Monday, January 20, 2020

Weekly weigh in: rough

So another week in my weight loss journey has passed.   And let me tell you...in some ways it was a rough one! Oh the weather was fantastic and I got some activity but my emotions were a train wreck!

First and foremost let’s talk about activity.   The weather at the beginning of this weight loss week was off the charts awesome!  It was literally high 60’s!   We did our best to get outside as much as possible.  We went for a long hike.

And we went for a long bike ride.

I also walked on some lunch breaks and rode the exercise bike a few times.   So that wasn’t the problem....but it sparked the issue.

I was so sore after my hike...I went home and I literally cried from the aches and pain.  Ok not so much from the aches...but from the pain of the arthritis!   And maybe it wasn’t really the pain....it was the utter despair and fear that my arthritis is always good to be this bad.  Sure,   I lost weight before and the pain almost totally went away.  But I was younger. And what if I only had one ‘get out of jail free’ pass.  What if I had once chance to fix it and I did...but then with my regain and current state of unhealthiness I blew it and I am now consigned for a life of pain?  Yeah...despair!

So I struggled with that...but kept moving!  I also kept my calories pretty much in line.  Sure I ate a bit more (as in 100-300 calories over my upper limit) on two days but they were also the days that we hiked for 4 hours and the day that we hiked for 2 hours.  I did good!

So why did the scales jump me up by FOUR pounds overnight!  What?  How frustrating.   So all week I worked to stay on task and I watched those higher numbers!  And by about Wednesday I was done.  I literally stood in the shower one morning and said “ok, I’m tired of all of this. I’m fine being fat!  No more weight loss journey.”  

I didn’t give up.   I stayed the course and on Thursday my weight dropped a bit and by my official weigh in my weigh had returned to exactly where it was last Friday.  So I weeks out a maintain!    And I’m happy with that!  



So this week of my weight loss journey has been an emotional roller coaster.   I have always said that a good portion of this journey is mental and this week the mental portion was struggling.  But I’m still in this game.  I’m still ok this journey.  


5 comments:

Mrs Swan said...

This is my rudimentary knowledge but of course, you jumped up 4 lbs overnight after all of that activity. You said yourself that you were sore! Let's see if I can copy and paste in a comment.

YES, I CAN- This is from the first google listing even!!!

The first is a healing response. “That stress and micro-tearing damage to the muscle fibers induces water retention in the body,” Dr. Calabrese explains. “There may be a small amount of inflammation around the micro tear, and your body retains fluid there to try to heal it.” These are short-lived changes in the muscle.

SEEEEE!!!

I know that F' it feeling you had. You are working soooo hard and not seeing big changes. Maybe your working too hard? Or too much self-sabotage? I am doing the self sabotoge and sometimes I realize it and sometimes I do not.

Too bad this whole weight loss thing is not just a simple math problem!

Slow and steady and stay the course you know works for you. Whatever course any of us choose has to be for life or we will fall back down that rabbit hole.

Mary said...

I often go on 100 mile backpacking trips and the day I return my weight is up. It feels like there's a small lag, because it drops after a while.

Anonymous said...

I know I have said this before, but have you had your thyroid checked? I know it sounds like a cop out but I struggled for so long. I did everything possible and I couldn’t lose. Finally I had my thyroid tested. I have Hashimoto’s Thyroidis, my numbers weren’t terrible so we tried exercise, diet etc at first but nothing seemed to change. Finally we tried a low dosage of Rx to treat hypothyroidism and after a few months I finally started losing weight. Hypothyroidism makes it very difficult to lose weight but with meds it is possible. It is something to consider.

Paula C

Lynn said...

I wish it was that warm here! Looks like you got a lot of fun exercise!

Sarah said...

I've been on that up and down scale too. Don't give up!