It has been six months since I last worked. Six long months. That is six months of worry about the future. That is six months of worrying about finances. But that is also six months of a very relaxed lifestyle and lets face it kinda like vacation! But that is coming to an end. I start my new job this week. It's happening. 6 months to the day that I last worked. LITERALLY, I last worked the last day of December and I will start working on the last day of June.
I am excited. I am sad. I am confident. I am nervous. Ask me at any given moment and you will get a different answer.
Excitement underlies everything because I really am excited to start working again. If I look back at all of the jobs that I have held in the past my banking job holds the place as my all time favorite job. So it is with excitement that I embark upon another banking job. It is with excitement that I end this six months of stress about work and finances. It is with excitement that I look forward to meeting new coworkers and forging new friendships. I am mostly excited.
There is however a sense of sadness. I have always said that I could very easily be a lady of leisure and not work. The last six months proved that to me. I enjoyed being off work. I have enjoyed the freedom of being able to do things throughout the week. It was a blessing that I had the time to help finish readying my mom's house to put on the market. It was a blessing that I had the time to work in the yard and get some larger projects done. It was even a blessing that I had the time while I was off to complete the 75 hard challenge. (How crazy to think that when I started that challenge in January that I assumed that I would be back to work before the challenge finished....yet here I am, three months after finishing it and just finally going back to work.) Sadly, I wasn't working so many of the things that I would have loved to do didn't get done because I didn't want to spend the money. But I still enjoyed every second. (well maybe not the week I had the stomach bug....I didn't enjoy that!) I enjoyed being off work and I am utterly grateful for the opportunity to have that time off, but ending
As with any new job I am nervous. It's nerve wracking to change. It fills me with nerves to start a new job. (And I just realized that this blog has seen me through 3 jobs...this will be the fourth......seems like a lot but it has been 19 years that I've been writing!) But I am confident that I really am the right person for the job......and I know that the nerves will settle as I go through training and eventually get to the branch that I will be working.
I am using the beginning of this new job as a new beginning for everything. I am starting this job at the halfway mark of the year. I also just saw those pictures of myself when I was away on my Girls weekend and I said enough is enough. So this new job....the new month...the new me starts now.
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