Friday, June 05, 2020

Hanging on by a thread

So my return to the land of weight loss wasn’t as victorious as I had hoped.

I didn’t go crazy, thank heavens!  I didn’t shovel in food like crazy I remained steady and kept my food intake on an even keel.   I tried to eat intuitively and wisely. 

We did continue our after work walks.  And I even attempted to ride a mountain bike trail.  And it went well!  It was fun.  It was hard.  It didn’t hurt my ribs any worse than a normal ride!  Even the deer came out to applaud me!


However, I tracked nothing. (Well does one day count?)   I lost no weight.   I failed to restart any daily exercise.

I did however finish piecing my modern style crazy quilt!

We also cleaned both cars...inside and out!   Look at this girl shine!!!

I also worked on some smaller dollhouse projects, worked, and just tried to enjoy life!

So where does this leave me?   I am still really struggling to get into the swing of this weight loss journey.  In my heart I am not ready to really restart this weight loss journey and get sucked into the more of it all.  But in my mind I know that I need to.   I know that I need to get this weight off.  I know that I need to work on getting fit again. I know that I need to restart this weight loss journey full force!

I’m here today.  I’m making no promises.   I’m not vowing to start my daily exercise routine.  I’m not vowing to track every bite of food.  I’m not promising to lose weight this week.    I am however admitting that I HOPE to restart a daily exercise routine next week. (We stay pretty active on the weekends...my work week is where I’m lacking).  I plan to start consistently tracking.  I also still really want to lose weight.   I can do this!!




12 comments:

Shelley said...

Maybe releasing yourself from everything that you've been doing for years regarding weight loss will free you up to figure out a new way of living healthy without feeling like you're continually failing to reach your weekly goals. Maybe no set goals will actually help...

*Stained Glass Butterfly* said...

I was doing so well for a while, then it's just like I hit a wall, burned out, didn't have it in me anymore. So I am struggling to get back at it too. Sometimes not placing parameters and goals on ourselves is like a release from the stress and pressure, so it might be a good place to start.

Rebooting Myself said...

I find that I cannot make too many drastic changes at once. I have to sort of work my way into things until it starts to become a routine again.

Like maybe just pick one thing to focus on and then build from there.

MaryFran said...

I am sure hoping! Because I’m struggling to return to healthy weight loss habits such as tracking!!!

MaryFran said...

I think your right...it’s just the longevity of this journey...I’ve been doing it for soooooo long!!!

MaryFran said...

Small steps...that is good advice!!!

Mary said...

I think you are doing great. Maybe give yourself a break as far as the scale. Just don't get on it for awhile.

MaryFran said...

I’m trying to relax from that also...not put as much stock in the numbers. It’s ingrained though...lol

Anonymous said...

You did better than me this week. I gained. 2.5 pounds. I was so bummed. I just don’t know how I want to approach this anymore. I have been fighting the fight for too damn long. I want to lose the weight. I have hypothyroidism so it is seems even more difficult but I do not want to allow that to be my excuse. I just wished I didn’t like eating so much! I do the exercise. My problem is the kitchen. I need to find my determination. Hopefully next week I will see a loss so I can be encouraged to keep going.

Paula C

MaryFran said...

I could have written this comment..word for word. I think you nailed it on the head when you said you’ve been fighting this fight for too damn long! Ditto! And that is exactly where I am at! I think that is where my general apathy is coming from!

And like you..the kitchen beckons! Stay strong! We CAN do this!!!!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for the negative comment. I guess I am just a bit discouraged but I am not giving up. I plan to cut my portion sizes & drink more water. We can do it!

Paula C

MaryFran said...

Never apologize for a comment! You wrote what was in your heart at that very moment. I have always said I want my posts to be open and honest, and I want the comments to be the same way!! Your comments actually help me so much! I only hope that in some ways my responses (or my future posts that are sometimes based off of comments...like today’s post) help you! We are doing this journey together and that means we share our struggles and victories! Keep sharing. The good and the bad!