75 Hard: Week One

 This may be a record for me on recent challenges and attempts at a restart, but I actually made it through the first week of the 75 Hard Challenge!   I will take that as a win!   Seriously, how many times have I babbled on about a new plan and then failed to get past the first week!  So I'll take 1 week as a win!   You can read more about this on my recent post. 

The Challenge Rules

     1.  Follow a Diet Plan

    2. Exercise 2 times a day one of which HAS to be outside. The indoor workout HAS to be 45 minutes or more.  The outdoor one is preferably 45 minutes or more but I can be as short as 30 minutes.  (Altered from the original 75 hard which is two 45 minute sessions)

    3. Drink 64 ounces of water (altered from the original 75 hard which required 1 gallon of water)

    4. Read 10 pages of a non fiction book daily (I read digitally and have no pages....so I am aiming for 10 minutes a day)

    5.  Take a progress picture each day

But lets talk about the particulars of each day! 

Day 1of 75 Hard

I nailed this day. 100% slayed it!   For my indoor exercise I completed 45 minutes on the exercise bike.  I didn't ride like a bat out of hell, and my butt was so incredibly sore but I finished those 45 minutes like a champ!  My legs were a bit wobbly when it was done, but it was done with a smile.   It snowed all day and we ended up with about 6-8 inches.  It was still snowing toward evening, but I went outside and shoveled for my 45 minutes of exercise.  (Luckily we only got another half inch after I shoveled so I didn't have to redo much, just swept those areas.)  I felt like I was drowning but I managed to get my full gallon of water down my gullet and my calorie count was 1354!  For my reading, I started the book "The Diet Trap Solution: Train your Brain to Lose Weight and Keep it off for Good".  (Amazon Link)   It was a great start!

I started this on a whim and while I was determined, I was totally skeptical about the chances of my success due to my many failures!

Day 2 of 75 Hard

The snow had finally stopped and it was time to shovel ourselves out.  I manned the shovel, Jason used the snowblower. I went out two times and each time was just about an hour of shoveling (56 minutes and 51 minutes).  I am counting shoveling as my exercise.  I drank about 80 ounces of water, which is a win,  I continued reading the same non fiction book and I had 1446 calories.   For some reason I was just hungry. (Or maybe I imagined myself hungry, whichever the case may be.)  But even at the 1446, I was still under my goal of 1500!  So a win!

Day 3 of 75 Hard

This day took planning and thought.   I went into my mom's to work on painting the house with my brother.    I  didn't know what lunch would bring, so I tried to keep my breakfast lighter and spent some time looking at my dinner plans to see how much I could shave off of my dinner to create more calories if needed.  Therefore, when I did go out to eat for lunch with my brother, sister in law and two of their kids, I knew exactly how many calories I had available for lunch AND how many calories I could squeeze out of dinner.  (It was Taco Tuesday at our house and I swapped my meal from Tacos to a taco salad  which used less meat but more salad stuff.   Calories saved.  I also crunched up 2 taco shells instead of 3.  Calories saved.   And I also only ate 1/2 cup of the rice dish instead of 1 cup!)   I also intently looked at the menu when we arrived at the restaurant (thank heavens they had the calories listed on the board, it made it easier than pulling out my phone) and I chose wisely.  And honestly, was probably happier with my options than had I gotten the traditional burger and fries!  I ended the day with 1493 calories.  I did not finagle the numbers any more than making the above adjustments.   After I got home I went in and made the adjustments that I had planned and it came to 1493.   Squeezed that one out by the skin of my teeth!  I did drink a diet coke whilst out at lunch, but I pounded the water the rest of the day and got my required water done!

I also had to plan and think about my exercise and work to get it all done before I left the house at 9!   The planning of the exercise was the easy part.  It was the temps outside that made it yucky!  The outdoor temperatures took a nose dive and it was COLD.  I was dreading my 'outdoor' exercise!   I did it though.  I was out tramping around with the dog and my toes were frozen but I marked off 30 minutes outside!  I also got my indoor workout checked off by completing two different workouts back to back.  I did half with Body Groove and the other half with Zumba Sula.  I continued reading the same non fiction book and ended the day with a win!

