Weekend Warrier

I decided that Friday would be my day of rest.  At least from Exercise.  I went to work (don't I look bored?) and as soon as work was done I headed off for the day.  I started by returning the shoes (the ones for zumba)  that I purchased at JCPenney's .  I hit up the grocery store.  I filled up my car with gas and then I went home.  At home I unloaded the car, did laundry, cleaned the house and did all sorts of house work.  I was HUNGRY.   Ok, maybe my mind was telling me that I was hungry.  I wasn't taking any chances.  I decided that I wouldn't eat until certain 'chores' were done here at the house.  Worked like a charm.  I got so involved in my activities that I ended up not eating until even later than I planned.  I as on the go. 

Saturday dawned and I had actually planned on exercising, but life just got away from me.  I relaxed in the morning, waiting for our friends to pick up our poor somewhat dead car.  We are going to try to revive it enough to sucker a bit more time out of it before it totally dies. (basically it needs a few small things to hold it over....hopefully).   After our friends left, I made lunch and then Todd and I got ready to leave.  We decided to mosey down to Winchester, VA and just roam a bit, have dinner and then hit up a CD Release party for some of our clients.  I dressed...and I have to say, the newly rediscovered confidence was at play.  I dressed.  I dressed nice.  I didn't just simply wear the jeans and sweatshirt that I normally grab.  I felt good.  My husband, also known as Mr.  Sabotager wasn't very complimentary.   Seriously?  He said my shirt was a bit slutty.....uhhh I don't think so putz!  I was going to describe it..but figured I'd put  picture on here instead...  NOT at all slutty is it?   I wore it with jeans and black heeled boots.  And uhhhh it's WINTER...I wore a black sweater over it all.  Slutty??    I think not.   Oh well...I've said that there are problems in the marriage.....my reemerging self confidence must threaten and freak him out. TOUGH LUCK BUSTER!

I chose wisely at dinner...but was totally shocked!  I drank my normal, water with lemon at dinner.  My husband got an iced tea.  They charged him 2.99 for his ice tea.   Guess what I was charged for my tap water??????  Or actually maybe they charged me for the lemon!  79 cents??    Yup....I would have carted my big fat water jug in and saved the 79 cents...who cares....79 cents is 79 cents!  After diner we headed to the aforementioned CD release party.  It was OK..not my favorite genre of music.  This one was old style bluegrass music.  (Marv Ashby and High Octane in case you care....we have recorded their last two CD's)  The musicianship was good though, and they were entertaining...so all was good.  Regardless, it was an evening of PR for our business.    We left there at 11 or so.....got home at midnight.  Of course I couldn't go right to bed....so I laid in bed and read a bit......

Regardless.....Sunday morning my alarm went off bright and early.  I didn't ignore it. Even though it was cold and only 18 degrees.  There was never any thought to ignore it.  And by 7:30 I was at the battlefield (Antietam) and hopping out of my car to join up with Sherry.   Day one week three of the couch to 5k is history.   Did I mention that it was 18 degrees????   We even followed up the training run with a walk! (the walk is our extra time to chit chat).   I was actually surprised at how 'easy' this one was.   We actually ran a few 3 minute intervals.  Yeah, doesn't seem like a big thing to a runner...but to a non-runner that's HUGE.  And it really didn't bother me!  :-)  My breathing the first run/jog interval was choppy...but I focused and pulled it under control and all was fine.  Sherry and I talked about my 240.9 stickiness on the scales. (yes, Friday, Saturday and first thing this morning I was ...you guessed it 240.9 on the scales).   We came up with a few ideas and a few theories on my weight.  We got some talking done and I feel great!

I did re-weigh myself when I got home....and was down one pound to 239.9.   I'll take that number.   I haven't lost my focus.  Even when the scales popped up and even as they have remained the exact same all week, my focus and determination has not wavered.  But I think I needed to see that number change....even if just to prove that my scales are not broke.  :-)    I think that today is going to be  a stay at home relax and watch movie kinda day.  That works for me! 

Getting ready to enter in the food for the rest of my day.....add in my exercise...plan tomorrows eating.  I'm hot on the trail of thin, svelte and HEALTHY!

For the love of Scales

I used to weigh myself everyday. However this time around I'm not weighing as much.  I am definitely weighing on Sundays (I have to report my weigh in to a group I am a member of) and also on Mondays which is my official weigh in day.   I have to admit that I have taken a couple sneak peaks throughout the weeks.  I've been OK with that.  It's all been good.  Until this Wednesday that is.  I stepped on the scales.  240.9.  What???? That is 1.1 pounds up!   What in the world?  I ate right.  I exercised.  Could it have been that I exercised the evening before AND ate a late meal???    I swallowed my disappointment and continued onward. I was in my caloric budget and I exercised again.    Wanting to erase the negative scale report from my mind I hopped onto the scales on Thursday morning.  Surely the scales would show some love.  But no...those scales were EXACTLY the same as Wednesday morning. 240.9  Seriously?   What in the world! OK, OK, OK Same thing...evening exercise...late meal.  Surely that was the reason.    Disappointed but not willing to let the scales win I plodded on.  This morning (Friday) I hopped onto the scales.  I KNEW that this scale travesty would definitely right itself today.  Seriously.  It had to!  I've done everything right. I've exercised...I've eaten right. I'm DOING IT!   All scale procedures followed (seriously...don't we all strip down to nothing,  pee and get every drop of waste out of us before hopping on the scales.....don't act like you don't!...cuz I know you do!.......) I stepped onto the scales.  I felt like doing a drum roll as I waited for the scales to register my weight.  And then it did.  I looked down.......and what wonderful number did my eyes behold?   THE EXACT SAME  weight.   Holy crud-a-moley! My mind immediately started to mess with me.  240.9.  What are the odds that my weight didn't move even a stinkin' ounce in the last three days.  Wait...is my scale broke.....will it not go lower???  I immediately rejected that idea because the other day it did register me in the 230's.   But then the next idea rolled into my mind.  240.9 is obviously the weight that I'm intended to be.  It will not drop any further.  240.9...this is it I guess.   Yeah my mind is warped....if you didn't know that before you do now!   

