 3 points (it's all ok, I have only used those 3-5 flex points...so now I guess it's 8...)! ARRGGHHH So, I have to resist! (or find a no point snack...hmmmmm...no theres a thought!) Yes, I'm a stress eater. I want to eat to make myself feel better. Eat to 'drown my sorrows'. I know this and really have to gaurd against it. Course, knowing isn't making it any easier!
I just know that I HAVE to do this for my health!
I am taking today off from exercise. I worked out pretty hard yesterday. I know that I have to give my body a break here and there. So I chose today to do that!
It was an extremely stressful day for me. My boss was upset at some things going on in our town and concerning her business and that made her quirky and irritated at everything and everyone. Can you say VERY stressed! I coulnd't wait to get out of there today! I came home and I just want to eat and eat and eat. I'm out of points....in fact, today I've already gone over about 3 points (it's all ok, I have only used those 3-5 flex points...so now I guess it's 8...)! ARRGGHHH So, I have to resist! (or find a no point snack...hmmmmm...no theres a thought!) Yes, I'm a stress eater. I want to eat to make myself feel better. Eat to 'drown my sorrows'. I know this and really have to gaurd against it. Course, knowing isn't making it any easier!
I just know that I HAVE to do this for my health!
I am taking today off from exercise. I worked out pretty hard yesterday. I know that I have to give my body a break here and there. So I chose today to do that!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
At least it's a loss!
Well....the weight loss for this week was .2 pounds. Yes, that wasn't POINT TWO pounds. I'm happy because at least it was a negative...I didn't gain. However, I worked my tail end off and only lost .2 pounds. COurse, I also had pizza and fat free frozen yogurt one night....oh yeah and the day before my weigh in had two wonderful buttery biscuits (one at Red Lobster and the other from Popeyes). The one from Popeyes I had a a carry in meal/picnic. ALl good and dandy..but I ate worse then I should have the night before a weigh in. HOwever, each of these days...and for the whole week, in fact, I stayed within my points allowance! I guess that may be a lesson in what the carb type foods do to me! :-) Mom thinks it is because I worked out so much that I gained muscle..which we all know weighs more. Whatever happened, I'm hoping for a nice weight loss this coming week! (yes, staying away from pizza and stuff like that)
Friday, September 08, 2006
Looking at the big picture
I can proudly say that I've lost 15.6 pounds since I started weight watchers. That in itself is pretty exciting. But Sallie, my boss was talking the other day and she was like, "MaryFran, you really need to use the TOTAL number of pounds that you hvae lost." I started thinking about it. Yes, the 15.6 is nice to announce. BUt yes, to date, I've lost 68 pounds from my very highest weight! That is pretty darn amazing! That makes me step back and say..."woah, I've actually accomplished something that I can be REALLY proud of!"
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Loss
Well.... 2.4 is the magic figure of weight loss for this last week. I was pretty darn tickled with my loss....especially since I made the wild leap from shorts to jeans! (I weighed them because everyone online was talking about it soooo much.....it was 1 pound more). So I can be satisfied that I had that weight loss...AND know that it probably would have been more if I had only worn shorts! Now that I am in jeans though..unless we have an utter hot heat wave...I'm not going back to shorts until next summer for my weigh ins!
We ate at Pizza Hut tonight. I do not feel guilty. I hate (ok, used to hate) thin crust pizza. I have always referred to it as pizza on a cracker...or cracker crust pizza. Well......it is much more point efficent to eat thin crust (although I do honestly love pan and really don't like thin crust). Well...I ate the thin crust...and a small salad. I was actually only 3 points over my daily allowance. I knew I could let the flex points catch those points...however I came home and exercised for an hour and fifeteen minutes! :-) Wooo hooo! :-)
We ate at Pizza Hut tonight. I do not feel guilty. I hate (ok, used to hate) thin crust pizza. I have always referred to it as pizza on a cracker...or cracker crust pizza. Well......it is much more point efficent to eat thin crust (although I do honestly love pan and really don't like thin crust). Well...I ate the thin crust...and a small salad. I was actually only 3 points over my daily allowance. I knew I could let the flex points catch those points...however I came home and exercised for an hour and fifeteen minutes! :-) Wooo hooo! :-)
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Cheated a bit with the scales!
Ok, yes, I cheated with the scales. I know, I know, I know, I said I wasn't going to get on the scales at all. Well, we were at the gym yesterday and I hopped on the scales. It looks as if I have lost SOMETHING! I'll take any loss I can get though!
Tonight is the big weigh in though.....eii yii yiii.....still nervous!
Tonight is the big weigh in though.....eii yii yiii.....still nervous!
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Feelin Guilty
Ok, I was so sore on Saturday morning. I could have worked out in the evening though because even though I was still a bit stiff, I wasn't overly sore. But you always hear about overdoing it and giving your muscles a break. SOOO I decided to forgo the exercise video yesterday. I felt slightly bad about not doing anything but knew that I had been sooo on target with my exercise that it would be ok. (I was also way on target with eating....a good combination if you need to take a day off...). Well, I had the best plans today to get to the gym. ANd when the gym idea was scrubbed, I had every intention on working out with the dvd. However, I had a bushel of pears to can. WE got home at around 4 and I am STILL working on the pears. TOdd did help me (bless him) with the peeling, which saved me a ton of time. I also used both canners on the stove to expedite matters. However that last batch is still in the canners almost ready to come out (thank goodness). It is 10:45 PM. THere is no way that I am up to jumping around and exercising right now. Standing in the kitchen for over 6 hours kinda takes any kind of umph out of you. Thus we reach my guilt. I haven't exercised for two days! The guilt is thick and palatable.
I've also got to get over this excited fear that I get every week about this time...waiting for the weigh in! Did I mention that it is Sunday and I don't get weighed in until Tuesday night? Wooooo...maybe I need some help....mental help....like the little men all dressed in white...carrying a straight jacket. Haa haa haa. No seriously though, I do get this excited fear. I have been good with the scales....meaning I'm not a slave to the scales by hopping on all the time (ok even once a day and then obssessing). So I truely have no utter clue how I did this week. It will truely be a surprise! :-)
I've also got to get over this excited fear that I get every week about this time...waiting for the weigh in! Did I mention that it is Sunday and I don't get weighed in until Tuesday night? Wooooo...maybe I need some help....mental help....like the little men all dressed in white...carrying a straight jacket. Haa haa haa. No seriously though, I do get this excited fear. I have been good with the scales....meaning I'm not a slave to the scales by hopping on all the time (ok even once a day and then obssessing). So I truely have no utter clue how I did this week. It will truely be a surprise! :-)
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Still Sore!
Man, in that last post, I didn't even know what sore meant! The other night I got home and Todd and seen that we had a chef boy ar dee pizza kit in the pantry. Ooops. You know it. I switched from beef stroganoff to pizza. Not bad you may say, except that I had calculated all my points around the beef stroganoff. I luckily had kept a few spare points for a 'treat' before I went to bed. But, I still went over with the pizza. I didn't eat a half of pizza. I ate three slices. I should have kept it at two. That is my goal for next time I guess. LOL SOOOO after dinner I popped open my new exercise DVD and went to town. I was sore while doing it....but I made it through the low and high intensity work outs and the toning segment. So yesterday I get home and Todd was tired and didn't want to go to the gym. So in went the dvd. I did it all again. I could feel my muscles...eii yii yii. This morning, man do I feel it. The hot shower helped quite a bit..but I am still sore.
It's raining today....hurricane Ernesto is making its mark on us. (it rained yesterday also). Because of this, work should be pretty slow....I mean the battlefield is not going to get many tourists in this weather....and that directly reflects on our business.
Todd is talking about goign to the gym tonight also. Although, he is running errends today and took his gym bag today (he said he needs to catch up with me, since I'm working out so much...lol). So I'm not sure we will really make it tonight. I do definitely want to make it to the gym tomorrow though!
It's raining today....hurricane Ernesto is making its mark on us. (it rained yesterday also). Because of this, work should be pretty slow....I mean the battlefield is not going to get many tourists in this weather....and that directly reflects on our business.
Todd is talking about goign to the gym tonight also. Although, he is running errends today and took his gym bag today (he said he needs to catch up with me, since I'm working out so much...lol). So I'm not sure we will really make it tonight. I do definitely want to make it to the gym tomorrow though!
Thursday, August 31, 2006
SORE!
Well after my high intensity work out yesterday, coupled with all the walking that Todd and I did. FOLLOWED by making and canning applesauce until late last night, I slept like the dead and woke up tired and just worn out. I didn't even manage to get any exercise in. I made my breakfast, took a shower and here I sit. I did at least plan what we are having for dinner tonight. (Beef Stroganoff...7 points for the whole shebang). I haven't even packed my lunch for work yet...arrggghhhh. Lazy day!
I bought "The Biggest Loser" workout DVD yesterday. I thought it would be a neat one....especially since it doesn't need anything special (hand weights are optional...but I have them...and an exercise mat..which I have). What sparked this you may ask? Well, I am trying to shake up my workouts and try to stay out of getting in ruts (ie riding the exercise bike all the time...or hiking every day..etc etc etc). So I pulled out "The FIRM" Dvd's. I had them..never used them. I turned them on and low and behold...you need a Step. How did I miss that they use a step? Oh well. So yesterday I shopped...looking for a step. COME ON NOW! How hard can it be to find one? Well, apparently I didn't look in the right places. (I'm gonna eventually try Dicks Sporting Goods next time I am in Hagerstown...but we were in Martinsburg). So walking by the electronics section I thought it would be funny to see if they had "The Firm" dvds.....I mean to sell the DVD's but not the step...haa haa haa. I never got that far though. I saw "The Biggest Loser" dvd...which I've always been intrigued with, and bought it! I didn't have time last night...and I was too tired (having a hard time waking up this morning....remember) this morning. I'm planning on popping it in tonight and seeing how it goes!
Oh well...off to work I go!
I bought "The Biggest Loser" workout DVD yesterday. I thought it would be a neat one....especially since it doesn't need anything special (hand weights are optional...but I have them...and an exercise mat..which I have). What sparked this you may ask? Well, I am trying to shake up my workouts and try to stay out of getting in ruts (ie riding the exercise bike all the time...or hiking every day..etc etc etc). So I pulled out "The FIRM" Dvd's. I had them..never used them. I turned them on and low and behold...you need a Step. How did I miss that they use a step? Oh well. So yesterday I shopped...looking for a step. COME ON NOW! How hard can it be to find one? Well, apparently I didn't look in the right places. (I'm gonna eventually try Dicks Sporting Goods next time I am in Hagerstown...but we were in Martinsburg). So walking by the electronics section I thought it would be funny to see if they had "The Firm" dvds.....I mean to sell the DVD's but not the step...haa haa haa. I never got that far though. I saw "The Biggest Loser" dvd...which I've always been intrigued with, and bought it! I didn't have time last night...and I was too tired (having a hard time waking up this morning....remember) this morning. I'm planning on popping it in tonight and seeing how it goes!
Oh well...off to work I go!
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Sunday 8-27-06
Slow Sunday Morning
Our church starts late so it has been a lazy Sunday morning. I woke up and laid in bed a while reading. Pretty much between sentences (or at least every time I turned the page), I told myself to get out of bed and read while riding the exercise bike. Uhhhh, never happened.
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Slow Sunday Morning
Our church starts late so it has been a lazy Sunday morning. I woke up and laid in bed a while reading. Pretty much between sentences (or at least every time I turned the page), I told myself to get out of bed and read while riding the exercise bike. Uhhhh, never happened.
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Very Exciting!
I am very excited! I went to my weigh in last night. I weighed in at 3.8 pounds down! Yeppers! That makes a total of 13.2 pounds gone in three weeks. Even better, I started my period this morning. I usually weigh in a bit higher right before that! Soooo, I'm trying not to be too optimistic but it is very hard not to!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Slow Sunday Morning
Our church starts late so it has been a lazy Sunday morning. I woke up and laid in bed a while reading. Pretty much between sentences (or at least every time I turned the page), I told myself to get out of bed and read while riding the exercise bike. Uhhhh, never happened.
