Tuesday, September 07, 2021

It's a see saw weigh in!

 I gained.  I gained weight on my official Friday weigh in!  And no, I'm not happy about it!

Ok, I got that right out there didn't I!  No beating around the bushes.  I just had to say it!  I gained about 1.5 pounds in that week stretch.  I sit back and I want to say HOW.....I'm not eating horribly!   On my indulgent days, I am eating about 1600-1800 calories.  And I gain!  What is wrong with me!

OK, so enough about the whining!  This  is a chapter that repeats time and time again for me.  I KNOW that I can't eat 1600 calories...yet I continue to try!  I want my body to be 'normal'.  I want my body to lose weight at that range that should allow me to lose a pound a week ...if I am going strictly by the numbers.  BUT, my body is not like that.  My body has it's own unique sense of how weight should be lost.  Unfortunately for me, that means that I need to keep my calories closer to the 1200 range.  I can sneak it up to 1400  but that is my range.  1200-1400.  When I eat within that range, I lose.  Plain and simple!

Now, I HAVE talked to my doctor about my calorie range.  She knows that I don't lose at 1600....but I do at 1300.  And she simply said "well you know what you need to do and what your caloric goal needs to be".  So eating at that calorie range is doctor approved for me!

But why???  Why do I have to eat like a bird?   (which honestly...birds eat CONSTANTLY, so I don't get that saying).   Why do I have to watch every bite knowing that if I eat an extra piece of bread that the weight will pile on overnight?  Why do I have to restrict to 1200 calories, and existing on nibbling on raw carrots? (Not really, simply because I hate raw carrots...but that's what this journey feels like sometimes!) Why do I try so hard and not lose weight?   WHY WHY WHY!

Yes, I'm having a pity party!   I'm not giving up.  I know that I am worth every ounce of effort that I make!  BUT, dang if it isn't a difficult journey!

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am 135# and if I ate more than 1200 cal/day I would balloon up. Your body is telling you what it needs; simply listen to it! Maybe go a day without eating anything but a late-afternoon smoothie, then wake up the next day to a new inspired beginning? ...just a suggestion on what works for me if I ever over-indulge...

Paula C said...

I gained twice as much than you did this week! I hate that I have to be hungry to lose weight. I do everything good & I have done nothing but gain lately. It is so discouraging too. I have tried all the diets. But it comes down to I must eat less than 90% of the population to be a normal weight. Trust me, you are not alone. We got the kind of body that must eat like a bird to be a normal weight. Anyone else would be a bag of bones.

Rose S. said...

If you go to any doctor they will tell you that eating 1200 calories a day is starving your body. So when you are eating in the normal range of 1600 cals your body is most likely storing it. I did it. I lost 100 lbs on eating 1200 cals a day. It was horrible! Its not living , its always , always worrying. And you know that. You've been doing this a very long time. I've read your blog for years! Your body is telling you to stop starving it. Go on TIKTOK and put in nutritionist, weight loss doctors and so on. Every one of them will say the same thing, stop starving your body.

Think about it. You are so active and yet you are gaining....makes sense that something is just not adding up. And I'm not beating you up because all of us are geared the same way. Why woman have this hate against their bodies I'll never know. You posted that pic of yourself in the new dress and you looked so cute. Small waste and nice legs! We all wish for that. Maybe its time to embrace what you have instead of beating yourself up so badly .

Good luck!

peppylady (Dora) said...

I was down this week, not sure it because stress or the yukies. But I rather loose weight the correct way and keep it off.
Coffee is on and stay safe

Mrs Swan said...

Your body is an asshole. 😉
I don't know my high because I never stick to calorie counting long enough to figure it out. I am sure you will even out by next WI.