Day 4 of 75 Hard

Day four was another day where I had to work on planning a bit more.  I had a lunch date with a friend and I wasn't sure where we would be going pretty much the last minute.  But knowing that, I did two things.  I had a simple banana for breakfast and for dinner I planned to make a meal that I do not eat but that Jason loves!  I knew that I could fill up on veggies and whatnot if I didn't have the calories for more. And if I did have the calories, I could make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich (the ultimate sandwich) or a grilled cheese (second ultimate).    I also wanted to get my exercise completed early because my friend and I hadn't seen each other in ages and we expected to spend a few hours together catching up.    Therefore, by the time I headed out to meet her for lunch I had already completed 30 cold minutes outside with the dog and  45 minutes of cardio with the youtube channel, CDornerFitness.  I had taken my daily picture and read my 10 minutes of non-fiction.  The only thing I had left to worry about was drinking my water and eating within my calories. 

I ordered water with my lunch which helped me not get sidetracked from the water goal.  I  had them refill it three times.....so that on top of what I drank on the way to and from lunch and what I drank at home made getting my water to be a cinch!   The food.   I ordered a breakfast meal (we were at a diner) and carefully calculated and managed my calories the rest of the day. I ended the day at 1338 calories.   YAY!  Four days of success, can I really manage to do this?  It was at this point that I started to actually believe that I could do this!

Day 5 of 75 Hard

This was a day of just blah.  I was tired so I didn't do my indoor exercise at 5AM while Jason was in the shower.  I did get my 10 minutes of reading in during that time.  However, no exercise.  I told myself, that I had no plans the rest of the day so I had 'plenty' of time to get it done.   I settled in for the day and it would have been bad, but Zoey wanted to go out and play.  So I bundled up and out we went for our 30 minutes!  It was still earlier in the day so it was still cold!  (Although the temps are rising!)  Time kept passing the dog was sleeping so soundly and well, indoor exercise........................

Indoor exercise was done literally minutes before Jason got home from work at 6PM!    But I did it!  

I planned my food for the day and worked out my calories and I eat exactly what I had planned which equaled out to be 1354 calories.   Water was tough.  I was feeling super lazy all day.  So when I settled into the recliner and realized that I had forgotten my water in the kitchen I didn't feel like getting up......and I didn't get up for a few hours.  So I found myself at 1PM with having only drank 16 ounces.  But not to worry I may have been guzzling water at the last minute, but I finished it!  (I finished literally at the last minute, as in I was standing in the kitchen guzzling the rest and then went straight to bed!)

Day 6 of 75 Hard

One would think that I would learn my lesson with the water!   And I did, somewhat!  I remembered to take my water with me to where I was working.  I spent the morning on the computer doing some stuff that is required of my by the unemployment office, looking for jobs and whatnot.  It comes around to about 12:30 and I realized I had not taken a single sip of the water that I took with me.  That means that I only had drank the 16 ounces of water that I drank with my breakfast.....the one that I put my Trace Minerals into. (Amazon link here....seriously, this stuff is amazing!)

 I also learned the lesson and I got my indoor workout completed at 5AM.  I did my outdoor workout at about 8AM (with the dog of course) and I was doing great!   

There is nothing too exciting about the day.  I checked everything off the 75 hard list and rolled through my day like a champ.  I ended the day with 1379 calories.  So I was happy with that!

Day 7 of 75 Hard

It was Saturday, but Jason had to work so it felt like a week day.  That means that we were up at 5AM and I didn't let the fact that it was a Saturday derail me.  I got that 45 minutes of my first workout completed early!  By 6AM I was on the couch reading.  I read for a while on my non fiction book that I chose to start my 75 hard challenge.    I read that until Jason was leaving for work.   I got outside and got the dog walk and some time outside with me walking and moving to knock off another cold workout. (Dang it has warmed up but I was still cold!)

This day I actually sipped at my water all morning and therefore didn't hit the afternoon with very little water consumption under my belt!  I had a plan to get my water done early so that I could enjoy some diet soda in the evening, because I've been so behind the last few days that I haven't been able to enjoy that treat and I wanted it tonight!  I finished my water right before dinner so I was able to pour myself a glass of diet soda!  Woo hoo!  (And yes, I realize how lame it is to reward myself with a glass of diet soda, but them's the breaks!)