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Slow Sunday Morning
Our church starts late so it has been a lazy Sunday morning. I woke up and laid in bed a while reading. Pretty much between sentences (or at least every time I turned the page), I told myself to get out of bed and read while riding the exercise bike. Uhhhh, never happened.
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Todd and I went to my bosses pool last night (she is out of town and offered the pool to us while they are gone). I tried to remain active the whole time I was in the pool by swimming and jumping around. I at first got angry at Todd because he was hanging on me and wanting to play in the pool. I quickly realized though that it doubled my weight and resistance in the pool...making my work out much more intense. We are planning on going to the gym this afternoon after church. We really need to get in a routine of visiting the gym again! That is the only way that I am going to get this weight off...and that is to exercise it off...while I am eating healthy!
I'm doing ok with the eating portion. I haven't really weighed myself. I'm trying to stay away from my scales...they flucuate way too much. Plus when I don't see drastic movement (yes, I know..slow weight loss is better) then I get all depressed and worried about it. I am thinking that I need to forget my scales and just weigh in at weight watchers. Well...maybe at the gym to see how they weigh me!
Slow Sunday Morning
I woke up realtively early and read a little bit. I laid in bed, thinking (between sentences) that I should really motivate myself out of bed and read while riding the exercise bike. But, alas...bad me....I didn't do it. I did eventually get up and have been reading the boards on Weight Watchers. This for me is quite motivational. I know when I am losing the most weight, I am also focused on the weight loss. Almost obsessive abou it. Oh well, whatever it takes!
Last night after work Todd and I went to my bosses pool. (She is out of town and offered it to us to swim in while she was gone.) I swam or jumped around in the water for the whole 45 minutes we were there (would have stayed longer but a storm blew in..arrgghh). I actually had a pretty good work out. Plus, Todd was hanging all over me while I was trying to swim and jump around. It would have made me mad, except that it doubled my weight...and the work that I had to do to move.
Today after church, TOdd and I are planning on hitting the gym. We sooo have to get back into going to the gym on a regular basis. This not going has got to stop. I've got to get incredibly active. THat is the only way that I am going to get this weight off! Maybe I should also start wearing my pedometer on a regular basis. Working at the deli has got to be good for me in the aspect that I am on my feet and moving more than I would be if I had a desk job! Twould be interesting to see how many steps I do take a day.
I'm starting some challenges on the weight watchers boards. I am looking forward to getting as much motivation as possible!
I'm really trying to stay away from the scales. It is incredibly difficult now knowing where I am. But my home scales simply flucuate way too much! I will probably weigh myself today at the gym though. :-)
Last night after work Todd and I went to my bosses pool. (She is out of town and offered it to us to swim in while she was gone.) I swam or jumped around in the water for the whole 45 minutes we were there (would have stayed longer but a storm blew in..arrgghh). I actually had a pretty good work out. Plus, Todd was hanging all over me while I was trying to swim and jump around. It would have made me mad, except that it doubled my weight...and the work that I had to do to move.
Today after church, TOdd and I are planning on hitting the gym. We sooo have to get back into going to the gym on a regular basis. This not going has got to stop. I've got to get incredibly active. THat is the only way that I am going to get this weight off! Maybe I should also start wearing my pedometer on a regular basis. Working at the deli has got to be good for me in the aspect that I am on my feet and moving more than I would be if I had a desk job! Twould be interesting to see how many steps I do take a day.
I'm starting some challenges on the weight watchers boards. I am looking forward to getting as much motivation as possible!
I'm really trying to stay away from the scales. It is incredibly difficult now knowing where I am. But my home scales simply flucuate way too much! I will probably weigh myself today at the gym though. :-)
Friday, August 25, 2006
Another Week
Another week down and at my weigh in this past Tuesday, I found myself down another 3.2 pounds. This brings my total since starting weight watchers to 9.4 pounds. Yippee! My first goal is 24 pounds so I'm almost half way there!
I'm actually not having too much difficulty working with the point system. I am finding that I can eat quite a bit of food within my allotment, without using my flex points. Well, as long as I make a few minor adjustments! It also helps me if I have planned what we are having for dinner...or what I am eating wherever we are going. I can plan my breakfast and lunch better. I've been eating a lot of fruit. I need to kick up my vegetable consumption though!
I'm trying to be a whole lot more active. I am riding the exercise bike more, riding my 'regular' bike more and walking a whole lot more. I'm dragging Todd along for a lot of this also. So I can be happy and know that it is helping him also.
This process is so difficult for someone with no patience!
I'm actually not having too much difficulty working with the point system. I am finding that I can eat quite a bit of food within my allotment, without using my flex points. Well, as long as I make a few minor adjustments! It also helps me if I have planned what we are having for dinner...or what I am eating wherever we are going. I can plan my breakfast and lunch better. I've been eating a lot of fruit. I need to kick up my vegetable consumption though!
I'm trying to be a whole lot more active. I am riding the exercise bike more, riding my 'regular' bike more and walking a whole lot more. I'm dragging Todd along for a lot of this also. So I can be happy and know that it is helping him also.
This process is so difficult for someone with no patience!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Last night we went to an Italian restaurant with my
brother, his family and my parents. I was looking
at the menu and KNEW the points value for the spagetti
and the lasagna. I saw manicotti and THOUGHT that it
would be similar to lasagna. Come on now..it's
pretty close isn't it? WELLLLLLLLL I enjoyed it
greatly. Got home and went to the points menu in my
weight watchers books and low and behold it was
DOUBLE what I expected. I didn't blow my day too
badly. I was only 2 points over my daily limit.
I'm not worried because of the fact that we have those
35 extra weekly allowance points that I try not to
use..just for these occaisions... technically I
guess I now have 32 left. PLUS, apparently week
three I will learn about how exercise can add on points
to my daily allowance. For example someone told me
that walking like 15 minutes gives you one extra point
to eat a day. Well...no problem. I rode my bike for
30 minutes. So that 'probably' negated those two extra
points. :-)
Had some revelations yesterday. Went to the Waffle
House for breakfast. I was scanning the menu, ready
to face defeat and admit that I could get two eggs
and two pieces of toast and blow like 1/2 of my
daily allowance of points, when Todd mentioned a
waffle. I ran to the car and found it was only 5
points with a point extra for a teaspoon of butter
and one point for the syrup. SO I ate that. Much
less food than I would have normally eaten. Well I
got to work about an hour or so later and just had
an apple from my lunch, planning on eating my lunch
around 2 or 3. After all, I had gone to Waffle
house and had a 'big' breakfast (well, I used to
have big breakfasts at the waffle house). Round
about 2 I started feeling sick, My stomach was
feeling really weird. I was all worried. Then I
noticed that when I took a drink of water the feeling
would go away for about 10 minutes before it
returned. It got me thinking. WOW....the light
bulb clicked....I was actually HUNGRY. My body was
demanding food. I ate and I was ok. Ok, I know
this doesn't seem like a great revelation. However
to me it is. For years and years I have been eating
for the sake of eating, not really thinking about
the fact that my body really needs this food for
nurishment and to sustain my life. Since I was
simply shovelling food in, I so rarely got to the
point that my body was demanding food. Like I said,
yesterday was a huge revelation....actually allowing
my body to talk to me instead of my addiction to food!
Yes, I do have an addiction to food!
I've been exercising a whole lot this week. I woke up on Thursday and Todd didn't seem motivated to go out, so I hopped on the exercise bike. I was 15 minutes into it when he came into the living room and asked if I wanted to hike some. SURE...I would much rather go outside versus the exercise bike. So I quickly got dressed and headed out, we walked for 30 minutes. I then ALSO rode my bike to and from work!(15 minutes each way on the bike...so riding to and from work totals 30 mintues)
Friday I rode the exercise bike for 30 minutes and rode to and from work. Saturday I took it a bit easier and only did the exercise bike for 30 minutes. TOday, I dont' plan on riding the bike. I have already been out in the garden for about an hour picking. I'll spend a good deal of time in the kitchen today canning what I picked! Afterwards I need to clean the house. So even on my off day I'll be active. On monday we plan on going for a longer bike ride. I'm pretty excited!
brother, his family and my parents. I was looking
at the menu and KNEW the points value for the spagetti
and the lasagna. I saw manicotti and THOUGHT that it
would be similar to lasagna. Come on now..it's
pretty close isn't it? WELLLLLLLLL I enjoyed it
greatly. Got home and went to the points menu in my
weight watchers books and low and behold it was
DOUBLE what I expected. I didn't blow my day too
badly. I was only 2 points over my daily limit.
I'm not worried because of the fact that we have those
35 extra weekly allowance points that I try not to
use..just for these occaisions... technically I
guess I now have 32 left. PLUS, apparently week
three I will learn about how exercise can add on points
to my daily allowance. For example someone told me
that walking like 15 minutes gives you one extra point
to eat a day. Well...no problem. I rode my bike for
30 minutes. So that 'probably' negated those two extra
points. :-)
Had some revelations yesterday. Went to the Waffle
House for breakfast. I was scanning the menu, ready
to face defeat and admit that I could get two eggs
and two pieces of toast and blow like 1/2 of my
daily allowance of points, when Todd mentioned a
waffle. I ran to the car and found it was only 5
points with a point extra for a teaspoon of butter
and one point for the syrup. SO I ate that. Much
less food than I would have normally eaten. Well I
got to work about an hour or so later and just had
an apple from my lunch, planning on eating my lunch
around 2 or 3. After all, I had gone to Waffle
house and had a 'big' breakfast (well, I used to
have big breakfasts at the waffle house). Round
about 2 I started feeling sick, My stomach was
feeling really weird. I was all worried. Then I
noticed that when I took a drink of water the feeling
would go away for about 10 minutes before it
returned. It got me thinking. WOW....the light
bulb clicked....I was actually HUNGRY. My body was
demanding food. I ate and I was ok. Ok, I know
this doesn't seem like a great revelation. However
to me it is. For years and years I have been eating
for the sake of eating, not really thinking about
the fact that my body really needs this food for
nurishment and to sustain my life. Since I was
simply shovelling food in, I so rarely got to the
point that my body was demanding food. Like I said,
yesterday was a huge revelation....actually allowing
my body to talk to me instead of my addiction to food!
Yes, I do have an addiction to food!
I've been exercising a whole lot this week. I woke up on Thursday and Todd didn't seem motivated to go out, so I hopped on the exercise bike. I was 15 minutes into it when he came into the living room and asked if I wanted to hike some. SURE...I would much rather go outside versus the exercise bike. So I quickly got dressed and headed out, we walked for 30 minutes. I then ALSO rode my bike to and from work!(15 minutes each way on the bike...so riding to and from work totals 30 mintues)
Friday I rode the exercise bike for 30 minutes and rode to and from work. Saturday I took it a bit easier and only did the exercise bike for 30 minutes. TOday, I dont' plan on riding the bike. I have already been out in the garden for about an hour picking. I'll spend a good deal of time in the kitchen today canning what I picked! Afterwards I need to clean the house. So even on my off day I'll be active. On monday we plan on going for a longer bike ride. I'm pretty excited!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
First week down
Well, my first week of weight watchers is past me. And 6.2 pounds are gone! Woo hooo. I'm pretty excited because it has been quite some time since I've been able to celebrate a movement downward on the scale. SO this is pretty big for me.
I did quite a bit of exercising thus far this week. I rode the exercise bike yesterday morning for a half hour and then walked/alternately ran for about 30 minutes yesterday. Today I got up and we walked for 45plus minutes. Then I biked to work and biked home. I'm going to try to exercise AT LEAST 30 minutes a day this week...and see how that goes!
I did quite a bit of exercising thus far this week. I rode the exercise bike yesterday morning for a half hour and then walked/alternately ran for about 30 minutes yesterday. Today I got up and we walked for 45plus minutes. Then I biked to work and biked home. I'm going to try to exercise AT LEAST 30 minutes a day this week...and see how that goes!
