Friday, February 20, 2015

Checking in

Well, here I am again.  I feel fat bloated and just miserable.  Why oh why do I do it to myself?   My parents eat so differently from what I am used to....just getting meatless food sometimes is difficult.  It's not stubborness, it's just not thinking, 'cooking the spaghetti sauce in the pan that you browned the meatballs is just as bad as adding beef to the sauce because of all the little itty bits of beef left in the sauce!'   I feel bad because my parents are nice enough to feed their wayward daughter so I eat it.  grrrr.  But that is more of a personal preference.  The issue that I'm REALLY struggling with is the sweets.  My mom bakes so there is always stuff here.  No one forces me to eat this stuff.  I'm doing it to myself!  Yet I seem to lack any kind of will power to resist!  

That said, I am doing just a tad bit better.  A tad.  The leftover chocolate icing still gets me every time.  :-)  But hey, at least I'm eating the homemade chocolate (delicious) icing on a banana and on strawberries!

The diet soda's still an ongoing issue as evidenced in the picture.  Buying a super sized fountain drink wasn't enough, I had to have a spare can handy!  This has gotta change too.  Today I bought a britta water bottle.  Maybe this will help me with the water consumption!  (Plus it had the ounce marks and I loved that on one of my old water bottles!)

Maybe this water bottle will do the trick!

I keep wondering if weight watchers

Running....uhhhhhh I'm paying the price for not running consistently after I ran the 10k back in October. Yeah, I was so sore after my previous runs. And it's SOOOO freakin' cold to be out there running my sluggish and oh so gorgeous training runs where I can barely make it two miles!

Why yes, I actually ran  in 17 degree weather (it was actually colder, I was done running by that time!  I was actually not freezing cold until the last 1/4 mile and then my stomach felt like it was a block of ice that if I got an ice pick I could chip off.  It was tempting but I was pretty sure that was not the best way to lose weight!

Meanwhile, I'm playing the piano and  lovin' on my kitties.  Trying to keep the errant and crazy emotions at bay.  (don't think that's working too well!)


The Kaizen Project said...

I know it feels like things aren't going to get better right now but they will, I promise. Just keep trying and eventually it will click. You have a lot going on, be kind to yourself, ok?

Lori said...

Don't be too hard on yourself or take on too many things at once. You are in a hard and emotional place right now. It is going to take time to work through that.

Just pick on thing that you can easily work on like the water. Give yourself a week or so to get that into your routine then add in something else easy. In time, you'll get to all the improvements. And you won't be overwhelming your already overwhelmed emotions.

Be kind to yourself, like you would a friend.

Rebooting Myself said...

It's so tough with all those things going on! I think you are doing great considering, tbh! And I agree with the others say, it will eventually click!

Darcy Winters said...

As others have said, you are going to have to be kind to yourself right now. I am (just starting today!) doing like Lori suggested and changing one thing this week. I think that is what you are going to have to do too. Baby steps win the race.

Kyra said...

Hey, how are plans for your future coming along?

It's very hard for me to be in a house filled with yummy stuff too. When my parents lived with us, my mom went out and bought all sorts of junk, and I fell into it more often than I would have liked.

Hang in there!