Monday, September 21, 2020

I want to give up on Weight Loss

 I am struggling with weight loss!  Boy am I struggling!   I came back and weighed in last week and I was all strong and mighty!  I had managed a mini vacation with a maintain.  I was invincible!  I was superhuman!  I was on top of the world....because seriously...a maintain at the beach is amazing!   I had great plans for the week!  I was going to nail the week!

I was going to .....that's the phrase you need to hear.  I was going to. 

All of my plans fell away.   I was super tired.  I had the monthly ick.  It was just a week and a half long.   My eating was actually in line!  I swear!  It was!  I tracked every bite!  My calories were sitting at around 1400 to 1600 calories.  That should be a loss!   

But it wasn't a loss.  It wasn't even a maintain! one point I was 6 pounds up!   I actually ended up with a 3 pound gain. And let me tell you, I am so discouraged!  I feel totally helpless.  I feel like giving up because this journey is darn hard!

I'm not giving up....but I honestly don't know what to do at the moment.  Vacation is coming up and it is so difficult to not just say 'I'm giving up until after vacation."  But I know that I can do a fair amount of damage in those weeks and then vacation on top of that would and could be disastrous!!!!!   So right now until I figure this out.....I'm just hanging tight!