Monday, August 14, 2006
The moment of truth is almost upon me. I go to my second week of weight watchers.....so I can see if I have lost any weight. The question is, is this diet working for me? I think it is one that I can stick with. It is really not much different than the calorie watching that I had been previously doing. This somehow seems more simple and consise. It seems easier to remember the point values than having to remember calories. We'll see though!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Moving Again
I've been tenatively watching the scales. I am happy to say that the numbers are going DOWN again! I know that this is because it is my first week back in the diet saddle again. However, at least I am moving! I'm still trying to be cautious in my excitement though....I know it isn't all going to be this easy!
It is just way too depressing sometimes to look at the foods I love and realize that to eat them would be to blow half of my food budget/allowance for the day. That depresses me. It also helps me realize exactly how I got to this position!
It is just way too depressing sometimes to look at the foods I love and realize that to eat them would be to blow half of my food budget/allowance for the day. That depresses me. It also helps me realize exactly how I got to this position!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Weight Watchers
I desperately needed to do something. My weight has been sitting idle for some time. It is discouraging because I watch what I eat and don't see any change, which causes me to stop watching and therefore eat bad stuff, in bad quantities. So I up and did it. I went to a Weight Watchers meeting on Tuesday night and joined. I don't know if it is what I need. But I'm willing to give it a shot. I'm hoping kicks me into high gear and motivates me to actually stay true to the diet and not 'cheat'. So far it's a whole lot easier than I thought it would be. I'm actually not having any problems maintaining the point limit. I'm not tempted to really cheat either....as this is still new! We'll see how this goes! I'm hoping to at least start losing instead of sitting at a standstill on the weight thing!
Monday, August 07, 2006
Random Thoughts
I got an email from a friend the other day. In it she was talking about some thought that she had about her weight loss. It really made me think. Why is this weight thing a huge problem. I've been stalled for the LONGEST time. I say I'm determined to do this. But why do I fall so easily. My friend talked about how she doesn't feel pretty so subconsciously she has no desire to lose the weight...why bother. She mentioned that she doesn't bother with make up or the frilly girl things because she feels it would be worthless....I know I definitely fit that bill! I'm wondering how much of the rest is true with me. My husband tells me that I'm pretty as do my parents. But I don't feel pretty. I often wonder what I'll look like when I'm thin. I wonder if I'll be pretty. I dont' know..... Maybe I'm afraid to look in the mirror and see what I'll look like without these pounds to hide behind.
Things are going so slow for me. I'm not losing....I'm struggling with the eating...and I struggle with the exercise! ARRGGHHHH
Things are going so slow for me. I'm not losing....I'm struggling with the eating...and I struggle with the exercise! ARRGGHHHH
Friday, August 04, 2006
Coke or Water?
Saw this on someone elses Blog.....interesting that at the moment of reading it I was literally taking a sip of Diet Pepsi. It immediately turned yucky tasting in my mouth!
Water or Coke?
WATER
1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated
2. In 37% of Americans, the thrist mechanism is so weak that it is often mistaken for hunger.
3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as much as 3%
4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of Washington study
5. Lact of water: The #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.
6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.
7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on the computer screen or on a printed page
8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast cancer by 79%, and one is 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer.
And Now for the properties of COKE
1. In many states ( in the USA) the highway patrol carries 2 gallons of coke in the trunk to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.
2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of Coke and it will be gone in two days.
3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and let the "real thing" sit for one hours, then flush clean. The citric acid in Cike removes stains from Vitreous China.
4. To remove rust spots from Chromecar bumpers: Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of aluminum foil diped in Coca-Cola.
5. To clean corrosion brom car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.
6. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake. Thirty minutes before the ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix with the coke for a sumptuous borwn gravy. (not on my eating plan!)
7. To loosen a rusted bolt; applying a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola for several minutes
8. To remove grease from clothes; Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy clothes, add detergent and run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola helps loosen grease stains.
9. It will also clean road haze from your windshield.
For Your Info
1. The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. Its pH is 2.8. It will dissolve a nail in about 4 days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase in osteoporosis.
2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup ( the concentrate) the commercial truck must use the Hazardous material place cards reserved for Hightly corrosive materials.
3. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean the engines of their trucks for about 20 years.
Now the question is, would you like a coke or a glass of water?
I think I will drink more water but buy coke for my cleaning closet!
Water or Coke?
WATER
1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated
2. In 37% of Americans, the thrist mechanism is so weak that it is often mistaken for hunger.
3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as much as 3%
4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of Washington study
5. Lact of water: The #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.
6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.
7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on the computer screen or on a printed page
8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast cancer by 79%, and one is 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer.
And Now for the properties of COKE
1. In many states ( in the USA) the highway patrol carries 2 gallons of coke in the trunk to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.
2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of Coke and it will be gone in two days.
3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and let the "real thing" sit for one hours, then flush clean. The citric acid in Cike removes stains from Vitreous China.
4. To remove rust spots from Chromecar bumpers: Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of aluminum foil diped in Coca-Cola.
5. To clean corrosion brom car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.
6. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake. Thirty minutes before the ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix with the coke for a sumptuous borwn gravy. (not on my eating plan!)
7. To loosen a rusted bolt; applying a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola for several minutes
8. To remove grease from clothes; Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy clothes, add detergent and run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola helps loosen grease stains.
9. It will also clean road haze from your windshield.
For Your Info
1. The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. Its pH is 2.8. It will dissolve a nail in about 4 days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase in osteoporosis.
2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup ( the concentrate) the commercial truck must use the Hazardous material place cards reserved for Hightly corrosive materials.
3. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean the engines of their trucks for about 20 years.
Now the question is, would you like a coke or a glass of water?
I think I will drink more water but buy coke for my cleaning closet!
We made it through a VERY HOT carnival sound job. It was 100 plus degrees outside (yes, literally.....with a 'feels like' temp of like 115...in the shade!) I felt bad for the fire company that was putting on the carnival.....the heat kept so many people away. I was talking to one of the guys and he was talking about how sparsly attended it was. But, it was hotter than hades to work and unload and reload and set up and all that stuff! Let me tell you ....if a person could lose weight
based on how much they sweated...I'd have lost a few pounds in sweat alone!
I changed my clothes (everything...underwear, socks and bra included)
three times....when i was sorting laundry this morning I pulled the clothes
out ofthe bag that they were in....DRENCHED with sweat. But, happily we drank and made it through ok. :-)
Mom and I (and Karla) are thinking about starting weight watchers together. I'm not sure. I have been watching the calories....maybe I need something a little more structured though. Something that watches the everything....all combined into the point value. So I'm really thinking seriously about doing it!
based on how much they sweated...I'd have lost a few pounds in sweat alone!
I changed my clothes (everything...underwear, socks and bra included)
three times....when i was sorting laundry this morning I pulled the clothes
out ofthe bag that they were in....DRENCHED with sweat. But, happily we drank and made it through ok. :-)
Mom and I (and Karla) are thinking about starting weight watchers together. I'm not sure. I have been watching the calories....maybe I need something a little more structured though. Something that watches the everything....all combined into the point value. So I'm really thinking seriously about doing it!
Sunday, July 30, 2006
The weekend has arrived
I should have known that if I didn't exercise yesterday morning that it wasn't gonna happen. I'm always beat on Saturday nights...after a full week of work. Especially yesterday.....we were slammed. For about two or three hours I barely had time to breathe. (Ok ok ok...that's when work is fun for me!) Todd and I went out to eat after work. I stayed on target with what I ate. Part of this is because I knew we were going to go out before I went to work and I was able to think about it and actually check on my calorie counter if it would fit into my daily plan. So I knew BEFORE I went what to order. But, when I got home....the house was hot and I just couldn't get the energy to go exercise!
Todd and I are talking about going to the gym today. We are also going to try to get a ride in on the exercise bike tomorrow! Getting re-motivated is so difficult!
Todd and I are talking about going to the gym today. We are also going to try to get a ride in on the exercise bike tomorrow! Getting re-motivated is so difficult!
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Staying on Target
Well, yesterday I didn't exercise. I had every intention of riding my bike when I got home. BUt when I got home I wanted to clean the kitchen. So I decided to ride the exercise bike when I got done. Well, best laid intentions..... I didn't ride. I kept pushing it off because I was tired. Stupidly thinking I would do it later. However, when later came, I was more tired! I was planning on riding to work this morning but there is a chance of rain...arrggghhhh. And Todd and I are going out after work...which means I have to rely on getting myself on the exercise bike..LATE. I've got no choice. I need to make it no choice. I just have to do it...regardless!
Eating wise, I'm doing ok. Last night, I made chicken nuggets. (healthy version to boot) I also made Todd roasted potatoes. I did not eat even one slice of potato. I decided instead to have the healthy veggies in place of the potates. Today I've got a healthy meal planned for my lunch also! We'll see how it goes. It is so difficult to NOT eat when I am at work.....during the afternoon when the duldrums hit! It is plain and simple boredom eating that I struggle with at my job! (Course it isn't helped by the fact that I work around food...lol)
But, so far....so good.
Eating wise, I'm doing ok. Last night, I made chicken nuggets. (healthy version to boot) I also made Todd roasted potatoes. I did not eat even one slice of potato. I decided instead to have the healthy veggies in place of the potates. Today I've got a healthy meal planned for my lunch also! We'll see how it goes. It is so difficult to NOT eat when I am at work.....during the afternoon when the duldrums hit! It is plain and simple boredom eating that I struggle with at my job! (Course it isn't helped by the fact that I work around food...lol)
But, so far....so good.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Long time in coming
As has been shown in the recent, distantly spaced entries; I haven't been doing good. I KNEW what I needed to do, however my will power was totally gone. In doing that, I had no desire to write in this journal. In fact, this journal was something I didn't even think about! That's not good. It shows me how far from my plan I really was! Every once in a while I would think about losing weight...and I would wake up every morning with the good intentioned plan to 'do it', however as soon as something bad passed my lips (doughnuts, cake, etc etc etc) I gave up and made the vow that "tomorrow I would start".
A bad thing occured during this same slump. Summer came and with the garden (planting, weeding and harvesting....berries also) and my new job, it became much more difficult to go to the gym.
Thoughout that period of diet sluggishness I was maintaining my weight loss. That made me happy even throughout my disappointment in not losing more. We had a weigh in for the group of us that are trying to lose weight together. (However this group is not big on encouragement...basically we have a weigh in every few months......well, take that back...Suzy and I do a lot of encouragement) About a month ago we had our last weigh in. I weighed in at 221. I knew that this was very close to where I was about two months previously at that weigh in so I was happy. I didn't weigh myself for a few weeks. About a week and a half ago I weighed myself....I was up. I was up consistently for a few days. I also noted that I felt bloated and fat. It really scared me! SOOOOO This week, I've actually gotten off my butt. I've been on my bike every day this week. I've been watching what I eat. Within 3-4 days I have lost that bloated fat feeling...for the most part (as much as possible for someone that is overweight!) So I'm back on task. Now, to just stay there!
A bad thing occured during this same slump. Summer came and with the garden (planting, weeding and harvesting....berries also) and my new job, it became much more difficult to go to the gym.
Thoughout that period of diet sluggishness I was maintaining my weight loss. That made me happy even throughout my disappointment in not losing more. We had a weigh in for the group of us that are trying to lose weight together. (However this group is not big on encouragement...basically we have a weigh in every few months......well, take that back...Suzy and I do a lot of encouragement) About a month ago we had our last weigh in. I weighed in at 221. I knew that this was very close to where I was about two months previously at that weigh in so I was happy. I didn't weigh myself for a few weeks. About a week and a half ago I weighed myself....I was up. I was up consistently for a few days. I also noted that I felt bloated and fat. It really scared me! SOOOOO This week, I've actually gotten off my butt. I've been on my bike every day this week. I've been watching what I eat. Within 3-4 days I have lost that bloated fat feeling...for the most part (as much as possible for someone that is overweight!) So I'm back on task. Now, to just stay there!
