Staying the Course

 I have been meaning to write all week long.  Seriously, I kept telling myself that I was going to write and talk about my week 4 weigh in.  I kept saying that it was going to happen 'today'.  Yet each day I would find myself laying in bed at night with no update having been made.  So here I find myself ready to report on my week 5 of my current journey with Weight Watchers.

Weight Watchers Weigh in Week 4

My weigh in for week four was not what I wanted to report. I showed a half pound gain.  Well technically it was a shade over a half pound.  I gained 0.6 pounds.  Gained!  REALLY?   How was that so?  I looked at what I had done.  I saw one or two things that I could tweak but for the most part I was on target.  I vowed that I would NOT give up!  I was going to trust the process and keep going.  So onward into Week 5 I marched.   

Weight Watchers Weigh in Week 5

I was honestly worried about week 5.  It started with Easter Sunday.  We went to my in-laws for the day.  I tried to eat wisely, but admittedly, I ate more than I should have/wanted to.  That started my week off rough.  Throughout the week  I had a few nibbles on homemade peanut butter eggs that my mother in law gave to us.  Not perfect, but I felt like I was still in line.  Other than that first day of my weight watchers week I was in line with my points (and the corresponding calories, which I can also see on the WW app).  I was hopeful, but worried after the gain the week before.  

Sadly, I showed a 0.3 pound gain for week 5!    ARRRGGGHHHH    I'm nearing 1 pound gained as a total over the last two weeks!  This is NOT cool!   

Not Giving UP

I am NOT giving up.   I am determined to keep everything in line and keep tweaking until I figure out what works for me.   Weight watchers is recommending over 120g of protein for me.  I have long struggled with even getting 60-70g of protein (which is what myfitnesspal usually recommends).  So my focus this week is protein, protein, protein.  

 I can do this!!!! 

Cutting the apron strings

Weight watchers will always have a soft spot in my heart. Weight watchers helped motivate me and get me over a hump in my weight loss journey. But I really do feel that my time at weight watchers is at an end for the time being. Yes, I may go back eventually. (I've always said that the lifetime thing is a godsend because it would help keep constant accountability). However at this time, the meetings are just not doing it for me. Firstly, getting to a meeting is no longer a priority. When I do go to a meeting, I've struggled finding one that fits me schedule and my needs. So i have decided to stop spending $40 a month to not attend any weight watchers meetings. As I said, I will probably go back later......I can't predict the future though. But for right now my official weight watcher days are over. I'm a little sad and a little worried. Paying that monthly fee each month has been a bit of a crutch for me.....always reminding me that "I'm paying good money to lose weight...so LOSE it" But in the long run I have to look at myself and where I am.

I will forever be grateful to the weight watchers program for what it taught me. I learned and shaped my eating. I learned to make healthier options instead of simply eating nutritionally empty foods. I learned to manage and budget my eating. I learned that I can do it. But on that same breath, that crutch that weight watchers was for me I think has also become somewhat of a hindrance. I need to stand up on my on two feet and finish this journey the way I started....on my own.

So, just 5 minutes ago, I logged onto the weight watchers website and cut the financial ties to weight watchers. I am officially on my own again. I'll be honest. I'm scared to death! But I know in my heart that this is the right choice for me.

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My weight this morning...UP UP UP and away. I'm hoping a good deal of that is water retention because of the wonderful monthly cycle. I'm also just incredibly thirsty this morning. I'm swallowing the water at a pretty fast rate. (who knows what's up with that). I've already ridden on the exercise bike for about 45 minutes this morning and I hope to ride again this evening. :-) I am however almost at the end of the Australian Biggest Loser...I'll be looking for something else to watch on youtube...anyone have any great ideas????