I kept my calories in check for the day and I feel like I had a fantastic day food wise!   My calorie count was 1297 so I was spot on where I wanted to be!  Go me!

Reflections on Week One of the 75 Hard

I was hopeful, but still skeptical at the beginning of the week.  But as the week progressed I started to feel a bit more confident that maybe, just maybe I could do it.  I started to think that maybe I could make it to day 75 and complete this!  In fact,   I actually feel a bit disgusted with myself for making the adjustments that I made.  I feel, well....  I feel guilty!  I feel guilty for lowering my goal from 1 gallon of water to the 64 ounces.  I also feel totally guilty about lowering that second workout to 30 minutes.  I feel like I am cheating!   However, I know that had I not made the changes, I probably would have missed the water by day three if not day two.   Furthermore, there is no way I would have made the 45 minutes outside in that un-heavenly cold!  So while I feel guilty, I know that I made the right decision in my alterations.  

I have been sleeping SO much more soundly. I have had next to no instances where I wake up at 2 in the morning wide awake and unable to get back to sleep.  I won't lie, I have woken up here and there but I'm right back to soundly sleeping in minutes if not seconds.   There was one day where I woke up and I honestly thought that I was going to be awake the rest of the night.  However, the next thing I knew the alarm was going off and I was waking up!   The issue?   Jason says that I have been snoring a lot more than normal this week.  He has tried to tell me that the dog kept coming to the bed to check on me and that the dog finally gave up and left the bedroom!  I have also been roused from sleep a few times while he is bumping me or whacking the bed to try to 'reset' me.   Is the snoring related to the 75 Hard?  Who knows!   We were talking about it this morning and I laughed and said this is the best I've slept in YEARS.  Maybe I'm just so sleep deprived from years of issues that I'm sleeping so deep that I'm snoring.   OK, I know that is not it!  But that is what I told him! 

I found myself wanting to dance a little, wiggle my butt a little and just move a bit more after my exercise.  Not every day, there were one or two days where I was just tired.  But most days it kinda rejuvenated me!  It kind of gave me a pep in my step!

So there you go....week one in the books.   Week two?   Ready.......Set....Go!

Revealing a Secret

 I have been keeping a secret!  I was going to say it's not a huge one...but you know, it has the potential to be huge!  Now I have to be honest, I've only been keeping this secret for a week!....or actually 5 days at this point.  Obviously I can't keep secrets, but it is what it is. 

I have hesitated about sharing this secret.  How many times have I come on here and had some grandiose plan or a wonderful challenge that I was gung-ho to start?   I don't have a number of how many times, and quite frankly I don't think I want to even KNOW the number.  Why?  Because if the number were ten  then I can pretty much guarantee that there would be at LEAST 9 corresponding failures. My success rate on these seemingly awesome plans is pretty much non existent!  (Just for the record, the number of grand ideas is MUCH higher than 10.)   So for me to come on and share my secret and spout off yet one more challenge that I am embarking upon is insanity at it's best.  Yet, here I am ready to embark upon another round with a new somewhat ludicrous idea for myself.

Years ago I had started to hear about the 75 Hard.  This is a challenge that lasts for 75 days (surprising right?) and involves some very specific actions that need to take place every day.  It's only five things, nothing to worry about right?   Hold onto your hat, until you see what the five things are!

    1.  Follow a Diet Plan

    2. Exercise 2 times a day (45 minutes each)...one of which HAS to be outside.

    3. Drink a gallon of water

    4. Read 10 pages of a non fiction book daily

    5.  Take a progress picture each day

The rules are that if you miss a day, you go back to day 1 and start over.  Yeah, a bit all or nothing!  There is no room to fail in this challenge!

Easy right?    Maybe for some, but for me this sounds huge!  I've actually written about it before (you can read it here) but even then,  I shied away from the 75 hard challenge.  Instead I tried a Project 50 Challenge.  The project 50 had similar rules but the guidelines were a bit more relaxed.   So I tried the project 50 Challenge.   And of course, I failed.  Seriously, I don't even think I made it two weeks!  