Sunday, June 25, 2006
I have absolutely no will power. None at all. Yesterday I was at work and one of the girls that I work with mentioned that she was hungry for doughnuts. I jumped up, grabbed my money and was off to buy a dozen doughnuts. I couldn't just stop at eating one. I couldn't just stop at eating two. Three you may be asking. I WISH! I ate four doughnuts through the course of the day. I'm ashamed to write that, but four doughnuts. I simply forewent lunch....ate a doughnut instead. eii yii yii
Then I had leftover doughnuts that I brought home. This morning I was only going to eat one......oops two down the hatch before I could remember that.... "Oh yeah, I'm dieting". I threw the rest in the garbage before I could tally up the same number today as I did yesterday!
I've decided that my goal for this week....along with eating better (Stand away from the doughnuts), is to actually try to exercise each day. Even if it is just twenty minutes on the exercise bike. I'm actually thinking 20 minutes on the exercise bike each day....and then whatever other exercise comes up in the natural progression of the day!
Then I had leftover doughnuts that I brought home. This morning I was only going to eat one......oops two down the hatch before I could remember that.... "Oh yeah, I'm dieting". I threw the rest in the garbage before I could tally up the same number today as I did yesterday!
I've decided that my goal for this week....along with eating better (Stand away from the doughnuts), is to actually try to exercise each day. Even if it is just twenty minutes on the exercise bike. I'm actually thinking 20 minutes on the exercise bike each day....and then whatever other exercise comes up in the natural progression of the day!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Excuses
Pure and unadultered truth. I have had the best intentions to get back into the swing of things. HOWEVER, one case of food poisioning...and one sinus infection later pretty much sums up my last two weeks. Sounds like excuses...but they are the absolute truth.
Friday, June 09, 2006
Frustration
Ok, it's been a month. A LONG month of disappointment!I have not lost any weight and continue to flucuate at the same weight. I find this so utterly disappointing and discouraging! I just want to do this. I still haven't measured myself and was thinking this morning that I am goign to make sure that I get that done this weekend.
The past month has brought a lot of changes in my life. I quit my old job, a job where I sat on my butt for 10 hours a day, and spent an hour in the car a day. I got a job only 2 miles from my house at a local deli. I am on my feet for most of my day. The first few weeks were horrendous. While I found that I loved my new job, my legs just ached somethine fierce. Because of this, the biking kinda went by the wayside. Actually everything went by the wayside, I would come home and sit doing nothing. I am happy because I am almost through a work week and this is the first week that my legs haven't felt as if they weighed 10 tons! SOOOO, now I'm itching to get back on the bike and get back to the gym!
My grand plan for this job is to actually start to bike to work! It is only two miles and the road has a pretty wide shoulder to ride on. I haven't done it yet, but if my legs continue to fill good, I just may start soon!
So, in essence, this last month has been one frustration after another! The only good thing......that leaves lots of room for improvement!
The past month has brought a lot of changes in my life. I quit my old job, a job where I sat on my butt for 10 hours a day, and spent an hour in the car a day. I got a job only 2 miles from my house at a local deli. I am on my feet for most of my day. The first few weeks were horrendous. While I found that I loved my new job, my legs just ached somethine fierce. Because of this, the biking kinda went by the wayside. Actually everything went by the wayside, I would come home and sit doing nothing. I am happy because I am almost through a work week and this is the first week that my legs haven't felt as if they weighed 10 tons! SOOOO, now I'm itching to get back on the bike and get back to the gym!
My grand plan for this job is to actually start to bike to work! It is only two miles and the road has a pretty wide shoulder to ride on. I haven't done it yet, but if my legs continue to fill good, I just may start soon!
So, in essence, this last month has been one frustration after another! The only good thing......that leaves lots of room for improvement!
Monday, May 01, 2006
Progress....sometimes is harder to find, but it is there!
I really need to measure myself...it's been probably a month and a half since I measured....poundage-wise...seem to be sitting still. :-( The doctor was actually pleased though today....I was 30 pounds lighter than when I was last there a while back.
Well, even though I haven't been seeing a great loss of weight, I did see a difference in SOMETHING this week. We have been working in the garden a lot this week. Previous years, I do something for 15 minutes and I was wiped out.......sore...tired, etc etc etc. Not this year. I noticed that my stamina is much better for active tasks. THe other thing....I've started riding my bike on HILLS.....I have been riding a lot on the canal in previous years...FLAT. I've started riding on the battlefield roads...VERY hilly! It KILLS me, and I am panting and gasping for breath when I get to the top of these hills...BUT the good thing. I recover within a minute or so.....last time I had tried to ride on the battlefield, I couldn't catch my breath...and we actually had to stop for about 15 minutes or so for my heart to stop racing. Now, I keep biking but still recover much faster!
Well, even though I haven't been seeing a great loss of weight, I did see a difference in SOMETHING this week. We have been working in the garden a lot this week. Previous years, I do something for 15 minutes and I was wiped out.......sore...tired, etc etc etc. Not this year. I noticed that my stamina is much better for active tasks. THe other thing....I've started riding my bike on HILLS.....I have been riding a lot on the canal in previous years...FLAT. I've started riding on the battlefield roads...VERY hilly! It KILLS me, and I am panting and gasping for breath when I get to the top of these hills...BUT the good thing. I recover within a minute or so.....last time I had tried to ride on the battlefield, I couldn't catch my breath...and we actually had to stop for about 15 minutes or so for my heart to stop racing. Now, I keep biking but still recover much faster!
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
I'm surprised that I'm not eating everything under the sun. Why, because I'm stressed out about my job. But so far today, I've been a pretty good girl. I ate wisely...leaving me enough calories to actually be able to eat dinner and not being able to only eat vegetables or risk going over my calorie count. I walked on my breaks today...so that equaled to an hour of walking. AND, they left me go early from work...and I went to the gym. I didn't do a complete LONG workout at the gym. I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes on the weights. BUT, it was a start...and oh boy, let me tell you. The weights whoopped up on me today! It's been a bit and I can really tell!
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Today
Today so far I've done pretty good. I think once I am back in the routine of actually notating my foods I'll do better. I was looking at my book today and I would write my foods on one day...but the next day would 'forget'. So nothing consistent. Honestly, one day I "forgot" because I was eating poor choices! I can't do that anymore. I NEED to do this consistently!
I dread going back to work because I hate my job. But, on the other hand, going back to work will force me back into a routine. I plan on walking on my breaks again like I was doing before and of course want to continue to go to the gym!
I dread going back to work because I hate my job. But, on the other hand, going back to work will force me back into a routine. I plan on walking on my breaks again like I was doing before and of course want to continue to go to the gym!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Still Struggling
Ok.......more than a week later and I'm still struggling. When I first started this, I was gung ho and didn't have any problems starting. I'm still gung ho, however I'm really struggling with getting back on track. I will say that in the last few days, I've started to eat healthier again....even if it is not where I want to be calorie and fat content wise, at least it's healthier.
I have to just do this!
I have to just do this!
Monday, April 03, 2006
Starting Again
Well let me tell you. Once you fall off the bandwagon, it isn't easy to pick it back up. I'm determined to do it though! I said this yesterday morning and just didn't do it. In fact, I was craving potato chips...and I'm almost too ashamed to say it...but ate the whole bag. NO, not an individual serving size...the WHOLE BIG bag of chips. Man, did they ever taste good...but I can't do that! I know it was a mental war within myself. I knew I shouldn't be eating the chips...but I was battling inside my head, "just one more". I would eat that one more...and already, before I could even close the bag, my mind was saying "only a handful more". I was no match for this mental game! I caved......oh boy did I cave!
Today, I'm not doing soo bad. The only problem is that since I've been eating the bad things....my body is wanting those bad things. I rarely suffer from cravings....but boy oh boy I'm suffering now!
But, I've got to regain my control and start again. I didn't make my end of month goal...and in fact lost a little ground over the last week (well, maybe not, I'm still within that, 'it's ok it could be water retention weight range).
I just need to use this week as a lesson to help me in future times of difficulty!
Today, I'm not doing soo bad. The only problem is that since I've been eating the bad things....my body is wanting those bad things. I rarely suffer from cravings....but boy oh boy I'm suffering now!
But, I've got to regain my control and start again. I didn't make my end of month goal...and in fact lost a little ground over the last week (well, maybe not, I'm still within that, 'it's ok it could be water retention weight range).
I just need to use this week as a lesson to help me in future times of difficulty!
Saturday, April 01, 2006
bad week
This was a bad week for my diet. On one hand I'm actually tickled that my weight has remained in the same range. BUT, this was a very stressful week, Todd and I were getting ready to go on vacation and stopped by to say goodbye to his mom. We found her in bed, delirious. APparently, the cancer in her bones was not only eating the bones, but releasing all that calcium into her bloodstream...causing delirium. From research and from what Hospice said, I knew that this was going to lead to her death. We cancelled our vaction and we started spendign 20 hours out of the day over there. It was a rough week. When we did find time to eat, it was really bad food. We live in the country...restaurants are not plentiful so we ate where we could catch a bite. AND to make matters worse, even when we were at home, there was no food....remember we were leaving for vacation so we had no food at the house...ok we had food but the basics that you need to prepare that food was/is missing. So, eating bad and exhaustion was my week. I didn't drink my water like I should be doing. Last night was the first night I slept in my bed, she passed yesterday and I weighed myself this morning. I was sad to see 2 pounds up...but tickled because that could really be water retention or something......it could have been a lot worse! But what an interesting lesson to see what happens when things get bad in my life.
Friday, March 24, 2006
End of Month Goal
I set up small mini goals for the end of each month. I knew that some months I probably wouldn't reach the goal, but it is giving me something to strive for. So, for the month of March, I have my goal set. Well, I knew that we were leaving for vacation the evening of March 27th. I will not be weighing myself while I am away. (OK, I'll be weighing myself...but no official weight recorded as I will be utilizing different scales). So I knew in my head that I may not even know if I reached my goal. WELL...I'm happy because I am three pounds from the goal. I know that I have only really 3 days left at home....and that is near impossible to lose a pound a day but, I am happy that I am that close! :-)
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Slowly
After sitting at a dead stand still with my weight, I am finally starting to see the weight drop. Ever so slowly, but it the weight is dropping! For the last like 4 days, I've been down. None of this hectic all over the scales weight going on!
Todd and I are leaving for vacation in a week. I am trying to make plans to be as active as possible. I don't want to stall my weight again! Realistically, I would like to come home from vacation, weigh myself and find that I have maintained my weight while I was out there. I am debating on if I want to try to go withoug weighing myself the whole time I am out there. My fear is, if I do that, I will come home and find I have gained weight...... HOWEVER, my GOAL is to actually lose while I am on vacation. Like I said, we are planning a more active vacation this year. We are planning on walking, and we are trying to get into a gym out there for the two weeks, and we are debating taking our bikes (depends on the weather forecast), etc etc etc.
I am so ready for vacation. Just to get away from it all and relax!
Todd and I are leaving for vacation in a week. I am trying to make plans to be as active as possible. I don't want to stall my weight again! Realistically, I would like to come home from vacation, weigh myself and find that I have maintained my weight while I was out there. I am debating on if I want to try to go withoug weighing myself the whole time I am out there. My fear is, if I do that, I will come home and find I have gained weight...... HOWEVER, my GOAL is to actually lose while I am on vacation. Like I said, we are planning a more active vacation this year. We are planning on walking, and we are trying to get into a gym out there for the two weeks, and we are debating taking our bikes (depends on the weather forecast), etc etc etc.
I am so ready for vacation. Just to get away from it all and relax!
