Tuesday, September 24, 2013

What do you want the most

I have an internal struggle going on.  I love food.  I love the textures and flavors. It's hard to curb that love.  It's difficult some days to say no to the cupcake.  It's  murder to decline the ice cream.  It's just plain no fun.     But the flip side is that I have a desire to be thin.  I want to be thin do badly.  I can remember the way I felt at my lower weight!  I loved that feeling.  I remember how I feel when I'm heathy and able to wear whatever clothes I want.  That's an awesome feeling.

So those two desires war within me.   I think it's time to chose the desire that shows that I love myself!!!!   It's time!!!

I will still indulge in those favorite foods on rare occasions.  I can still have them...just not often...and that will make them more special.

My weight is 215.5 this morning.  So yeah dropping that sodium weight!! 

By the way...I ran yesterday (ok jogged).  Felt hard but good!!   I had the unique experience of running up on a cow that was loose on the road.  I kept my eye on that hunk of beef and I passed on my way back home!!!!