Friday, December 20, 2013


I don't have much to say today.  I haven't had much to say recently  That usually means one thing........I'm struggling (failing in many cases) with my weight loss efforts.

This time is no different.  I'm struggling big time.  I know that a good part of my problem is mental.  Mentally I'm just not there.  I'm feeling down...I'm feeling a lack of self worth.  I'm struggling.  I sit back and think I'm making progress in healing from things...and then BAM...something hits me and I'm back to being sad.  It can be something as simple as a card in the mail that brings up issues between my husband and a customer bringing in a baby into the bank where I work.  Simple things throw me for a loop.  GAH

So as for my weight.   Right now the biggest change that I'm going to make is that I'm going to start weighing myself daily.  I'm not going to be happy with what I see tomorrow....but I need to see it EVERYDAY.  OTherwise it's a 'far off' /'tomorrow' deal that I don't HAVE to think about....which means that the brownies (the ones in the oven that I can smell right now as they bake) can be eaten with impunity because...well....I have such and such amount of days until I have to face the music of my weight.   That is a start!  The rest will follow...especially since I have some ideas to help me!  Stay tuned!


timothy said...

I think right now I'm just maintaining myself I haven't given up exactly I'm just "hibernating" right now, gonna make it through the holidays then kick it into gear. Christmas is just difficult for us all. hang in darlin!

Fran said...

Sweety take it easy the rest of this year. You did so much this year, you deserve a little time off. Exercise when you want too, permit yourself to eat what you want (usually you don't eat that much then if you can have anything).

Think about some nice manageable goals for 2014 and continue on January 1.
This advice is exactly how I'm spending the last days of 2014.

Maren said...

I know exactly what you mean with going silent when struggling. I do the same! It's hard because we want to report all good thigns, and they're not always just good.

Take care!

Summer said...

When i feel the worst and just want to eat, a walk always makes me feel better. Do a little something for yourself that doesn't involve food. Something physical would help more, but going to the library (or whatever) gets you out of your normal routine would help too.

Leslie said...

I can so relate to everything you posted. I haven't felt like writing as much either. This holiday season has gotten me in a bit of a funk. One thing that is helping me is to remind myself that no matter what in my entire life I have always wanted to be healthy, so regardless of what choices I make I am going to want it again. So I just have to keep reminding myself of that, and it helps me to make better choices.

Tammy said...

Weighing every day is both a good & bad thing. But it DOES keep you "on track." I was weighing myself daily..some days you are going to have more water try not to be too hard on yourself. I don't weigh daily anymore...but still at least 3-4x a week. My reason is that a few years ago...I didn't weigh myself for like 6 months & wore "stretchy" shorts/pants during that I'm thinking "I'm not gaining any weight because these pants still fit." WELL when I went to get into other jeans...they wouldn't even go up over my thighs! Weighed myself & had gained like 75 lbs!!!! So yeah....I weigh myself a bit more often & don't wear stretchy pants anymore!!LOL