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Waiting
Waiting. That is what I am doing. I'm trying not to be disappointed about the fact that I am sitting at the same weight! TRYING....but if I am honest with myself, I would admit that I'm getting disgusted. No, I am in no way quitting this. I am more determined then ever to see this to the end. I'm GOING to do it! I KNOW that if I continue on this path...watching carefully what I eat and working out at the pace that I am working out at...that the weight will eventually drop. The only bright light is that I AM seeing my clothes fitting better... and looser!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Great Workout
Well, first of all....got on the scales today and found that I was 1 pound heavier than yesterday. Now that can be water. So I'm not stressing. However, unless I do a massive drop like I did the other week, I'm not going to make my end of month goal. I'm not stressin' over it though. Slow and easy is the ONLY way to do this in order for it to be a 'life' altering experience. My goal of 2 pounds a week...is pretty bold...but managable...AND healthy! I'm still pretty much on target...even with having sat for the last few weeks without moving the scales!
OK....my workout! Yesterday we went to the gym. I started on the elliptical trainer. I was on it and even though I wasn't exactly lazing, I decided that I was going to push it up a notch. Every five minutes I reversed it for one minute before going back to foward. Reverse just about kills me...so this was pushing me. I felt VERY good when I got off the elliptical. I then went and did the weights...I pushed my weights up a notch....5-10 pounds more in some cases. Just enough to REALLY feel the burn! :-) So today we went back to the gym. I did the treadmill today......I pushed my speed up to the point where I could walk but just barely....and every five minutes I pushed it up to a point that it was either jog or fall off the back of the treadmill. My lungs were sucking in air for that minute before I pushed it back down. SO....I did like 8 total minutes jogging out of 45. May not seem like much....but it is monumental for me. I haven't run anywhere for YEARS!
OK....my workout! Yesterday we went to the gym. I started on the elliptical trainer. I was on it and even though I wasn't exactly lazing, I decided that I was going to push it up a notch. Every five minutes I reversed it for one minute before going back to foward. Reverse just about kills me...so this was pushing me. I felt VERY good when I got off the elliptical. I then went and did the weights...I pushed my weights up a notch....5-10 pounds more in some cases. Just enough to REALLY feel the burn! :-) So today we went back to the gym. I did the treadmill today......I pushed my speed up to the point where I could walk but just barely....and every five minutes I pushed it up to a point that it was either jog or fall off the back of the treadmill. My lungs were sucking in air for that minute before I pushed it back down. SO....I did like 8 total minutes jogging out of 45. May not seem like much....but it is monumental for me. I haven't run anywhere for YEARS!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Dissapointment
Well..... After my wonderful news from last week, yeah that big weight loss, my week turned sour in the diet department! The next day I woke up and jumped on the scales....excited! I didn't expect to lose anymore...but hey, I'm addicted to the scales. Low and behold, I was like right back where I was the two days previously. I swallowed deeply and waited for the next day......I was even five pounds heavier. I was now back to 15 pounds heavier than my wonderful day on Tuesday! I tried to not let myself get disappointed. After all, the monthly 'ick' was expected to arrive late in the week. It was a long week. I don't allow myself to weigh in more than once a day. Each day roughly the same.....hovering around 232-235. Then the ick arrived and it slowly has started to receed. This morning I was down to 228.
This is so hard for someone that really wants things to be done ten minutes ago. What a lesson in patience!
Meanwhile, within the last week or so I had a revelation. Why eat something that doesn't taste REALLY good? Wait and eat something that tastes spectacular! Why do I shove food down if it isn't the greatest? Todd and I were out, eating at a salad bar (HOss's). I was getting my salad (healthily I might add....salad dressing on the side...to dip and low on the cheese and other fatty substances). Well, I saw they had Mac and cheese.....yum. SoOOOOOO I decided to get just a half cup. I figured that would be roughly 200 calaries. A Lot, but I decided to make the adjustments and manage my food intake to allow for it. (Ok, that was a revalation in itself!) So, I get the mac and cheese back to the table and couldn't wait to dig into my 'treat'. I took one bite. Now don't get me wrong, the mac and cheese wasn't bad. However it wasn't GREAT. And suddenly I decided that it wasn't worth cutting other things out in order to have that mac and cheese. I would rather manage and cut corners in order to have something SPECTACULAR!
That combined with my revalation from a few years back....the concept of only eating what I am hungry for and ignoring those messages that my body is sending saying that I have to eat it all...because I may never get it again. I WILL eat the good stuff again.....and I learned that I enjoy it ever so much more if I don't shovel so much in!
This is so hard for someone that really wants things to be done ten minutes ago. What a lesson in patience!
Meanwhile, within the last week or so I had a revelation. Why eat something that doesn't taste REALLY good? Wait and eat something that tastes spectacular! Why do I shove food down if it isn't the greatest? Todd and I were out, eating at a salad bar (HOss's). I was getting my salad (healthily I might add....salad dressing on the side...to dip and low on the cheese and other fatty substances). Well, I saw they had Mac and cheese.....yum. SoOOOOOO I decided to get just a half cup. I figured that would be roughly 200 calaries. A Lot, but I decided to make the adjustments and manage my food intake to allow for it. (Ok, that was a revalation in itself!) So, I get the mac and cheese back to the table and couldn't wait to dig into my 'treat'. I took one bite. Now don't get me wrong, the mac and cheese wasn't bad. However it wasn't GREAT. And suddenly I decided that it wasn't worth cutting other things out in order to have that mac and cheese. I would rather manage and cut corners in order to have something SPECTACULAR!
That combined with my revalation from a few years back....the concept of only eating what I am hungry for and ignoring those messages that my body is sending saying that I have to eat it all...because I may never get it again. I WILL eat the good stuff again.....and I learned that I enjoy it ever so much more if I don't shovel so much in!
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
BIG LOSS
OK, yesterday I got on the scales and was roughly 229-230. Today, I get on the scales I and my first weight was 219. YES, I about fell of the scales. I got off and jumped back on...sure that there was a mistake. It weighed me the same. Off....on...off on. It was dead on (ok, I don't have the most expensive scales.....but still not dollar store variety...paid about 60 for them...so actually it was like one time it was 220 the next time 219. Back and forth). Todd told me not to look a gift horse in the mouth. :-) I think it is due to the fact that I was stalled in February.....REALLY stalled. I was eating ultra healthy and exercising daily. The only thing that I had stopped doing was drinking my water. When I got sick I fell off the bandwagon and never jumped back on. Well about a week or so ago, I started drinking TONS again. The only thing I can think of is, my body is now used to and expects to get that 64 plus ounces of water so it is not retaining as much water. In essence, it's not afraid that it is going to dehydrate because I am giving it plenty of fluids. So all I can think of is that my body finished shucking that extra water weight! I went through all Feb. with no weight loss (well, i would lose it and then gain that pound back the next day). Then all of a sudden it dropped!
Wooo hooo!
Wooo hooo!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Mistake
Today Todd and I went out to lunch. I was perusing the menu, looking for a healthy option. I decided on the vegetable platter. I was just starting to look at the options of veggies when the waitress came. Todd ordered and I was forced to make my decision right then and there. I ordered mashed potatoes (bad bad bad), pickled beets (good choice), a side salad (dressing on the side.....good choice), it came with a roll (looking not so good) and OUCH...I don't even want to say it.....mac and cheese. It was sooo yummy going down. BUT then I came home and did my calculations. I am watching calories. OUCH. I only had a bowl of special K this morning....with just a tad of milk (I don't like milk)....and when I added lunch....ouch, I have only like 200 calories for the rest of the day. I didn't realize this until about 2PM when I started to feel hungry (yep...). So I hurried over to calculate.....that way I could judge my snack. Hmmmm...not good. I guess a salad is my friend for dinner tonight!
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Water Debate
Ok.....so my weight stalled. Is this teetering weight thing really my water retention or something bigger. I chanced on an article......don't ask me where, saying that if we are not getting our correct amount of water intake (that would be the 64 ounces) that we may be actually retaining more water. Kinda weird...drink more to retain less. I really need to check this out. I know before I got sick, I was drinking up a storm....and while I was sick I struggled with drinking. After my bout with the flu, I continued to struggle with drinking the proper amounts of water. Worth checking out...or at least trying!
Meanwhile, I don't think I am going to make my target of 229 pounds by the end of February. I'm not upset....disappointed maybe. But all is not lost. I'm only a few pounds off that target.....and I am still on target for my big goal....those few pounds that I am off (like 3-5 pounds off) only take my 'need to lose each week' from 1.99 pounds to 2.04 NOT bad! PLUS...this month aint over yet! I plan on using those three days to my advantage!
Meanwhile, I don't think I am going to make my target of 229 pounds by the end of February. I'm not upset....disappointed maybe. But all is not lost. I'm only a few pounds off that target.....and I am still on target for my big goal....those few pounds that I am off (like 3-5 pounds off) only take my 'need to lose each week' from 1.99 pounds to 2.04 NOT bad! PLUS...this month aint over yet! I plan on using those three days to my advantage!
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Plodding along
I feel as if I am plodding along. I'm still following my plan. Exercising regularly. Eating healthy. However, I feel as if I am going so slow. Yes, I'm a here and now girl, so this is a struggle! I just want this to be done. Yes, I know I'll have to watch this the rest of my life....but I want this losing thing to be over. I wonder daily what I will actually look like when I get down to my goal weight...down to a healthy weight. I have never been an adult at a healthy weight! Everyone says I looked real good when I graduated college...and I was 214. But I want to go roughly 50 pounds more...give or take! It's a mystery that is just killing me!
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Still weighing myself
Ok, even though I know I fluctuate, I am still weighing myself pretty much everyday! Only once a day....if I remember. :-) I am happy to announce that I am starting to go down again. I am back in the saddle again and working toward this goal. My short term goal is to be at 228 by the end of February. I'm not sure I'm going to make it...but it will be close if I don't. I am at 231 today....which means 3 pounds in the next ten days. Doable? Yes. Close? Yes. Will I be disappointed if I don't make it? Yes. Will I give up? NO! Being around 228-229 at the end of February keeps me in line to reach my target by my birthday. Actually, that would have me at reaching my target in November......but I want to give myself a little leeway........ I'm determined to do it. :-)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Inches.....not pounds
Well, the last few weeks have been a struggle. I see my weight drop and then jump right back up. It seems as if I have lost the same few pounds over and over. I have looked back at my food logs and I have not cheated on the days that I saw a rise...or starved myself on the days that I saw a dip....I'm just flucuating 5 pounds different from day to day. I talked to my husband and he said that because we are so big, that our fluid retention will do that...and that when he lost 150 pounds a few years ago...until he dropped down he flucuated 5-10 pounds daily....arrggghh. He said that for him at about 210 down, the scales were more true for him. I plan on researching this tonight to see if he was feeding me a line!
On a good note....I actually measured myself......it has been about a month since I last did it. I have quite a few inches. If I actually add them all together....like 7 inches. Woo hooo!
I'm really not to tempted to eat bad things. Which I find really cool.....I only wish that I could snap my fingers and have this done. I guess though that I am training my body how to proceed so that when I lose it I can maintain the loss!
On a good note....I actually measured myself......it has been about a month since I last did it. I have quite a few inches. If I actually add them all together....like 7 inches. Woo hooo!
I'm really not to tempted to eat bad things. Which I find really cool.....I only wish that I could snap my fingers and have this done. I guess though that I am training my body how to proceed so that when I lose it I can maintain the loss!
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Well Again
This past week has been rough. Today, 8 days after the flu hit, is probably the first day that I haven't felt sick at all (thus far). We actually went to the gym and did a light workout yesterday. It felt good. However, I know I didn't work out to my full potential. BUT.....I got my feet wet and got back into it.
We got about a foot of snow last night. Today when Todd and I went out to shovel, we realized how much more in shape we are....after only one month of working out. We didn't get winded or overheated. We didn't have to stop and rest every couple shovels of snow (and it was a wet heavy snow today). It was a good thing to see.
My weight has been all over the board. The day before we got sick, I was down to 235. I was tickled! Then the next day I was back up at 240. I didn't eat much the first couple days and dropped back to 235. I went back up to 240 toward the middle of the week...and then started dipping again. Then yesterday, I was right back up there. ARRGGGHHH
We got about a foot of snow last night. Today when Todd and I went out to shovel, we realized how much more in shape we are....after only one month of working out. We didn't get winded or overheated. We didn't have to stop and rest every couple shovels of snow (and it was a wet heavy snow today). It was a good thing to see.
