Friday, January 24, 2014

Disbelief, shock and awe

I'm in disbelief!  I have hovered at just about a 2 pound loss for the last 4 days. And today was my official weigh in day. Yay!  Time to get that 2 pound loss officially recorded!  My goals for the week?  You know...tracking, staying within my caloric budget, drinking water, exercising.  I nailed each and every one!  I didn't falter!  I rocked the plan.

I woke up this morning.  I knew IMMEDIATELY that it was going to be bad.  You see, since I weigh everyday I know the nuances of my body.  Today I woke up thirsty.  That has NEVER boded well on the scales that day.  NEVER.  I laid in bed for a few minutes, hoping that today would be different!  I prayed that today would be different.  I took every article of clothing off  and even contemplated chopping off some of my hair for an added bonus, but stopped just shy of grabbing my dull scissors from the bathroom drawer.  I stepped on the scales.    YAY......(note the sarcasm) I weighed in a half of pound HIGHER than last week.  So I have to woman up to a gain this week.    ARRRRRGGGGHHHHHH!

Seriously, why am I doing this????

I know I know I know...I'm doing it because I want to be thin.  I'm doing this because I want to live a healthy and active life.  I'm doing this and I'm not giving up, but it is depressing.....even knowing that it is most likely a water weight gain.    My consolation.....because I DO weigh everyday, I know what is most likely the issue.  (and I drank right around 100 ounces of water no, it's not an issue of drinking too little....stupid me, I made General Tso Chicken last night...homemade, and while I do use low sodium soy sauce..seriously, low is a relative term when referring to soy sauce and other chinese ingredients).

Oh well...  (can I scream now?)   Moving on.

So this journey to a better me isn't all about .....I've decided to restart my 365 project.  I've done two consecutive years in the past and have LOVED the results.  I like having a pictorial guide to my year and I like having a camera in my hand. (and it's neat because I can always see my skill as a photographer increase when doing it).    In previous years I was totally hard core.  I had to take a picture each day...I think I only missed 2 or 3 days in those two (two and a half actually) years.  It added a bit of stress to my life on some days.......This time around I'm going more casual......I'm going to TRY to get a picture everyday.

My rules are simple....I want most of the pictures taken with my good cameras.  I can occasionally throw in a cell phone pic (I've taken some amazing shots with my cell phone..and sometimes the cell phone shots sum up the day much better than any other shot) and I may even throw in a graphic art picture or something I pick up somewhere else.  So really simple.   I've done this almost a week here is my week in review...
January beautiful niece

January 20  Sunset before zumba

January 21....Snowy day

January 22.....recovering from snow

January wrong but so incredibly funny


Shelley said...

If your official weigh-in is so important to you, I wonder why you are somewhat sabotaging yourself by cooking meals the night before (and I'm pretty sure this isn't the first time I've seen you do this, which is why I'm mentioning it) that are guaranteed to mess with the number? Could a part of you be afraid to have success? Something to ponder, anyway.

I love your pictures, especially the shot with the cardinals in the snow. Gorgeous!

Darcy Winters said...

I have tried the 365 Project a few times and never seem to get very far. You have a great eye for photo taking - I can't wait to see how it goes!

Meanwhile, don't focus on the numbers so much - focus on how you're clothes are fitting and how you feel. Water retention can throw things off so quickly - looking at the other queues can help you see how you're really progressing.

timothy said...

hmmmm there is a bit of a pattern where you eat "bad or semi-bad" right before your weigh in, as an old hand at self sabotage and the fear of success you might want to look at that, I of course KNOW this is not a sprint it's a marathon and we WILL get to the finish line!

Kyra said...

You saw the scale move, and it did. Which means if you knock out this next week and things settle out, you'll get a nice big result (because it'll be more accurate!)

Kitty said...

I have certainly had it happen (just a couple of weeks ago actually) where I was going to show a good loss and then I was up the next morning on weigh in day for no apparent reason. I just hate it when that happens.

All that said, I am very careful the day before weigh in and I scrutinize very carefully the sodium content of any processed foods that I eat. I know the sodium will get me every time....

Jessica said...

You are doing all the right things, and that is all that matters. You has a spot on week, so forget the scales and appreciate the week you had!