So this past Sunday morning when I was messing around my computer and stumbled upon someones post about their successful 75 Hard journey I started watching.   Inspired, I decided right then and there to start the 75 Hard challenge.   No, I didn't wait until the next day or the next week.  I immediately hopped onto my IPad and downloaded a non fiction book from the library and within minutes I was in the office and riding the exercise bike!  Talk about starting something on a whim?

Oh yeah, and I started a plan that requires outdoor exercise for 45 minutes a day in the middle of a snow storm and at the beginning of a week where the temps were forecasted to be in the single digits.  I can't help but think of the parallel to my running adventures of 2013 when I started to run with the couch to 5K program in January and ran through some really cold days in those first few weeks!  (You can read about that time here.)   That was one of my rare successes...I completed the Couchto5K program and actually ran regularly for a few years.   Maybe suffering through hellish torture in the cold is what spurred me  to continue on when I wanted to quit, since I was able to  say to myself, "nothing is as bad as running on those really cold days".   Hmmm...maybe my VERY COLD beginning to the 75 hard will be a good thing!

I completed the first day of 75 hard 100% as the challenge is written...water, exercise, reading, picture and food! Check check check check and check.  But after the dust settled on my impulse decision I was able to realize that I DID want to institute a few minor changes in my plan.  SOOOO the 75 hard-ish that I am following is thus:

    1.  Follow a Diet Plan  -  I did not change this, but only cemented the 'rules of engagement' in my head.   My rules are that I need to keep my calories under 1,500 a day.  Since I do not historically lose at 1,500 calories, I will NOT be eating the calories that I "earn" via exercise.  With one exception.  I will allow myself to eat my earned calories one day each week.  That goes along with the plans and ideas that I have adopted throughout the last few years.  And that is that 100% restriction does NOT work!

    2. Exercise 2 times a day (45 minutes each)...one of which HAS to be outside.  Here is where one of the two major changes in the plan takes place.  The indoor 45 minute exercise is remaining as that.  However, the outdoor segment of exercise only has to be more than 30 minutes.   Seriously, it's dang cold out there. I heard them say on the news to not leave your dog out for more than 20-30 minutes.   So I am giving myself the grace to stop at 30 minutes.   There was one day that even my Newfoundland....the quintessential winter dog was done and ready to go inside at the 30 minute mark!

    3. Drink a gallon of water.   I actually made it to one gallon on day one.  But I am also giving myself grace on this one.  However, I NEED to be over 64 ounces of water each day!  My hope is that throughout the 75 days that I can build up to the gallon.   But honestly, going from near nothing to a gallon is a HUGE jump!  So 64 ounces it is!

    4. Read 10 pages of a non fiction book daily.  Yeah, no problem!

    5.  Take a progress picture each day.   Easy, but just have to remember!

I am worried about one thing.....and that is when/if I get a job within this 75 Hard challenge.  Learning a new job will be exhausting enough...but to do so on top of trying to complete this challenge.  That might be hairy!   And part of me says "well if/when I get a job all bets are off".  But you know what, that is not HARD...and this challenges name is 75 HARD.  So Win...Lose...Draw, I'm going to attempt it!

So I am on day 5.    Stay tuned for an update on how my week one went!  

365 Pictueres Days 65-79

 The first two weeks of January have flown by and I am still taking pictures for my 365 pictures project!  And now it is time to share them!

Day 65   Nothing like a lone cheerio that falls out of your bowl in the morning!  Love the heart shaped cheerios!

Day 66  Zoey handled the first day of my unemployment well.

Day 67  Snow flurries!

Day 68   We had to run to the bank and Zoey LOVES to go to the bank (aka the cookie store)!

Day 69  Just a random Selfie!

Day 70  My favorite pasttime....reading!

Day 71 SNOW!

Day 72  Zoey thought we were going in so she flopped in the snow to tell me that she wasn't ready!

Day 73    Our old Honda hit 320,000 Miles!  And no worries, the Maintenance required light was accidentally not reset after our oil change the other day!

Day 74  A Grocery Trip!

Day 75  I was scanning pictures and came across this picture of my brother and I....I snapped a picture and sent it to him!

Day 76  Another selfie!

Day 77  She looks so serious!

Day 78 Banana for breakfast!

Day 79  Tomato Soup for lunch!