My weight has been all over the board. The day before we got sick, I was down to 235. I was tickled! Then the next day I was back up at 240. I didn't eat much the first couple days and dropped back to 235. I went back up to 240 toward the middle of the week...and then started dipping again. Then yesterday, I was right back up there. ARRGGGHHH
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Injury
Well, I have been religious about goign to the gym and/or doing cardio at home. BUT about a week ago, I noticed this unnatural bump on my foot...hard....hurts when touched...REALLY hurts when pressed....right on the top of my foot. So, I think I will probably have to head to the doctor. Although right now it isn't too bad. WHen it first happened, I switched from the treadmill to an elliptical trainer (lower impact) and it seemed to help...(I at least didn't notice it all that much) THEN on Friday, I really noticed it again (coincidence that I was on the treadmill for my 10 minute warm up?...hmmm) It seems to have gone down over the weekend. BUT, I don't want to injure myself...the point is HEALTH......lol
BUT honestly, I feel that even if the doctor prescribes me to stay off my foot, I will probably still work out....trying to take it easy on that foot. I am so determined to do this this year.
BUT honestly, I feel that even if the doctor prescribes me to stay off my foot, I will probably still work out....trying to take it easy on that foot. I am so determined to do this this year.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Cravings
I am just wanting to gorge myself on food. No particular craving. I'm just soo hungry. I don't suffer from cravings...however, I do just get incredibly hungry at 'that time of the month. I'm fighting it though.
I'm concerned about my foot. I have a hard knot sitting ontop of my foot...it hurts when it is touched and even more so when something applies pressure to it. I am going to make an appointment with the doctor. I'm afraid they will say stop exercising...which for me right now isn't an option!
I'm concerned about my foot. I have a hard knot sitting ontop of my foot...it hurts when it is touched and even more so when something applies pressure to it. I am going to make an appointment with the doctor. I'm afraid they will say stop exercising...which for me right now isn't an option!
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Worked out lightly today, only because I gave myself a rip roaring workout yesterday! Yes, I'm sore today! :-) (sore is a good feeling....means I'm doing something).
After we worked out today we went to Hoss's. I got the salad bar but stumbled with it came to the cake. I got a piece and enjoyed every bite. Part of me feels bad because that was totally useless calories. The other part doesn't feel bad, last night I struggled so much with getting a late night snack....and perservered. No, I know I can't reward myself for every 'triumph'. But if I want to do this forever, then I need to allow myself to be human every once in a while.
After we worked out today we went to Hoss's. I got the salad bar but stumbled with it came to the cake. I got a piece and enjoyed every bite. Part of me feels bad because that was totally useless calories. The other part doesn't feel bad, last night I struggled so much with getting a late night snack....and perservered. No, I know I can't reward myself for every 'triumph'. But if I want to do this forever, then I need to allow myself to be human every once in a while.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Temptation
I know my friends at work are not purposefully being sadistic. However, I seem to be offered junk food/snacks soo much more now. So far I've been able to refrain from joining them. I instead enjoy my grapes/apple for my nightly snack. I'm back down to 240 pounds today. Woo hooo...that makes 90 more to go!
I read the book by Jillian Michaels the other day and walked away with a better purpose in what I really need to do to get this weight off, and keep it off. I did some real figuring to find out exactly what I can have to attain my goal. At this weight, with three work outs a week (30 cardio and 30 weight) I can eat 1250 calories a day and lose 2 pounds a week. SOOO, in typical MF fashion, I decided that I would like to throw some more cardio into the mix.....that way I can eat more...or lose more...depending on the day! :-)
I was also kinda worried about what I'll be allowed to have when I reach my goal. With a sedentary lifestyle (no exercise) at 150 pounds to maintain I would need roughly 1600 calories. That's not too bad....expecially when you add the exercise in to the mix! So there is hope for a long term plan.
I read the book by Jillian Michaels the other day and walked away with a better purpose in what I really need to do to get this weight off, and keep it off. I did some real figuring to find out exactly what I can have to attain my goal. At this weight, with three work outs a week (30 cardio and 30 weight) I can eat 1250 calories a day and lose 2 pounds a week. SOOO, in typical MF fashion, I decided that I would like to throw some more cardio into the mix.....that way I can eat more...or lose more...depending on the day! :-)
I was also kinda worried about what I'll be allowed to have when I reach my goal. With a sedentary lifestyle (no exercise) at 150 pounds to maintain I would need roughly 1600 calories. That's not too bad....expecially when you add the exercise in to the mix! So there is hope for a long term plan.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Scale Addiction
Ok, I'm addicted! To the scales that is. I woke up this morning and didn't want to get out of that nice warm bed. SOO I laid there thinking about getting on the scales to see where I was/am. I have noticed that my scales, even though they are a pretty good set of scales, are flucuating a lot. Not just from day to day (that is probably me) But I can weigh myself, get off and get back on and get a different weight. I think it may have had something to do with the fact that the bathroom floor isn't that great...it's a bouncy floor and a bit uneven. (gotta love old houses) PLUS, we drag them out from under the ironing board with our feet, weigh ourselves and then push them right back under there. That can't be good on them. SOOOO I drug the scales to the bedroom and they now reside in there. We'll see how that goes!
Meanwhile, I sent my weight to my own weight loss club group. I want to lose 100 pounds. I set a goal of my birthday...just to have something in mind. So that would be actually about 70 pounds by the end of our weight loss thing. However, my REALISTIC goal is 50 by the end of October. That is only a little over 5 pounds a month. :-)
I guess for a closer goal.....I want to be down to 225, or lower by my trip to Indiana in April. That is 20 pounds..in roughly two months. :-) I would love to definitely be in one size lower jeans by then!
Meanwhile, I sent my weight to my own weight loss club group. I want to lose 100 pounds. I set a goal of my birthday...just to have something in mind. So that would be actually about 70 pounds by the end of our weight loss thing. However, my REALISTIC goal is 50 by the end of October. That is only a little over 5 pounds a month. :-)
I guess for a closer goal.....I want to be down to 225, or lower by my trip to Indiana in April. That is 20 pounds..in roughly two months. :-) I would love to definitely be in one size lower jeans by then!
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Baking day!
Well, I've been doing pretty good. I haven't been able to stay off the scales. And I'm appalled when I have an up day...but equally happy when I have a down day. (Today is an up day......yesterday was a down day) I'm interested to see if it is DIRECT correlation to my workout days. Hmmmmm....I'm not talking about a pound here. I'm talking about 5 pounds difference!
My dearest husband volunteered me to bring dessert to a party we are going to tonight. THANKS (note the sarcasm). As if being there and seeing it isn't tempting enough.....BAKING it is worse! I made brownies and cookies. I had a 1 inch square of brownie and two soft sugar cookies. I never realized how many cookies I probably popped in my mouth when I was baking! I was really fighting the urge! I'm ok with the amount that I had though. I'm not in this to deprive myself of ever having the fun stuff! I mean, yes, I wish I wouldn't have succumbed to the temptation. But I'm happy with the control I ultimately displayed over the situation. (Course the stuff is still in the house....lol)
My arms are still really sore from working on on Wednesday and then again on Friday. It's a good sore though...because it means I'm doing something good. On the other hand, my foot is really giving me problems. I was wondering how long it would take the 'old bone' to kick into action. Well, it happened. Yesterday I decided to move the furniture around in the house. I started at around 8 AM and worked until we left the house (about noon). We ran errends all day and worked out at the gym and got home at about 8. I picked right back up and worked at the house non-stop until about 11PM. Round about 9 or 10 it started. The foot pounded and ached. ARRGGHHH.....but hey, I've lived with this since I was in elementary school. I can tough it out. It can only get better the less weight it has to support! :-) My only concession is that I may try to do some cardio that is not so high impact. I've been doing a lot of treadmill....I may switch to the bike or elliptical for a time being!
My dearest husband volunteered me to bring dessert to a party we are going to tonight. THANKS (note the sarcasm). As if being there and seeing it isn't tempting enough.....BAKING it is worse! I made brownies and cookies. I had a 1 inch square of brownie and two soft sugar cookies. I never realized how many cookies I probably popped in my mouth when I was baking! I was really fighting the urge! I'm ok with the amount that I had though. I'm not in this to deprive myself of ever having the fun stuff! I mean, yes, I wish I wouldn't have succumbed to the temptation. But I'm happy with the control I ultimately displayed over the situation. (Course the stuff is still in the house....lol)
My arms are still really sore from working on on Wednesday and then again on Friday. It's a good sore though...because it means I'm doing something good. On the other hand, my foot is really giving me problems. I was wondering how long it would take the 'old bone' to kick into action. Well, it happened. Yesterday I decided to move the furniture around in the house. I started at around 8 AM and worked until we left the house (about noon). We ran errends all day and worked out at the gym and got home at about 8. I picked right back up and worked at the house non-stop until about 11PM. Round about 9 or 10 it started. The foot pounded and ached. ARRGGHHH.....but hey, I've lived with this since I was in elementary school. I can tough it out. It can only get better the less weight it has to support! :-) My only concession is that I may try to do some cardio that is not so high impact. I've been doing a lot of treadmill....I may switch to the bike or elliptical for a time being!
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Our own challenge
Well, it is official. A group of my friends from college years (and a couple other people) have started our own Biggest Loser challenge. We weigh in this Friday....and take a picture this Friday! Hopefully it will work to motivate us all! Worked out at the gym today with the trainer (my second of three free hours). She worked me harder today.....my muscles were sore sore sore when I left there!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Trying not to dwell!
Ok...stepped on the scales today and I'm up a pound. Eating the same....and working my guts out at the gym. I have to keep telling myself.....it's muscle, it's muscle, it's muscle! I am lifting weights at the gym so I know that I will probably gain a little bit here and there as I gain muscle. BUT...it is still hard to see the weight gain on the scales. Maybe I shouldn't weigh myself for two weeks or so...then just be shocked at either how much I gain...or how much I lose! :-)
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Trying new things!
Well, I am trying to cook differently and change the way we eat. Last night I made poached chicken with a mandarin orange and water chesnut sauce. I thought it was pretty good. (Todd said the chicken was bland.....it was poached in chicken broth and garlic). Tonight I roasted a spaghetti squash and had it with sauce. Todd said it wasn't too bad. (His words were, "It was palatable") I didn't like it at all! SOOOO....even though spaghetti squash is better for us, it's back to whole grain pastas for us. :-)
I'm trying to eat more throughout the day. So about midway between my meals, I'm getting some fruit to eat.
I'm going to try to get to the gym tomorrow morning before work!
I'm trying to eat more throughout the day. So about midway between my meals, I'm getting some fruit to eat.
I'm going to try to get to the gym tomorrow morning before work!
Friday, January 20, 2006
First hour with a fitness trainer
Today both Todd and I had an hour with a fitness trainer. They went over our general health and then walked us through some of the weights. We came out of there with some good information...and made sure that we actually were using the weight machines properly. (So as to get the most from them). They talked a lot about diet and how that is such an integral part of this process. I just smiled and nodded, because that has been a goal of mine for the last few weeks! They gave us some tips like, when we eat our salad, get the dressing on the side. Then either dip your fork in the dressing then get the food to eat. Or actually get the food on your fork and then dip the food a bit. I have to say, it actually worked. We both got salads for lunch....and we used probably 1/4 of the salad dressing that we would have normally used. Todd said he prefers the fork method...I think I prefer the dipping method. :-) But the result was almost the same....we each had one and a half things of dressing left! :-) AND since the dressing is the bad part...this is actually a really good lesson/idea. Both of our trainers told us to be eating smaller meals.......and both of them expounded on peanut butter! Sounds good to me because I am a peanut butter and jelly fanatic! :-) Homemade jelly! :-)
Feel very good after the workout...not sore...but every once in a while I move and realize that yes, I did work out. This is a very good feeling! I can't wait until I see the pounds start to drop! :-)
Feel very good after the workout...not sore...but every once in a while I move and realize that yes, I did work out. This is a very good feeling! I can't wait until I see the pounds start to drop! :-)
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Disappointment
Last night, about an hour before Todd got off work I was busily putting our stuff in our bags to take to the gym. We were going to go to the gym and then go to my parents to see them as Dad just got back from the Phillipines and then they are both heading to Flordia on Friday. Todd came up and I could tell that he was exhausted. He insisted that we still go to the gym...however I know that he would have probably passed out he was that far gone. So I told him we didn't have to go. I think he was relieved, and I honestly want what is the best for him. However, I wish he would have told me how he was feeling much earlier because I would have gone to the gym on my own earlier in the day. (His car is in the garage so we have to coordinate our travels to town as we live 25 minutes out of town). We saw my parents and came home. He played around on his computer all evening. I actually DID get on the exercise bike and ride...and I also did my crunches. I can't let him not going....no matter what his reason......cause my stride to falter. I was disappointed enough that I was a little teary!
