Tuesday, January 05, 2010

deprivation versus moderation

Will I ever learn? I would like to think that this has been a true lesson and that we have learned it correctly this time. I know that I vowed on the way down that I would never weigh over 200 pounds again. Yet, here I sit. But I had never lost weight before. I dont think I realized how monumentally difficult it would be to maintain my loss. I think I Just figured the worst part would be losing and then it would all be pretty with the weight loss. I knew that I would always have to keep an eye on my weight. I just didn't realize how closely I would have to gaurd against excess weight.

I think another issue I had. When I was losing, I was so 'into' it that I didn't mind skipping over hte desserts. I didn't mind all that. Yeah, I splurged every once in a while and got something yummy (totally splurging...but still watching carefully my intake of food). So when I reached the pinnacle...my lifetime membership while I knew that I couldn't have those fattening things all the time, I gave myself the go ahead to splurge more often....and to splurge even if it wasn't exactly accounted for and prepared for in regards to my caloric/points intake. So after a year or so of watching carefully, I started to sample and I found that I couldn't stop. Basically the doors opened to a world of no deprivation and 40 pounds just popped back onto my body. This time around I'm determined to do it right. I'm not going to deprive myself. I will be eating cake every once in a while. It will be planned for, accounted for and I will have the points available to eat it. There will be no deprivation, there will be lots of moderation. :-)

I made it to the gym this morning. Got a nice cardio workout in...AND another strength training session. WOOO HOOO!