I can't believe that it is December first already. Where is this year going? It's insane to think that we have already passed not only Halloween but also Thanksgiving, meaning that we are fully in the Christmas season. Inconceivable!
I would love to say that I got right back on the bandwagon after our vacation and lost the vacation weight and kept losing. But that is not the case. I posted a two pound gain the first day back after vacation but it actually settled on about a 4-5 pound gain. I struggled to get back into the routine. I was never really 'off'. Meaning I never ate horribly. But I never ate to lose. So basically I nailed the maintain thing...
I had a normal week back at work and then Thanksgiving week hit. Yup. Right on the heels of vacation, before I got my mojo back I got hit with Thanksgiving. I don't think I did too badly for the holiday meal. I did eat two rolls (Delish) and two pieces of pie (Again delish). And I was not overly hungry for dinner so I had a piece of garlic bread and another piece of pie.
I got back to normal on Friday.....as normal as normal can be. Back to work. Back to the same eating habits that have me maintaining....but not losing.
Once again, not vowing for greatness....but I have to make small changes to fix this. Nothing drastic....small changes, one at a time. Because the worst part of this is that I KNOW that I am losing my mobility due to my excess weight. I know that I am on a trajectory that is NOT good. And yes it scares the living daylights out of me. It depresses me. It humbles me. It terrifies me. Yet this addiction to food overwhelms me and seemingly takes away any self control that I have. And yes, notice I did say SEEMINGLY I know that I have complete control and that it's my will power that needs to kick into high gear to overcome the addiction. But anyone with an addiction will tell you.......that's easier said than done. Just ask the smoker that is dying of lung cancer yet still smokes like a chimney!
But I can do this..........
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