That negative talk though is getting me no where.  My mind is screaming at me to just give up  240.9 is where my body obviously wants me.  But I'm not going to give in to the temptation to listen to that negative self talk.  I am doing what I need to be doing for my health.  I'm going to keep doing that.  Besides...it's not even my official weigh in day.  So I don't know what my official number will be.  Seriously...all of this scale badness could right itself by Monday!   The choice is mine...give up or continue on and be healthy and damn the number on the scales.







 I'm choosing to damn the scales.  The scales are JUST a number.  It is not a true testament to the effort that I'm putting in.  Yeah, I know that the numbers on the scales WILL follow along with my effort.  But it just may not do it in the time frame that I personally find satisfactory.  But taking the scales out of the equation.   I have successfully completed week 2  of the couch to 5k program....I'm starting to run.  ME...a runner!   I'm smiling more throughout my days.  These last five weeks of having my food addiction under control has brought about a more self confident happy person.  I WANT to smile.  I WANT to sing.  It's not an effort to do these things.  I feel alive.  I feel confident and ready to actually face the world with my head held high.  I actually WILLINGLY take my picture (OK OK OK...face shots...lol).  I know that my 13 pounds (well 12 as of today) isn't really visible yet....it's the self confidence that is inside me blossoming and growing that is making amendable to picture taking.  So my question.....even if the scales NEVER show anything lower than 240.9.......aren't I still a winner????



Cathy nominated me for the Liebster Award....I figured it would be fun to play along.....

Here’s how it works-
The rules:
Each blogger posts 11 random facts about themselves.
Answer the questions the tagger has set for you
Choose 11 new bloggers to pass the award to/nominate
Come up with 11 new questions to ask your nominees
Go to their page and tell them about the award.
No tag backs!

11 Random Facts:

1.  I love "I Love Lucy"  My pets are all named after the show.  Sometimes it's funny because the show will be on and they will hear their name (Lucy, Desi, Ethel, WinniFRED, and Mertz) and they will jump up and stare at the tv because it's talking directly to them.

2. I am a bit sarcastic.  (just a bit mind you).  My husband doesn't get sarcasm (how did I end up with him...haa haa haa).

3. I used to be an elementary school teacher.  I left the profession.  It took me at least 10 years before I could even talk about the experience without crying......my last year was that traumatic.

4.  I like to write.  I have a novel in the works...I'm pretty excited about it...but just need to work on discipline to sit down and actually WORK on it.

5.  I am a jack of all trades...master of none.  I dabble in quilt making, cross stitch, crochet, scrapbooking, photography, etc etc etc.  I know enough about each of them to do a pretty good job.
6.  I get compliments for my photography..... but seriously....I just mash the button and hope for the best sometimes....and those pictures are some of my most amazing shots!  (ROFLMAO)

7.  I read....ALL the time.  I never thought I would switch to digital books...but I LOVE LOVE LOVE my kindle...and since switching to digital about a year and a half ago have not looked back and read EVERYTHING on my kindle.

8.  I am a kid at heart.  I don't know that I will ever really grow up.

9.  I always wanted kids.  It breaks my heart that circumstances have kept me from having that opportunity.

10.  I have a love hate relationship with living in the country. I like country life for it's openness...and the garden...and the seclusion.  I hate it for the critters and for having to drive 20 minutes to go anywhere (groceries, stores, gas)

11.  I gave up eating most meat.  Simply because a cow looked at me with the most gentle eyes.....and I knew that I couldn't do it.  I couldn't eat anything with such benign gentle eyes!

Questions that Cathy asked:
1.Are you a cat or a dog person?  Cat cat cat!
2.What is your favorite workout?  Zumba....it's a social thing too
3.What do you do for "me" time? READ
4.If you won the lottery (the really big one) who would be the first person you told? And why?  My husband.  It would change things in our life.....give more freedom for choices that need to be made
5.What is the strangest thing you can think about yourself? (What do you do, what do you own, etc)  Everything about me is strange.  haa haa haa
6. If you could go back in time and change anything, would you? What would you change?  I would have worked to lose the weight years upon years earlier
7. What is your greatest accomplishment?  Losing the weight the first time around
8. What was your favorite toy as a child? Dolls....any doll
9 Are you close with your family? Why or why not?  VERY.  Why?  because I love them!
10.  Empty your purse . . . what is in it?   money, debit card, sunglasses, chapstick, three checkbooks, a small calander,
11.  How did you start blogging?   I started blogging simply for me.  It was an online journal for myself. I never expected anyone to read it.

My Questions:

1.  If you could change one thing in your life what would it be?
2.  What is your favorite color?
3.  If you could go on a vacation anywhere in the world...where would it be?  Why?
4.  What is your favorite thing about your body?
5.  If you were shopping right now..what store/department would you be in?
6.  Favorite type of book to read?
7.  Longest distance you have ever ridden on a bike?
8.  Glasses, contacts or perfect vision?
9.  Toenails...painted or au natural?
10.  Best thing about your life?
11.  What kind of car do you drive?

My picks:  (dang this is hard, I read so many blogs)

Fixing myself Thinner
The Journey to a New Me
Paulawannacracker
Fatt 2 Fitt after 5
Losing the Shadow Behind
The Voices Within Unleashed
Body Works
Bringing Pretty Back
Dutch Girl is Healthy
Healthy Lovin
Timothology