365 Pictures Day 41 through day 64

 In the midst of all of the craziness of the holidays and the turmoil in regards to the loss of my job, one may think that I have given up on the picture a day project.  But, in fact; I am still going strong.  I have taken the pictures, but I just hadn't saved them into the the proper file. And obviously, I had not uploaded them to here!  So here we go!   This may have to be in two or three different posts because, well......I am way behind in sharing!  But I give to you.....the end of December 2024 in picture.  (December 7th through the 31rst)  you can check out the first part of December in pictures here.

Day 41 

Yes, the dog will definitely be playing a large role as subject matter for my pictures. 

Day 42  Jason and I went to the Lincoln Cemetery.  The weather was nice (this was in December) and graveyards are great places to walk.  I also picked up a few pictures that I posted on Find a Grave. (People had asked for pictures of gravestones...so I volunteered to grab them).

Day 43   That single little wee droplet of water just caught my eye!

Day 44  My nephew and I went to visit Fort Duncan, the ruins of a Civil War Fort that was built to defend Maryland against attack. (Built in response to the Battle of Antietam.).    This is how I spent the morning of my birthday!

Day 45   I was off work and had one important errand to run.  I had to go to Hickory Farms to pick up a beef stick for our Christmas Eve snack tray. 

Day 46  I was messing around on Ancestry.Com and found this article where my grandfather had been charged with transporting and distributing liquor during the prohibition!

Day 47  Good old fashioned applesauce cake!  I made a sheet cake versus the tube cakes that my grandmother always made.  I also did NOT wrap it in a rum soaked towel!

Day 48   My traditional birthday cookies were delayed.  I had planed to make them on my actual birthday, but well......we know what happened that day.  (You can read about it here.)  But no fear, I did have my cookies!

Day 49   We had a wee bit of snow.  The dog enjoyed playing in it....but she didn't like her feet to get crusty with snow!

Day 50   There is just something gorgeous about a fir tree covered with snow!

Day 51 Outside with the dog.....every day.  And boy is it cold some days!

Day 52  This is one of my all time favorite meals, Baked Ziti, roasted broccoli and garlic bread!

Day 53  It as only December 19th, but I started to put gifts into the stockings!   I do it because I know it drives Jason nuts to know there are gifts in his stocking but he can't open them.  It is amusing to see him slyly squeeze and shake as curiosity gets the best of him!

Day 54   I had a pre-scheduled day off of work so I ran a few errands while Jason was at work!  We were blessed with some snow flurries.

Day 55  Jason loves chocolate covered cherries, but this year discovered chocolate covered blueberries which he has declared even better than the cherries.

Day 56  This dog is so lazy!  And yes, when she decides to lay on the couch she takes up pretty much the whole couch!

Day 57   Another pre-scheduled day off of work and Jason sent me to the store to get soap and beard wash while he was at work.

Day 58  Christmas Eve was finally here!  The dog loved her gifts, but she had the MOST fun ripping them open because yes, she does unwrap her own gifts!

Day 58  Jason had fun playing with his new accessory that he got for his drone.

Day 59   It might have been back to work for me (for a few more days) but it was all play for Zoey

Day 60  This is the handiwork of Zoey.  That is a huge pot of dirt that held some prickly pear cacti that I was rooting!            

                                           

Day 61  This dog was making me feel guilty about making her come inside!

Day 62 I failed to mindfully take a picture.  However, I somehow mindlessly snapped this selfie of my head while visiting my in laws.

Days 63 and 64 I totally failed to take pictures.  They were tough days.  They were emotional.  They were heart breaking.  They were scary as I navigated the last two days of employment.

The emotions reared their ugly Head

 What a day!   I thought that I was doing good with this unemployment thing.  I was handling it like a pro and just doing amazing!   That is until this morning!

The last two and a half weeks of unemployment have been busy.  I've worked on my youtube channel, I have done some stuff around my house, I've spent a few days at my mom's house working to paint and get that ready for sale, amongst other things.  I've stayed busy because I know that if I settle in for a 'do nothing day' I will most likely end up feeling sluggish, depressed and just downright bad.  So I have stayed busy, with a few exceptions (I did read all afternoon the other day...and that felt glorious!).  It's been an easy adjustment and emotionally I've been great!    

