Tuesday, April 12, 2022

Holding Steady

​Holding steady.  That’s the best way to put it.  I’m holding steady in every aspect of life.  Weight, house hunting, work.  Sometimes ready is good, but in some things I would like forward progress…but hey…holding steady is better than going backwards.

Holding Steady in House Hunting

We had only two houses to look at this past weekend.  Both were sold before we could even tour them.   So we had a weekend off from house hunting.   I wasn’t overly upset.  They weren’t houses that I was ‘in love with’ and anxious to see.  Furthermore, I pray that we make the right decision, that the decision is a no brainer.  So I am relying on my faith…a LOT.   But swing things sell so quickly just shows how crazy the market is at the moment.  

I sometimes wonder if we are insane for looking at the moment.  But our rent will most likely be going up…by 400 dollars (if the apartment complex website is any indication).    Our rent was already on the high side.  Decisions decisions decisions!

So no change in the house hunting.  Holding steady.  

Slow and steady at work

Work is much the same.  Nothing much is happening.  I’m not exactly happy.  It is still a very toxic work environment.  It is still a demoralizing and demeaning experience where we are made to feel inferior and inept. (Seriously…as a real life example….one process has two instructional documents …each give totally different instructions.  An associate sends a daily email with yet different directives.  I spoke with a supervisor and got yet another direction.  Which to follow?  Because if I do it one way I am told how wrong I am…but if I do option two it is also wrong…same with option three and four.  Damned if I do, damned if I don’t.   It’s insane!)

But….even with work being this way, I am really trying to not dwell on it.  I am trying to go to work with a mindset of…. It’s  just a job…do your 8 hours.  Do your job and don’t focus on the back and forth and all around directions.  Block out the negative. Laugh off the disorganization and resulting ‘you were wrong’ talks.   Taking that mentality has helped.  Still not fun.  But it has helped.  So work is holding steady.

Weight loss is holding

My weight is holding also.   Quite literally.  Each week my official weigh in is the same…week in and week out. 

That’s good.  But it’s also not what I want!  First of all.  I have my own little ‘Geronimo’ challenge/ bet going with Jason!   I want to win!

But let’s be honest.  I want to lose the weight because I am tired of being fat.  I’m tired of feeling this way.  I want to be healthy!!!  So holding steady is NOT good enough!!! 


Paula C said...

Holding steady her too. I lost 1 pound last week, but it is simply the one I gained the week before. Work is stressful. I hate that weight holds some back from promotion. Of course no one will ever admit to it. I want to get to gosl too. But addiction & stress is taking its toll. I need to follow your example. It is all on how we deal with it. I need to be grateful for what I do have, not what I don't. I am working harder this week. I still believe you & Jason will find the house of your dreams.

Lynn said...

You'll find the right house. It'll appear when you don't expect it!

jen said...

Keep on believing and holding onto your faith.

Sarah said...

When you find the right house you will definitely get "that feeling" and you'll know it's the one.

I've been on a weight plateau lately too. So ready to break through. Maybe I should start posting on my blog again? LoL

Mrs Swan said...

Holding steady is good enough. Seriously! Your life is currently on a roller coaster as you yourself have said. You could be reacting very differently than you are, and gaining. I'm trying to think of the proper words. I know there are some but they are escaping me. UGH!! AHHHHHH give yourself grace!!!

MaryFran said...

Holding steady is sometimes the biggest victory! So let’s pay ourselves on the back!!!

I totally agree with you. I am pretty positive that I’ve been passed over for promotions and jobs that I’ve applied for because my weight. It’s infuriating…but like you said, nothing concrete to prove that fact!

We can conquer this weight!!!

MaryFran said...

Thanks! That is what I’m hoping and praying for!!!

MaryFran said...


MaryFran said...

I’m trying to get back to posting my journey…more from the heart…being accountable. All that!

MaryFran said...

You found the perfect words that I needed to hear! Thank you!!!