Friday, May 14, 2021

It Was A Bust

This week was a total bust!    I made myself promises and vows and I went belly up on all of them!  It was just one of those weeks!

I wrote last week About my upcoming stressful week and boy was I right.  It was stressful.   No, as I wrote this on Friday morning before work let me rephrase that to say it IS stressful.   It was as confusing and messed up as I expected.  There is something horrible about working with someone that expects you to know the most basic of answers and you sit there and have no clue!  It’s a bad bad feeling and it was repeated time and time again this past week!   But it is what it is.  I have survived and I will continue to survive I’m sure.

In the midst of this week I had a job interview for a job promotion within my company.  I feel as if I spoke in riddles and didn’t have one coherent thought during the interview. Hopefully the two interviewers were able to understand my ramblings (or what I feel was ramblings).  If I get the job good...if not it’s ok.  It is a job that I have heard is one of the hardest jobs in our division of the company. It is also the stepping your dues I have been told by a few others. So   I’m ok with either outcome of the interview ...but seriously...and interview in the middle of a stressful launch???   But hey...I survived!

What didn’t survive?  My healthy eating goals.   I tracked nothing. I barely drank water.  I ate a lot more carbs then I should have.   I totally bombed on any semblance of trying to lose weight.  

It was so bad that last night I wasn’t hungry.  I knew I wasn’t hungry when started to eat dinner.  But dinner was something I don’t have often and something I love! So I ate it anyway!  And then I laid in bed all last night with a stomach ache!  I ate myself sick!    I haven’t done that in a long time...and I don’t like the feeling.  I won’t even vow to not do it again...because while I don’t plan on it, I know it will most likely happen.  Human nature.   But yeah, that shows how bad my eating has been.  

Right now I am just going to focus on one foot in front of the other.  This journey is hard and I’m struggling!!!


Anonymous said...

I wrote a message earlier but it must have disappeared. Sorry about your stressful week. Better days are coming. Let us know if you get the promotion.

Paula C

Amy said...

Eating releases dopamine, a feel-good neurotransmitter, it's the biological reason we want to eat when we experience negative emotions. One of my favorite authors (Geneen Roth) says instead of punishing yourself for eating what your physical body didn't want, try to use that experience to figure out WHAT you were feeding if not hunger. It will help you recognize triggers and may eventually help overcome them. Easier said than done but worth trying.

Goal of Losing said...

I love what Amy said in her comment, here! I also have been struggling with my nutrition goals this month. I hope you can give yourself grace for a tough week! New mercies with each new day! :)

MaryFran said...

Thanks! I definitely will!!!

MaryFran said...

Definitely well worth trying!!!!!!

MaryFran said...

Definitely new mercies with each new day!!! We have this!!!