This morning I sat down at the computer ready to do a few things.  Number one I had to look at my final paycheck from my job.  That paycheck was for the last few days I worked and for the unused PTO time that they paid me.  I saw the amount and was feeling good.   It was about, if not more than I expected.  I logged online to look at my paystub.  All was going well.  I saw that they had taken out my 401K loan payment, which was a good thing.  I downloaded it and moved on to my next task, which was calling the 401K company.  I had to set up a payment per what HR had told us (in writing) and what was understood when I took the loan out when we bought our house.    The terms of my loan were 'upon termination if your plan allows you will be able to set up a payment plan".  I had checked with them at that time and they had said exactly what the HR department had indicated that I would just have to set up an auto withdraw from my checking account and no issues.  BUT, just last month they transferred all of our 401K's to a new company (My company was sold last year so everything was changing.....right in the midst of this layoff. And just for the record, so much of what they told us...about our paystubs and where to access them, the return of the equipment...which is still in my house, and their refusal to answer any inquiries has been atrocious!)  I called the new company and was told that my loan is due 60 days from my termination date.....no repayment allowed.  Dude, I can't make an 8K payment right now. (Well, I have severance so I guess I could...but severance to live off of until I get a job!)     The GOOD news is that if I can't make the payments they will just deduct the payment from my 401k and consider it a withdrawal.    The bad news is that since I'm not over 59 1/2 it will be considered an early withdrawal and I will be taxed to smithereens and pay any early withdrawal penalties.  

I hung up the phone and it all just hit me.  I laid my head down on the table and just sobbed.    It's ok.  I'll deal with the taxes.  And I'm trying to tell myself that this may be a good thing.  I won't have that payment each month.  It wasn't a lot...$102 dollars a month ($52 a paycheck)...but if I have to take a lower paying job, that may be the difference between having my back against the wall or being comfortable.    Still the emotions are flowing. 

So, in the wonderful wisdom that I was displaying, I decided to go check on my car title.  What is up with the car title?  Well,I paid my car off in July of last year.  In the state of PA they hold your title until it's paid off.  So I waited and waited for my title to arrive.  Nothing.  In November I started to make noise.  It took them a week (and one visit and two phone calls) before they advised that they had my paperwork and that they were taking care of it.  A week later I got a letter in the mail with a document releasing my MARYLAND state title.  UHHHH wrong state!  I moved from Maryland in 2022!    I checked with the PA state anyway....and was told definitely can't use that paper work and that the lien is an electronic lien and it wasn't removed.  I went back to the loan originator...a visit and a phone call later and they said they got it fixed.  In early December I got a letter saying that they had released the lien electronically.  The paperwork was janky though.  One document had my old address while the other document had my incorrect name.  I waited...but no title arrived.   So early this month I went back to the PA office....nope, the lien has not been removed.  Another phone call...then another and they say "our title clerk has called Maryland and Pennsylvania to verify it's been released"   I couldn't help but laugh because my car isn't titled in Maryland any longer.  But I took them at their word (what else could I do).   I waited a few days and that brings me to today.  In the midst of the turmoil of the 401K I decided to tackle the car title.  I figured a win would be a good thing.  Although I said to myself "this could be a bad decision."   Ohhh it was a bad decision.  The electronic lien has STILL not been removed!  And yes, I just spent another hour on the phone with them....and they have vowed to get to the bottom of it.  SO meanwhile, I have a car that I technically own outright, but legally do not own!  OH the joys!

My morning was so much fun that I decided to FINALLY clean off my desk and set up the office for my laptop and my personal use.  When I was first laid off I had said that I wanted to spend my computer time in the office.  I figured it would be a good routine for me to go in there every day to look for jobs and whatnot and I knew it would be good for Zoey to continue with that routine in case I do obtain another work from home position.   The last day or two at home with Zoey has been nuts.  She barks at the littlest noise.  She roams the house.  She demands to be let out constantly and I was starting to get worried about taking a WFH job because my dog had turned into a lunatic while I was home during the day.  I figured I better start working to 'retrain' her in the ways of the behavior while I work.  So I came into the office to clean.   And what do you know, she immediately trotted over to the gate and let out a huge sigh.....almost of relief that her wold was all right again.  She has been sleeping most of the afternoon by my office door.  I have been cleaning and when I make a loud noise she does wake up and check on me, but then goes right back to sleep.   Seeing her settle in so happily to the routine kinda makes me sad, thinking about how confused she must have been.     I am not going to spend all my day in the office.  I will still be working to get her used to me being gone during the day....but a little office routine will be good. 