So, I got up this morning and went to the gym by myself (Todd is working a long day today).
Well, I think I have some divine intervention with my eating. Today, Todd wanted a pizza. I made it and watched what kind and how much cheese I put on......basically I was careful with the whole thing...but knew that I would be going overboard even with 2 pieces. Well, the pizza came out of the oven...it smelled sooo good. I cut it up and couldn't resist...I put half of the pizza on my plate (who wants to walk back into the kitchen to get more). Half way out of there, I bumped the plate and the BIG piece (1/4 of a pizza) fell off the plate and went kersplat on the floor...UPSIDE DOWN. Well, after that first moment of ....awww great on the carpet...I realized that it was good...NO temptation to eat that piece now! :-) Now, the funny thing about this is....this is not the first time something like this has happened in the last few weeks! I went to make toast the other morning (I LOVE BREAD and could eat piece after piece YUM YUM YUM) and popped my toast into the toaster.......I knew something was wrong when I heard something MOVE inside my toaster....right before I heard is squeak! I electrocuted a mouse in my toaster. YES, I threw the toaster away...NO I didn't eat the toast. And even though I have already replaced the toaster, I have like NO desire to eat toast right now!
Crossing my fingers, called the mechanic and they are working on the car RIGHT now....so hopefully we will get that back soon...which will make it much easier for us to work out.....logistically speaking.
So, I got up this morning and went to the gym by myself (Todd is working a long day today).
Well, I think I have some divine intervention with my eating. Today, Todd wanted a pizza. I made it and watched what kind and how much cheese I put on......basically I was careful with the whole thing...but knew that I would be going overboard even with 2 pieces. Well, the pizza came out of the oven...it smelled sooo good. I cut it up and couldn't resist...I put half of the pizza on my plate (who wants to walk back into the kitchen to get more). Half way out of there, I bumped the plate and the BIG piece (1/4 of a pizza) fell off the plate and went kersplat on the floor...UPSIDE DOWN. Well, after that first moment of ....awww great on the carpet...I realized that it was good...NO temptation to eat that piece now! :-) Now, the funny thing about this is....this is not the first time something like this has happened in the last few weeks! I went to make toast the other morning (I LOVE BREAD and could eat piece after piece YUM YUM YUM) and popped my toast into the toaster.......I knew something was wrong when I heard something MOVE inside my toaster....right before I heard is squeak! I electrocuted a mouse in my toaster. YES, I threw the toaster away...NO I didn't eat the toast. And even though I have already replaced the toaster, I have like NO desire to eat toast right now!
Crossing my fingers, called the mechanic and they are working on the car RIGHT now....so hopefully we will get that back soon...which will make it much easier for us to work out.....logistically speaking.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
The dreaded scales
Well, yesterday I ate really healthy. My calories were low...my fat intake was low. I was actually fully satisfied. I actually didn't eat all of my food, I was so satisfied. So, I'm happy because my body is adjusting to a differnt syle of eating.
I've been getting on the scales everyday up to now. I know some people that say they weigh themselves everyday and some that say they only do it once a week. I guess I kinda like to know what I am doing....except for today. I've been kinda bummed because I was actually a bit heavier. However, I ate my cereal for breakfast and immediately felt ill, and have been in the bathroom a couple of times...so maybe that could have been attributing to why my weight was a bit up.
we are planning on going to the gym tonight when Todd gets off work. That should help! :-)
I've been getting on the scales everyday up to now. I know some people that say they weigh themselves everyday and some that say they only do it once a week. I guess I kinda like to know what I am doing....except for today. I've been kinda bummed because I was actually a bit heavier. However, I ate my cereal for breakfast and immediately felt ill, and have been in the bathroom a couple of times...so maybe that could have been attributing to why my weight was a bit up.
we are planning on going to the gym tonight when Todd gets off work. That should help! :-)
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
A loss!
Wooo hooo....10 pounds gone! I'm excited! I know it is small...but I've been working hard to get this done. I've cut my calories to 1500 from my previous 2500-3000 calories. AND I've been working out every day! This is my first day that I am taking a break. Wooo hooo!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
The Gym
Yesterday Todd and I went to the gym and did our first workouts there. I did 45 minutes on the treadmill and then did the circuit weights. I have come to a couple conclusions. Yes, my riding my exercise bike and hiking on my own have really helped. BUT, I worked myself much much harder at the gym. In a way, this may be good. I work myself hard at the gym...and then on my off days I still exercise...but not working so hard, giving my body a bit of a rest! The other conclusion I came to. My legs are strong (that would have been fairly obvious if I had thought of the fact that I bike and hike a lot!). On my legs, I was pushing upwards of 100 pounds....but on my upper body....30 about did me in! :-) Today...one day later....it's my arms that are a bit sore! :-) I did the machines for the abs...and when I did my crunches this morning, I could feel that twinge of soreness when I worked them...but otherwise they are ok.!
I'm excited! I'm looking forward to talking to the trainer to see what I need to do to accomplish my goals...and actually getting started on a real routine. :-)
I'm excited! I'm looking forward to talking to the trainer to see what I need to do to accomplish my goals...and actually getting started on a real routine. :-)
Friday, January 13, 2006
Slow day
Yeah, thank God....Todd's colonoscopy went well! The only downside....we had to take it relatively easy today. SOOOOOO back on the bike for me. The thirty minute preprogrammed ride is still kickin' my butt....arrgghhh! We each go for our appointments with the trainer at the gym next Friday. Hmmm...my goals to tell the trainer.....lose weight, tone to try to keep from getting flabby skin hanging off my body, be healthy. If I lose 2.1 pounds a week..then I can be 150 by my next birthday. I'm gonna ask the trainer if this is a realistic goal....or what she would consider a realistic goal......assuming that I am willing to work. :-)
Doing pretty good with eating...cutting WAY back. After the colonoscopy, Todd wanted a sub sandwich. We stopped and I actually had a package of sweet rolls in my hand and was waiting in line to pay. I had to actually take a deep breath and put them back. It is a thing of totally conquering these bad habits!
Doing pretty good with eating...cutting WAY back. After the colonoscopy, Todd wanted a sub sandwich. We stopped and I actually had a package of sweet rolls in my hand and was waiting in line to pay. I had to actually take a deep breath and put them back. It is a thing of totally conquering these bad habits!
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Signing Up!
Today my husband and I went to Golds Gym to see about getting a membership. We know that we need the variety that a gym provides. SOoo....we took our tour and plunked down our money. We would have started today...however, Todd is on a liquid diet in preparation for a colonoscopy that he is having performed tomorrow. Soooo...I came home and rode the exercise bike and did my crunches. I had been doing the 20 minute preprogrammed workout on the bike....the first day or two my legs felt jelly like when I got off. But quickly I was hot but not really pushing it.....soooo today, I pushed it up to the next level.....30 minutes. It is a harder bike program...and longer. The last 8 minutes KILLED....but I did it! :-)
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Exercise
OK....I've started. In the last five days, I have exercised four of those days. Three days I churned on the exercise bike and then today my husband and I hiked a couple of miles. I stuck to the 20 minute activity. The first day my legs felt a little like jelly. But, I know that I need to turn it up another level. I have also been working on my crunches. Yes, my worst area is my stomach......So, I feel like I am helping my achilles heel by doing the crunches.
Found a great site... www.fitday.com This site is so awesome. You can enter your foods eaten and it will give you the total calories, fat and nutrients for the day. Then you can go and enter your exercise for the day...including various daily activities. After all is entered, the report page breaks it down into how you are progressing...and not progressing. Where they problem areas may be...so on and so forth!
I need to lose 2.1 lbs a week to meet my goal by my birthday of this year!
Found a great site... www.fitday.com This site is so awesome. You can enter your foods eaten and it will give you the total calories, fat and nutrients for the day. Then you can go and enter your exercise for the day...including various daily activities. After all is entered, the report page breaks it down into how you are progressing...and not progressing. Where they problem areas may be...so on and so forth!
I need to lose 2.1 lbs a week to meet my goal by my birthday of this year!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Why is this so important now?
I have been overweight for years. I remember when I was young. I was not overweight. I was actually rather petite and small. My family moved from Pennyslvania to Florida when I was 12 years old. I wore a size 6...and I remember, I was so upset to go to that six. Suddenly; within the first year of moving, I gained weight. They said it was a combination of the 'culture shock' and me hitting those wonderful years that we all have to go through. However, my weight slowly crept up through high school. I went to college and it was probably one of the best times for my weight. I was always on the go.....for a while we exercised religiously at the "Y" (thanks Suzy and Rach....it was actually fun to go with ya'll) True, the Dairy Queen beckoned on the way back to the dorm...but I was so active that I was actually at one of my lowest weights in years. 214. I cringe when I see that......214 pounds was a good weight in my mind???
I left college and the weight started slowly creeping back on. I didn't work on it...I just let it happen. I had one time where I was close to my college weight...but it was due to a stressful job....NOT worth it. AND the downside.....when I left the job and the stress was alleviated....the weight returned with a vengence. When I say with a vengence, I not only returned me to my 'pre-stress job' weight...I added about 40 more pounds extra.
I turned thirty and panicked! I wanted to have a baby someday. I had always had one 'strike' against me. I was big...it would make a full term/healthy pregnancy/baby more difficult. BUt I always had 'youth' on my side. All of a sudden I had that "I'm in my thirties, I'm getting old" moment. I started working on my weight...and got myself back down to my 240. I plataued....and I have sat at 240-250 for the last 2-3 years.
During those last few years I've made half hearted attempts to kick start this process. However I just couldn't do it. Sadly enough, it is/was watching my mother struggle. She is a few years shy of 60 and she is struggling with her weight. It is terrible to see.....her health and her very life are contingent on her weight. I know that she has been lucky...it has only been in the last few years that these 'weight related' health issues have really surfaced. However, they are here and they are attacking! Typical mother, even as she struggles, she worries about my husband and I. She doesn't want us to go through what she is going through....and she knows it will most likely happen to us if we don't get this excess weight off.
Just recently it hit me. This weight is going to kill me. Not tomorrow...or the next day (hopefully). But eventually, it could very easily catch me in it's clutches. I can't let that happen. I have to fight!
For the last few years I have said..."well, if I get down to to 175 pounds I think that would be great". Just recently, I decided that was cutting myself short. Honestly, if I get there and just can't get it futher, I'm going to consider myself a sucess. However, I'm aiming more for what they "SAY" I should weigh....SO I am aiming for roughly 150... 100 pounds!
I left college and the weight started slowly creeping back on. I didn't work on it...I just let it happen. I had one time where I was close to my college weight...but it was due to a stressful job....NOT worth it. AND the downside.....when I left the job and the stress was alleviated....the weight returned with a vengence. When I say with a vengence, I not only returned me to my 'pre-stress job' weight...I added about 40 more pounds extra.
