Tuesday, June 06, 2023

Doritos, I’m looking at you!

​It’s time for some straight talk.   It’s time to figure out what I want, or should I say what I really want!    Weight loss is hard!  It’s the hardest thing in the world.   It requires amazing mental willpower.  It requires astronomical amounts of determination.   It requires our whole mind, body and spirit at times.  Losing weight is not for the faint of heart!  But I know from experience that the end result is better than anything I could imagine!   I know that the difficulty makes all the pain and hard work and yes, sheer grit worth it.   But why does it have to be so difficult?

I’m working on getting my mojo back.  I’m being a lot more cognizant of my food choices.  I’m tracking, for the most part!  It’s the parts that I am not tracking that is killing my efforts.   Doritos, I’m looking at you!  Mr. Cake, your getting the stink eye!   

I know that some of the unplanned and the un-tracked indulgences are stress related indulgences.  The Doritos were shoveled into my mouth while tears coursed down my cheeks.  The cake, well baking is my therapy; eating the cake is  too!   That is no excuse though.  I should have known better.

All I can say is that I’m here.  I’m working through these emotions. (Or trying to…) and every minute is a chance to start fresh again.   I’ll keep restarting and vowing to conquer this weight loss thing as long as it takes.

I once wrote that weight loss is a series of battles.   Sometimes you have to lose some battles to position yourself better for the next bigger battle.  Sometimes you have to lose a battle because a lesson needed to be learned about your enemy.  But it’s not really the individual battles that count.  What counts is that you win the war!

Doritos aside…(they are gone)….refocusing…heading into battle once again!


Amy Roskelley said...

I resonate with this so much!! Thanks for sharing your journey!

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Straighten My Crown said...

I am searching for my mojo too :) I feel like I keep turning the key but the engine won't fire up...but I need to keep trying. I refuse to give up on myself.

Anele @ Success Along the Weigh said...

I too am joining the mojo search. Why can't certain foods just taste like hot garbage instead of distracting deliciousness?

Anonymous said...

So many of us can relate to this. Stress is eating us alive! Since the world shut down I can't seem to even give A rats ass about losing weight. (That is the honest truth!) its horrible. Stress, anxiety, nerves, worry, happy and the list goes on and on. Every night I sit on the edge of the chair and say to myself "Tomorrow is the day. You didn't move enough today so tomorrow you have to build a house to lose that pound! One day at a time!

And I write this as I ate a mini snicker bar! Boo!

Paula C said...

I am working on myself too. Being fat is hard & losing weight is hard. I am So tired fighting the same old battle. I want to get to goal & stay there!

jen said...

I’m with you on the hard….it’s bloody hard!!!
But it is so worth the effort, don’t give in.

peppylady (Dora) said...

Being healthy is hard.
Coffee is on, and stay safe.

Theresa Mahoney said...

I struggle with weight a lot too. I'm either overly thin because of my autoimmune disorder and can't put any weight on, or when I'm not in a flare from my illness, the weight piles up and won't come off. It's a no win situation for me, so I understand your frustration. I'm just going to focus on being the healthiest version of myself instead of worrying about what the number on the scale says. Sending positive vibes your way for your weight loss journey.