The only bad side to my emotional day is the fact that I just gave in and ate horribly today.  I feel ashamed.  I feel disgusted. I feel sad.  NOW.  But when in the heat of the moment that food was good!  I'm not letting it get to me.  All is not lost just because I lost control for a few hours (two meals.....breakfast and lunch).  I just need to tighten it up and get back to the basics!

Jason will be home in a few hours and our weekend will begin.  Not sure what we will get into.  It's winter and we have gotten soft in our old age.  Was a day we would have hiked in the cold...but not lately.  hahaha.  But, it will be a weekend together no matter what we do, so that is what counts!

Yeah, that didn't happen.

 I had grand plans for how I was going to spend my days here in the new year. I had goals and I was going to slay each and every one of those goals!   We are now two weeks into the new year and I can say.....Yeah not doing so good on those goals!

Yes, I have had some wins in terms of my goals.  I have had two wins  The wins you ask?   Well let me tell you!   I had a goal to finish digitizing all of the pictures from my parents house.   I am happy to announce that I have completely digitized those pictures.  I do have to finish filing the pictures away in the storage boxes I got, but the pictures are digitized!   The second win is my weight.  The first week brought a loss of 1 pound and my second week of the year brought about a loss of 2 pounds.  Thus, I have lost 3 pounds thus far in 2025.   I am constantly fighting the urge to say (or in this case type) that my three pounds is paltry and weak.   I want big numbers.  (Don't we all?) Three just seems lame ,but I am tickled to have pieced together two weeks of weight loss.  And three pounds is still three pounds GONE.  It could have been worse.  I could have gained three! 

As for most of the other goals....the stuff like ten thousands steps a day, exercising three times a week, 64 ounces of water, tracking my food?   Yeah, they haven't happened.   Not yet.  I have actually exercised about 3 times.  I have gotten my water to a consistent 30-40 ounces.   I have tracked a few times.  And my steps have been higher than average, but still not to the 10k mark.  So not a total failure, because I can see progress.  But not quite where I want to be.  But that's ok, i'm moving in the right direction.  I'm building up!

Unemployment has been busier than I expected.  Two weeks have flown by!  It feels like just yesterday that I was finishing up my last day of that job.   In fairness, we had a holiday (New Years Day) and a snow day where Jason was off work..so they felt like weekends which made it go by faster. 

 I have gone down to my mom's house for 4 days now.  There I have met up with my brother and we have worked on cleaning and panting her house to ready it to sell.  I am not a good painter.  I know it.  Painting is also not my favorite thing in the world to do.  But that's ok, it needs to be done and we are getting it done. 

I have spent a fair amount of time on my computer looking for jobs.  I am only two weeks into this serious job hunt and it's disheartening!  I have a submitted a fair amount of applications.  I have also received a fair amount of rejections.  I will admit that some of the jobs that I have applied to are a stretch for me, but they sound so interesting.   I am applying to anything that is in my pay range that looks interesting.  I have applied to both remote jobs and on site jobs.  I am torn with the location.  I do love working at home.  It is so handy to be able to flip a load of laundry on a break or let the dog out at lunch.   However, I know that some face to face interaction with people is something good.   I was actually getting ready to start going to a zumba class in the evenings when my job situation exploded.  Literally, I had gone to the site and was looking into it on the day before I got the notification.  So I do have that still in the cards if I get a remote position.  But it's a 50-50 dealio.   I do think that the dog is voting for another remote position!   Although, she has done amazing on these days that I have been at my mom's for 8 plus hours (including travel time).

Most of my time I have been busy doing something.  Be it working on my computer, editing youtube videos, painting, cleaning, cooking.  I did spend one day, my first true day off (one where I was home and Jason was working) and spent the afternoon watching a movie.  I had started the day so strong...but then kinda fell apart and lounged from lunchtime onward.  But that is ok also.   Truth be told, this afternoon may be one of those days as I just picked up two books.  One an author that I have really enjoyed, Fiona Davis.  And the second book one that came recommended to me by my niece,  Bear Town.  The biggest problem is which to read first!!!