I turned thirty and panicked! I wanted to have a baby someday. I had always had one 'strike' against me. I was big...it would make a full term/healthy pregnancy/baby more difficult. BUt I always had 'youth' on my side. All of a sudden I had that "I'm in my thirties, I'm getting old" moment. I started working on my weight...and got myself back down to my 240. I plataued....and I have sat at 240-250 for the last 2-3 years.
During those last few years I've made half hearted attempts to kick start this process. However I just couldn't do it. Sadly enough, it is/was watching my mother struggle. She is a few years shy of 60 and she is struggling with her weight. It is terrible to see.....her health and her very life are contingent on her weight. I know that she has been lucky...it has only been in the last few years that these 'weight related' health issues have really surfaced. However, they are here and they are attacking! Typical mother, even as she struggles, she worries about my husband and I. She doesn't want us to go through what she is going through....and she knows it will most likely happen to us if we don't get this excess weight off.
Just recently it hit me. This weight is going to kill me. Not tomorrow...or the next day (hopefully). But eventually, it could very easily catch me in it's clutches. I can't let that happen. I have to fight!
For the last few years I have said..."well, if I get down to to 175 pounds I think that would be great". Just recently, I decided that was cutting myself short. Honestly, if I get there and just can't get it futher, I'm going to consider myself a sucess. However, I'm aiming more for what they "SAY" I should weigh....SO I am aiming for roughly 150... 100 pounds!
GREAT INSIPIRATION
I found this story on the internet while reading Blogs...couldn't help but post it on mine to reread whenever I need that little umf to help me stay movitaved and keep my willpower strong!
FOund on http://journals.aol.com/mmclem1112/marks ...just reading his blog is an inspiration in itself.....so far 172 pounds gone!
Posted by Kat on March 1st, 2005
Charles Laurence
The Sunday Telegraph
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Big Pete” Loiselle is a shadow of his former self. At 6-foot-6 and 260 pounds, he sits at his kitchen table and describes what it is like to be one of the most obese people in the United States.
The 40-year-old schoolteacher from Ellsworth, Me., told of being mocked at shopping centres, being unable to use public washrooms, suffering from severe body odour because of the sweat trapped in the folds of his skin and being scarcely able to lift himself from his living room chair to go to work. In the end, with his weight peaking at 763 pounds and a waist measuring 84 inches, his spine was being crushed by the pressure of his stomach whenever he stood up. It had come down to a decision between diet and death
“You get bigger a little bit at a time,” Mr. Loiselle says. “The bigger you get, the less activity you do. Even going to the bathroom is a problem.”
For 20 years, he could not go to a movie because he could no longer fit into the seats. He missed his sister’s wedding in Chicago because he could not afford to buy the two seats the airline was demanding before letting him on board. The mere act of staggering from his pick-up truck to his front door or into his classroom would leave him gasping for breath.
As he soared past the 700-pound mark in his early thirties, Mr. Loiselle worked out that he could get himself dressed more easily if he put his shoes on before hauling on his enormous, custom-made jeans. When he could no longer tie his shoelaces, he bought shoes with Velcro fasteners. “I could not go to my favourite restaurants because I could not fit into the chairs,” he says. “So I bought my own chair, tossed it into the back of the truck and hauled it into the restaurant.”
Mr. Loiselle did not, by his reckoning, “gorge constantly.” He did not eat breakfast and insists he was “never the kind of guy who ate all 12 eggs in the box” at one sitting. Rather, he regularly ate cheese crackers and peanut butter biscuits—“a packet or two at a time.”
There was plenty of food to be had, he discovered, if he volunteered for lunch duty at the Surry Elementary School, close to his home on the spectacular Bar Harbor coast of Maine. “The cooks always make too much for the kids, so I would eat all I liked from the leftovers. When I got home, I’d sit down and eat all that carbohydrate-sodium-sugar stuff that makes you feel good. Then I’d have an ordinary dinner—burgers, or something like that—only I’d have two or three portions. I ate all that I wanted and never counted the calories.”
If he had counted, according to the doctors who eventually helped save his life, the mathematics teacher would have arrived at a figure close to 10,000 for his daily calorie intake.
“I stopped going to the mall because of people pointing, staring and giggling,” he says.
Mr. Loiselle insists, however, that he was perfectly happy as one of the fattest men in the United States. At the age of 25, when he weighed about 650 lbs, he married Christine, now 45. “My love life? Well, I’ll say this: I’m still happy, and I’m still married. It’s another thing you learn to work your way around,” he says.
Christine laughs, and says: “There’s a lot less to love now, but a lot more loving. Pete was pretty big when I got to know him, and his weight was never an issue. He’s a really nice guy, and he has a wicked sense of humour. I always saw beyond what everyone else saw.”
At school, his pupils had never mocked him, even as he grew too big to get up from his chair below the blackboard. Mr. Loiselle had wanted to be a teacher since he was 13, and he has a knack for the job. He is known as a strict disciplinarian, but one whom the children love and respond to. When, in the end, he found himself in hospital, they made videotapes pleading for him to recover.
“The kids were my biggest defenders.”
By the time he was 36, however, Mr. Loiselle knew that his health was failing. He was developing cellulitis in his legs, an agonizing condition that causes inflammation of body tissue, which can lead to gangrene and amputation. While he was in hospital, he was told he would lose his legs within a year—and his life within three or four. It was considered remarkable that he had reached his mid-thirties at all.
Doctors called in surgeons and dietitians. They offered Mr. Loiselle a last chance plan: if he lost 100 lbs, they would offer gastric bypass surgery. After gastric bypass, however, a patient must stay on a strict diet for life.
Mr. Loiselle’s face still creases with horror at the thought. He decided he would forgo the gastric bypass and simply diet. “There was no big moment,” he says. “But I wanted to be with Christine, and I wanted to be big brother to my four siblings, all younger, and I wanted to see the 22 nephews and nieces they have grow up.”
With the dietitian, he worked out a daily regimen of 2,200 calories which enabled him to eat his favourite foods. He still enjoys peanut butter and burgers, drinks the odd beer and takeout from KFC. He just eats less.
For two-and-a-half years, he lost an average of 17 lbs a month—the total weight loss of almost 504 lbs is understood to be the largest achieved without surgery. After a year, he was able to exercise, and he now walks four miles a day and lifts weights daily. He has a body mass index of 30 and a body-fat ratio of 15.3%. “According to my doctor, I now officially have the body of an athlete,” he says, smiling.
Mr. Loiselle has, however, had one operation: his diet left him with folds of floppy skin. Surgeons removed eight pounds of skin from around his waist. “Yes, I’m happier like this,” he concedes. “I realized that my family had been keeping a little distance from me, because they were scared I was going to die.”
And not long ago, Mr. Loiselle was striding through Ellsworth when he encountered some pupils from his 700-pound days. “They were in shock,” he says. “And they were even in tears to see me like this because they were so pleased.”
FOund on http://journals.aol.com/mmclem1112/marks ...just reading his blog is an inspiration in itself.....so far 172 pounds gone!
Posted by Kat on March 1st, 2005
Charles Laurence
The Sunday Telegraph
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Big Pete” Loiselle is a shadow of his former self. At 6-foot-6 and 260 pounds, he sits at his kitchen table and describes what it is like to be one of the most obese people in the United States.
The 40-year-old schoolteacher from Ellsworth, Me., told of being mocked at shopping centres, being unable to use public washrooms, suffering from severe body odour because of the sweat trapped in the folds of his skin and being scarcely able to lift himself from his living room chair to go to work. In the end, with his weight peaking at 763 pounds and a waist measuring 84 inches, his spine was being crushed by the pressure of his stomach whenever he stood up. It had come down to a decision between diet and death
“You get bigger a little bit at a time,” Mr. Loiselle says. “The bigger you get, the less activity you do. Even going to the bathroom is a problem.”
For 20 years, he could not go to a movie because he could no longer fit into the seats. He missed his sister’s wedding in Chicago because he could not afford to buy the two seats the airline was demanding before letting him on board. The mere act of staggering from his pick-up truck to his front door or into his classroom would leave him gasping for breath.
As he soared past the 700-pound mark in his early thirties, Mr. Loiselle worked out that he could get himself dressed more easily if he put his shoes on before hauling on his enormous, custom-made jeans. When he could no longer tie his shoelaces, he bought shoes with Velcro fasteners. “I could not go to my favourite restaurants because I could not fit into the chairs,” he says. “So I bought my own chair, tossed it into the back of the truck and hauled it into the restaurant.”
Mr. Loiselle did not, by his reckoning, “gorge constantly.” He did not eat breakfast and insists he was “never the kind of guy who ate all 12 eggs in the box” at one sitting. Rather, he regularly ate cheese crackers and peanut butter biscuits—“a packet or two at a time.”
There was plenty of food to be had, he discovered, if he volunteered for lunch duty at the Surry Elementary School, close to his home on the spectacular Bar Harbor coast of Maine. “The cooks always make too much for the kids, so I would eat all I liked from the leftovers. When I got home, I’d sit down and eat all that carbohydrate-sodium-sugar stuff that makes you feel good. Then I’d have an ordinary dinner—burgers, or something like that—only I’d have two or three portions. I ate all that I wanted and never counted the calories.”
If he had counted, according to the doctors who eventually helped save his life, the mathematics teacher would have arrived at a figure close to 10,000 for his daily calorie intake.
“I stopped going to the mall because of people pointing, staring and giggling,” he says.
Mr. Loiselle insists, however, that he was perfectly happy as one of the fattest men in the United States. At the age of 25, when he weighed about 650 lbs, he married Christine, now 45. “My love life? Well, I’ll say this: I’m still happy, and I’m still married. It’s another thing you learn to work your way around,” he says.
Christine laughs, and says: “There’s a lot less to love now, but a lot more loving. Pete was pretty big when I got to know him, and his weight was never an issue. He’s a really nice guy, and he has a wicked sense of humour. I always saw beyond what everyone else saw.”
At school, his pupils had never mocked him, even as he grew too big to get up from his chair below the blackboard. Mr. Loiselle had wanted to be a teacher since he was 13, and he has a knack for the job. He is known as a strict disciplinarian, but one whom the children love and respond to. When, in the end, he found himself in hospital, they made videotapes pleading for him to recover.
“The kids were my biggest defenders.”
By the time he was 36, however, Mr. Loiselle knew that his health was failing. He was developing cellulitis in his legs, an agonizing condition that causes inflammation of body tissue, which can lead to gangrene and amputation. While he was in hospital, he was told he would lose his legs within a year—and his life within three or four. It was considered remarkable that he had reached his mid-thirties at all.
Doctors called in surgeons and dietitians. They offered Mr. Loiselle a last chance plan: if he lost 100 lbs, they would offer gastric bypass surgery. After gastric bypass, however, a patient must stay on a strict diet for life.
Mr. Loiselle’s face still creases with horror at the thought. He decided he would forgo the gastric bypass and simply diet. “There was no big moment,” he says. “But I wanted to be with Christine, and I wanted to be big brother to my four siblings, all younger, and I wanted to see the 22 nephews and nieces they have grow up.”
With the dietitian, he worked out a daily regimen of 2,200 calories which enabled him to eat his favourite foods. He still enjoys peanut butter and burgers, drinks the odd beer and takeout from KFC. He just eats less.
For two-and-a-half years, he lost an average of 17 lbs a month—the total weight loss of almost 504 lbs is understood to be the largest achieved without surgery. After a year, he was able to exercise, and he now walks four miles a day and lifts weights daily. He has a body mass index of 30 and a body-fat ratio of 15.3%. “According to my doctor, I now officially have the body of an athlete,” he says, smiling.
Mr. Loiselle has, however, had one operation: his diet left him with folds of floppy skin. Surgeons removed eight pounds of skin from around his waist. “Yes, I’m happier like this,” he concedes. “I realized that my family had been keeping a little distance from me, because they were scared I was going to die.”
And not long ago, Mr. Loiselle was striding through Ellsworth when he encountered some pupils from his 700-pound days. “They were in shock,” he says. “And they were even in tears to see me like this because they were so pleased.”
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