A New Start to a New me

 It has been six months since I last worked.   Six long months.   That is six months of worry about the future.  That is six months of worrying about finances.  But that is also six months of a very relaxed lifestyle and lets face it kinda like vacation!   But that is coming to an end.  I start my new job this week.  It's happening.  6 months to the day that I last worked.   LITERALLY, I last worked the last day of December and I will start working on the last day of June.  

I am excited.  I am sad.  I am confident.  I am nervous. Ask me at any given moment and you will get a different answer. 

Excitement underlies everything because I really am excited to start working again.   If I look back at all of the jobs that I have held in the past my banking job holds the place as my all time favorite job.  So it is with excitement that I embark upon another banking job.  It is with excitement that I end this six months of stress about work and finances.  It is with excitement that I look forward to meeting new coworkers and forging new friendships.  I am mostly excited.

There is however a sense of sadness.  I have always said that I could very easily be a lady of leisure and not work.  The last six months proved that to me.  I enjoyed being off work.  I have enjoyed the freedom of being able to do things throughout the week.  It was a blessing that I had the time to help finish readying my mom's house to put on the market.  It was a blessing that I had the time to work in the yard and get some larger projects done.  It was even a blessing that I had the time while I was off to complete the 75 hard challenge.  (How crazy to think that when I started that challenge in January that I assumed that I would be back to work before the challenge finished....yet here I am, three months after finishing it and just finally going back to work.)  Sadly, I wasn't working so many of the things that I would have loved to do didn't get done because I didn't want to spend the money.  But I still enjoyed every second. (well maybe not the week I had the stomach bug....I didn't enjoy that!)   I enjoyed being off work and I am utterly grateful for the opportunity to have that time off, but ending 

As with any new job I am nervous.  It's nerve wracking to change.  It fills me with nerves to start a new job.  (And I just realized that this blog has seen me through 3 jobs...this will be the fourth......seems like a lot but it has been 19 years that I've been writing!)   But I am confident that I really am the right person for the job......and I know that the nerves will settle as I go through training and eventually get to the branch that I will be working.  

I am using the beginning of this new job as a new beginning for everything.  I am starting this job at the halfway mark of the year.  I also just saw those pictures of myself when I was away on my Girls weekend and I said enough is enough.   So this new job....the new month...the new me starts now.