Sunday, August 10, 2008

pity party

My weight held steady today...exactly the same as yesterday. Still up, but I'm determined it's going to go down! I"m hoping that I can make a weight watcher meeting tomorrow morning so that I can get that pesky paperwork processed to make me officially a lifetimer. That will be a huge relief!

I got up and went to the gym. We were there just shy of two hours. I did over an hour of cardio and the rest of the time I did my strength training routine. Felt good! I've kept my eating under control today that's a good thing!

Not much else happening. I'm feeling a bit of a pity party for myself. I had packed my dinner to eat at my parents house tonight....they went out to one of my favorite restaurants. However, it is a place that I struggle with. My packed dinner had some things that needed it would have not been easy to take it along....NOR would I have had the will power to resist the food there. SOOOOO I came home. Yeah, I cried the whole way home. I so wanted to eat with my family. And yeah, my brother doesn't get in often..but I have to stop the spiral of eating horribly!I had already eating my big meal of the day.... I had to make a choice.......I chose health...and it hurt! I just know that I couldn't afford to do it...and I would have hated myself when I was done.