Wednesday, September 28, 2016


Somehow I held on and had loss this week. 227.0 pounds.   I know it is a combination of the ick moving onward and the fact that I ate really lightly last night.    

Yes I know for some odd reason my emotions were on edge last night.  Let's just say that falling in love and risking my heart again has been an emotional roller coaster....i am ecstatically happy but I have days where I fear him walking away and breaking my heart....I guess that's natural!  Luckily they are now few and far between...but when they come they ache!!! 

Here is the thing.    Yesterday for lunch I had a packet of belvita breakfast bars (I've been eating them for lunch) and an orange...and dinner a pb&j.   I should have been hungry....but I actually was just fine without more food.   Thank heavens for emotions and a cat weighing me down and keeping me in my chair!!!   Makes me wonder how much food we eat that we really honestly have absolutely no need for!!!

It's hard to not eat food when it's there and available....and when we are bored...stressed...or any array of emotions!  Last night my lethargy caused by emotions and my old cat Ethel in my lap disallowing me to get up without a grumpy cat in my hands helped me make this realization.   But that was one night   I wish I knew how to easily stop and get it under control....because I can say that while I had my epiphany about the pb&j being enough To really satisfy me, I know that when push comes to shove if I sit back tonight and am confronted with will probably have a different end result.  

Tuesday, September 06, 2016

Sweet Spot

Is it any shock to say that I am NOT enjoying this journey right now??   I am in a sweet spot with my weight that's a good thing.   What do I mean about a sweet spot?   Basically I am easily able to maintain my weight.   When I just throw up my hands in defeat...or when I buckle weight stays within a one to two pound range.  

So I haven't written in a here is the update....

I actually kept my eating somewhat under didn't walk quite as much...but I did run and get some walking in!

Jason and I spent that weekend (the last weekend in August) roaming around old graveyards, churches and museums.

My weight held steady.

I am proud to announce though that my 40 miles in August was completed!!!!!   Not much wiggle room but it was done!!! I ran 40.48 miles!!!    So I am aiming for 40 miles again in September!  40 was a stretch for me with my pace, work schedule and life responsibilities.  If/when it starts to become easy to get that number is the time to up it!!!

This past tracking had NOT happened!!!  Have I eaten within my budget?   Who knows?   I don't think it was crazy outside of what I normally eat....notice I said 'think'.   But I know it was more than normal!!

I have thought about it....and I know what I want and where I want to be.   And I know what I have to do to get there!!!  I just need to do it!!!!   


1.  Start using the gym that I pay for on a monthly basis. (In addition to my running)   Maybe try to hit a class or two here and there.  

2. Use the stair stepper leg thingy that I have at home....even if it is just 15 minutes a day!!

3. Upper body.....I am weak!!!   I need to fix that

4.  Resume tracking immediately!

5. Run run run....

Yes, I have noticed that most of my plans center around exercise.   And yes, I know that weight is lost in the kitchen and not the gym.  But I also know that when I'm exercising ...I may be hungrier but typically I tend to eat healthier!  Go figure!!

So this weekend Jason and went away.  The weather was gorgeous...perfect hiking weather!   However, we were feeling lazy and just wanted a low key weekend!!!  (Plus we hate crowds and I imagine the trails were wall to wall people!!). So we roamed through little towns...did some antiquing.....hit up old restaurants....watched tv.....talked and laughed together.  It was low key....and just what we both probably needed!!

I still think the straw hat should have been a purchase!!!

So back to the grind today!!   Work. Food.  Exercise!!!