Saturday, November 01, 2008

Weighed myself this morning. I did so with some fear and trepidation because I have eaten over my points value each and every day. But I'm down to 191.8. So that is 1.2 pounds in the last two days. I'll take it!

Last night I curbed my nighttime eating desire by eating tic tacs. It worked!!! I know I used to eat the WW fruities in the evening when I felt the urge to eat......I forgot about that trick. IT WORKED! WOOO HOOO!

I got up an extra hour early this morning and I hopped on the exercise bike. I knocked out 45 minutes. I was watching the biggest loser (australian season three). They had the contestants doing some type of drills on the and then a walking recovery. Well during the recovery they asked questions. The one question was "name one thing you like about yourself". The first guy rattled off "I'm a funny guy" but then they got to the next girl. She just stood there and you could see the blankness on her face. She really didn't' have a clue as to what to say....and she couldn't think of something. It got me to many overweight people put up this wall of 'fatness' around themselves and they stop (or can't ) see the good in themselves. I think is some ways that I have in the past and honestly even in the present experienced this. I think where I"m at now is that I can see the good stuff but it's sometimes hard to believe the looks part because I still struggle with seeing myself as a thinner person.


Deborah said...

I'm with ya on finding the good things about myself. I think we all put up those walls as a defense mechanism. It has gotten me to pondering for sure, since I haven't been asked that question.

Donna B said...

It is so hard after being heavey for so much of my life to accept I am almost a "normal" size. When I start to feel that way, it seems easy to get back in the mode of thinking also eat anything without gaining weight. There has to be a happy medium on this path to getting heathier. WE WILL FIGURE IT OUT! Keep up the good work with the tracking, exercise and WW meeetings. I KNOW you can do it!

Brightcetera said...

Congrats on some more disappearing pounds, MaryFran!
I agree with your wall of fatness comment...I get that blank look, too although today I would tell you that I'm friendly and like to make people feel good about themselves.
So, what do YOU like about yourself?

Donnalouise said...

Hummm...for the longest time I didn't really see anything positive in myself at all. I'm better at seeing me for me and not for my shape and size.