Friday, August 03, 2018

Take that: Stress comes to haunt my weight loss efforts

A month or so ago I wrote about some stress at work.  It was bad!   The stress simmered down and I was doing ok and things were peaceful at work.  In the meantime, I have gotten my eating under control.  So what happened when that stressful thing at work reared it’s ugly head again?  

There is a person at work that..well...she has taken an intense dislike for me.  I know exactly why. She had  made it clear whenever I moved ahead of her in terms of training (we started at the same time and since I learn quickly, I moved through the slow process of training at a faster rate than her).  I know this because she would message me telling me how angry she was with ME whenever I got moved to the next step of training.  Not very subtle eh?   Well she had gotten more subtle.   She jumps on every and anything I do.   I wrote about a month ago about the stress resulting in me not participating in a purchased lunch. It got really ugly.   Really ugly!  There were some very rude and cruel comments made by her...and my other teammates jumped on the bandwagon at that time.   But I overcame them..and by holding my head high, the people that laughed at and with her comments came around and had their eyes opened a bit.  Well it all simmered down until yesterday.   And now it’s back!!  Yesterday was extremely hostile! (Always when the manager/supervisor was not present...of course.   And mostly just one main person...)

I started my day yesterday (before the drama)  with a headache and it just intensified with the stress and open hostility.  I actually grabbed a more substantial lunch (versus my primarily fruit and veggie lunch that was packed), I downed some Advil, I drank caffeine and I tried to keep the headache at a mid level roar.   But by the evening I was a basket case.  I wanted to eat!!   I wanted to eat all sorts of things!!!  Bring on the snacks...the desserts...the candy...I wanted it all!!!

I didn’t indulge  though!!!  I held it together and made wise food choices.  

I worked my altered lunch into my calorie tracker.   I stuck with my planned dinner which was by some miracle already lower in calories.  I ignored the after work snack.  I DID indulge in a bit of ice cream after dinner.  (Small portion!!).  But I held it together!!!

And my weight showed a loss this morning.   I was 242.6.   That is down even further!   So my official loss from my high weight in  mid to late June is 12 pounds!   That makes my ‘acceptable weight range’ 242.6 to 242.6, to account for my daily fluctuations!  That range keeps going lower and lower!   I like it!!!!  I especially like my weight this morning...because that loss is in the face of stress and upset!!!  Take that!!!



12 comments:

mxtodis123 said...

Ugh!!!! I totally understand how difficult it must be to work with co-worker like that, but I commend you on not indulging. When I was working I didn't have that same willpower, but, of course, I had not yet been diagnosed with hypertension. I ate because of work stress too. The tons of paperwork, the constant interruptions by clients, and the fact that there was not enough time to do all that was expected sent me into an eating binge. It didn't help either that my co-worker who sat next to me did absolutely nothing and totally got away with it while I was eating with one hand and typing with the other.

TheAgonyOfBeingFat said...

Work drama is the worst. I'm sorry you're dealing with it right now:( But at least you're keeping yourself under control! Good job!

MaryFran said...

I saw your post about your old job… It came at the right time for me. Thank you for sharing

MaryFran said...

Thanks! I’m trying… Thank goodness for a nice wonderful boyfriend… He kept me from indulging by just being there.

Sarah said...

See, you ARE strong. Great job keeping it together.

MaryFran said...

Thanks

Lynn said...

12 lbs? That's fantastic! Good for you.

Wendy said...

Great job! That stress sounds bad, you are handling it great!

MaryFran said...

I finally got my head in the game and it’s working!!!

MaryFran said...

Thanks! I’m just trying to remind myself that eating the emotions will not take that stress away...it will just add more stress.. in the form of added pounds!

Quiet Country Living said...

Congrats I am proud of you lady!!!!!

jesseybell said...

Awesome job on the 12 lbs and way to go keeping your head up high. I hate work drama - we aren't in high school!