Monday, September 20, 2021

Time for change

 It is time for change!  Big or little, I don't know yet!   But this weight loss journey has been full of ups and downs and lots of changes along the way and I think that another change is imminent! But what changes are coming?  

Weekly Weigh In

Let me start with my weekly weigh in.  I officially weigh in on Fridays and I weighed in at the same weight that I was last week.  To the ounce.  I have been maintaining for the last few weeks.  It is NOT for lack of trying.  I am eating within a caloric range that should have me losing mad weight in a healthy manner.  But it is just not working.   Furthermore, it is seriously depressing and disheartening!  I can't tell you how many tears I've cried recently over this journey.   Sure, I know; a maintain is a victory.  Still being here and present is a victory.  But it's a shallow victory and not one that is bolstering me for the journey still ahead of me!


So what changes am I going to make?  I'm not exactly sure.  I simply know that what I am doing right now is NOT working.  Sure, I'm losing weight here and there.  But it is in fits and starts.  I will have a week where my calories intake is not that bad and I gain.  There seems to be no rhyme or reason.   It is making me look deeper and I came up with a few different thoughts.

**  I am cheating on my plan and have no willpower.  Even as I write this, I know that that is not the case.  I am quite honest with myself and the food that I put into my daily food/calorie tracker.   My calories that I report are what I am eating!

** My calories in versus calories out plan is no longer a plan that is working for me.  This made me wonder if I should go back to trying Weight Watchers.  I lost a heck of a lot of weight years ago on WW.  In fact, I made it to lifetime status with the program.  However, I regained and while I tried to lose with the program I needed a change so I stepped away.   More recently, in early 2020 I rejoined was right before the pandemic and I stopped shortly after the pandemic reared it's ugly head and went back to calorie counting.   

**I have learned valuable things.  Complex carbs are my enemy.....where my body needs to be in terms of calories for optimal weight loss.....etc.  Shouldn't I be able to come up with a plan that is satisfying to my soul and my body??

** Exercise is good for my fitness levels.  My body needs exercise.  But I know that weight is lost in the kitchen and not the gym.

So where does my thoughts lead me?  It is leading me to reading books and researching.  It is leading me to look for a happy medium and a long term solution to my problems.  I will any fad or crazy diet plan.  That is not sustainable.  My goal is health and that is my first priority.  BUt I'm looking....I am searching....I am reading.   

I am currently reading a book that has made me feel better about where I am and my frustration levels.  It is in the opening chapters but it makes a lot of sense and I am hopeful that it will give me lots of amazing insight for getting back on track in a way that works for my life and my body!   I'm still reading though!  

Stay tuned....change is coming.  It has to.  For me to continue to do the same thing in this weight loss journey is sheer madness.  It's not working...which means that SOMETHING has to change if I want to change!


SANRDJ said...

Change is good. I think our bodies need/expect it. The hard thing is knowing what change will work THIS time! You'll find it. Just keep adjusting and be patient. You will find the sweet spot.

jen said...

Change is definitely good.
I’m so happy that I decided to go back to WW.
Good luck with your reading.

Paula C said...

I so understand. Doing the work but not seeing results does not encourage me to keep at it. I have adopted a strategy of I give something 90 days. If I am not getting results I try something else. One book I think I want to read is Shift. How one lady finally lost the weight.

Stained Glass Butterfly said...

I swear sometimes you and I are on the same wavelength! I have been thinking a lot about this lately. What I am doing right now is NOT working. I need to make some big changes. So...what WILL work? I still need to figure that out.

Amy said...

I feel this too. I haven't even been making any real effort lately but it's infuriating when I do feel like I'm putting a lot in and getting so little out. The more I research the more confused I get. There's so msny opposing views. What works to lose weight isn't always what's best for our bodies. I feel like I could research my whole life and still not be any clearer! And each time I fail it gets harder and harder to keep starting over. I do always do better in fall and winter so I'm hoping that will help give me the push I need to try something. Ugh.