Friday, June 11, 2021

I need to stop it!

You know the saying ‘best laid plans’?   Yeah,  I know it well!   I’ve remarked on it over and over on this website.  I make plans and vows and then something happens to throw a monkey wrench in the works.  It’s like clockwork!  And I need to stop more monkey wrenches!

On Monday I wrote a post about where I was in this journey and I made my vow to turn things around…I made a strong vow!   I was ready to rock this journey and get it back on the right path.  Calorie counting, more religious and strict about my intake of food.  Everything.   I rocked out Monday!   I was on fire!  Nothing could stop me!

And then Tuesday morning Jason’s phone rang at 4AM.   We all know that nothing good comes from a phone call in the middle of the night.   And thus began a week of heartache and grieving.  I will not go into anything…it’s not my story to share.  (I’m an open book, he is not).  But I will say this…if you have kids…hug them just a bit tighter and tell them you love them, you never know when you will never have the chance again.

I made a decision on Tuesday while we were trying to get our feet under us.  I would NOT let the stress eating and the wild emotions in our house turn me away from my vow.

My calorie count has been below 1300 each day this week!  I have remained very conscious about the  decisions I have made.  Did I have a donut. When Jason wanted them?  Yes!  But I had one! I only bought one for myself.  And yes I enjoyed it.  But I kept it at one…even though that box that held a half dozen had empty slots for more donuts I bought ONE!  I knew if I purchased more for myself (flavors that I wanted) that I would eat them!   I’m heading into the weekend and I know that’s my difficult time.  But I’m determined.   Will there be more cake or donuts as we get through this time period?  I’m sure.  But I am confident that I CAN handle it and restrict myself to a healthier sized portion.

My mileage for my 2021, the one where I vowed to propel myself 2021 miles in 2021.   I have been slowly working on that…slow but consistent.  I get around 8-10 miles a day.  Steady and consistent.  This week….well not so much.   But that is ok.  Jason needed me more and I’ll get my miles completed.  (I was almost two months ahead so I’m on no danger of falling behind.) 

I’m determined…my vow to fix my weight issues is NOT getting sidetracked!

And now a picture of our pets.   Because…well it makes me smile!


SANRDJ said...

I've had that early morning phone call in the past and you are right, they are not usually good news. I'm sorry for the stress/feelings that the call brought to you both.

It's going to be hard to stay on track when stress levels are so high, but this is the time to try your hardest. You can still be support for Jason and stay on track. You can do it and your positive goal mindset will be great support for you both! Take care.

Mary said...

Your cat is adorable. Sorry for whatever caused heartache.

peppylady (Dora) said...

Hope Jason and you are ok. So pround of you. I just attend my first Overeaters anonymous zoom meeting. Although not sure if it for me or not.
Coffee is on and stay safe

Lynn said...

Your cat and bird are so cute.

jen said...

Big hugs to you and Jason.
Be strong, be positive.

Mrs Swan said...

I am sorry for Jason's loss. The pets are adorable!

Stained Glass Butterfly said...

I am so sorry for whatever Jason and you are dealing with. It doesn't sound good at all. I am a big stress eater, and I know how hard it is to not do it. I hope both of you are taking comfort in each other and doing as well as can be expected.

Anonymous said...

My word you have not been able to catch a break from the stress. I am so sorry to hear that Jason is going through such a difficult time. Praying for the both of you. You just take care of yourself and Jason and don’t worry about anything else.

Paula C