Unemployment and the new year have been kind to me thus far.  While I am frustrated at the low numbers in my weight loss and the futile job hunt, I am happy with my progress toward making my goals a reality.  I am happy with my steps forward.  I know that the best is yet to come and I"m going to do what I can to make it come!
 

19 years.....Really?

 Somehow in the hustle and bustle of life I missed a very big milestone.  It wasn't the dogs 'adopted' anniversary on January 6th, although we did celebrate that with her.   No, I am talking about January 5th.  What big milestone am I talking about?  Why I am talking about my 19th anniversary of starting this blog.  My blogiversary.  One one hand it seems like yesterday but on the other hand it seems like 12 lifetimes ago!  But January 5th of 2006 that is exactly what I did....I started a little 'online journal'.

In past years I have gone all out, some years were just funny.  Other years were kinda...well..... they were their own unique creations.  Some years I even did repeat anniversary posts!   But hey, lets go through the anniversary posts together.

2013 I didn't acknowledge my anniversary until I was 6 years into maintaining this blog. There were two really funny things about that post.  The first is that I had the date wrong.  Clearly when I look back, my first post was on January 5th....yet on January 6th of my sixth year I wrote a happy birthday/anniversary post.    The other thing that made me chuckle is that I spoke about how it seemed like such a short time but how in terms of the blogging community 6 years was a long time!   Boy, I had no clue that 19 years later I would still be around! 

2016  I didn't mention my blogiversary/birthday/anniversary again until 2016!   Once again, I got the date totally wrong and celebrated it on January 3rd.  (Seriously, was I mental or something?)   Hadn't been writing a whole lot of posts,  I talked about how 10 years didn't seem possible...and how I had written over 1800 posts.  But I used the anniversary post as a means to walk through my journey from highest to lowest.  From success to failure.  I held nothing back. I lost the weight in pictures and I regained the weight in pictures.  I talked about my failed marriage, my new love, running and just about everything in between.  It was a pretty descriptive post if I do say so myself!

2017  Well what do you know, I actually got the date right in 2017!   It was a post similar to this, just looking back over the years and looking forward to the future.   I was still proud of that 10  year anniversary post and referred back to it!

 2018 Look at that, another year where I celebrated on the correct day! This was actually a really interesting post.  I actually wrote a post about things I learned along the way!   Very good stuff.  I also included some stats about my blog...stuff like how many posts, etc.   

2019  Well, I got it wrong again.   This year I posted my blogiversary on January 4th.  In this post I was honest with my success followed by failure.  But I also blatantly stole the post from the 2017, ten year anniversary post and just updated it a wee little bit.  (I'm so lame!)

2020  Hey hey hey, will you look at that, I actually got the date...WRONG again! Yup, I celebrated on January 6th! Even more lame?  I literally copied the previous years post pretty much word for word!   Shame on me!

2021 I got the date right and it wasn't a blatant copy! (Watch out, it's gonna snow!!)   It was a similar post though where I just catch up on life and all of lifes changes and happenings....and more of my history.  I actually talked about how my blog came into existence!

2023   I missed celebrating in 2022 but I came in strong in 2023 with a post that talked about what this blog means to me. (On the correct day to boot!)  And yes, I still agree.....this blog was my salvation when I needed a place to put my thoughts down.  

2024 I started to laugh when I read the opening paragraph of this post.  I actually talked about my misconceptions about when this anniversary really was!   But, I got it right and posted it on the correct day!  The post was another one that was so heartfelt.  It was my thank you to the readers over the years who have supported me!   

2025 is here and I missed the date and I"m celebrating on the wrong day....AGAIN!   But it doesn't mater because 19 years is an amazing accomplishment.  I remain thankful to each and everyone that reads this.  I appreciate your support. I don't plan on stopping....so 20 here we come!

The Stats

Years that I celebrated my anniversary - 10

Years that I celebrated my anniversary on the correct day - 5

Number of posts  2647

Year with the most posts 2008   (334)

Year with the least posts 2022 (41)