Saturday, August 23, 2014

Defining Moment

There are certain aspects about us that define who we are.  I'm a natural goofball.  It's just who I am.  That defines me.  MaryFran is a goofball.    I'm a loyal friend.   Sometimes that's to my detriment as I get taken advantage of.  But that defines me.   So much in our lives define us.  But it hit me today while talking to a friend that there is one thing that should never define me.  I should NEVER be defined by my weight. 

And I better include a goofball pic!!!  I had to trick my oldest nephew into getting in the picture and while my tongue is out being a goofball I'm not quite sure why my youngest nephew is licking my head!

Oh yes, my weight affects who I am.  It can't help but affect who I am.  However, my weight should NEVER define me.   Fat or thin I am me....and you know what......for better or worse, I like me.

If I never lose another pound, I like me.  I would like to lose weight and I am sure I will continue to obsess over it, but you know what.  If it doesn't happen it's not the end of the world.  It wouldn't change who I am, it would simply only change what size clothes I wear.  (and seriously, I don't have many clothes at this size and I'm TIRED of the clothes that I have....I need to lose or buy more clothes asap!)

All that said, I am more motivated than ever to lose the weight.  Not because I NEED to. .....because I want to!

We went to Lancaster yesterday.  I hit up the Green Dragon (farmers market) and as we walked through I scanned the produce stands and on the way back to the car I gathered up produce at some great prices. I spent something like 12 bucks and in my kitchen I have spinach, bib lettuce, grapes, two cucumbers, , some carrots, pineapple, two cantaloupe, 5 kiwi, 8 pears, and a dozen ears of corn.  I have NO EXCUSE to not eat healthy this upcoming week!

And a picture if me in a school house attraction that had been closed for years but is now reopened as the new owner tries to save the historic building.

Lovely wax figure....

The mantra "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"  is a good one...I'm changing it though..

Nothing tastes as good as.................    and I'm filling in the blank with my own dreams and hopes that I have for a thinner life.  (and I've learned my hopes and dreams for a thinner life are NOT based on 'my life will be fixed and there will be no more sorrow' when I'm thin.  They are VALID goals this time around!!)


Michelle said...

Totally agree. I changed that mantra up a long time ago. "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" originally came from Kate Moss when she was in the height of supermodel-dom and then years later, she said she wished she'd never said it. I've changed it to "nothing feels as good as fit/healthy/strong/free/confident feels". I'd like to get to a place where when someone asks me to do something, how I'll feel, what I'll wear,how I'll look etc, won't even be a thought before I say yes.

Sonya @ Finding Drew said...

Totally agree as well. It's about how you feel about yourself no matter what weight you are that really matters.

Gwen said...

I prefer the mantra 'nothing tastes as good as healthy inside and out feels.' and if I were to add to that...'and the feeling that comes from knowing you are eating healthy for your quality of life.' Because really, that's what it's all about. The quality and quantity of that life. If we aren't healthy...we have so much less. Sometimes, we can't feel actually how unhealthy we are, but our weight does tell us. Whether we want to acknowledge that or not. I found that when I really committed to getting to a healthy weight (not a specific number or size), it became a mission to learn all that I could from modern science about the healthiest foods that would nourish my body, not inflame it, and then the rest fell into place when I became PASSIONATE about improving my health! (over weight.) It's all a matter of perspective. :)

Unknown said...

I love this post. I just want to take as good of care of myself and my hubby as possible. I don't know what that will mean as far as what weight I will get to. I know that this isn't the weight for me. I see so many people that lose weight, and then they don't know what to do with themselves. There are entire life has been defined by losing the weight. I think it is so important to follow other dreams and interests. I think those dreams and interests are what drive us to want to take care of our health. I hope you have a good week ahead :)

Anonymous said...

LOVE this post...such great insight! I need to get out of the mindset that overweight = "bad." The funny thing is, I don't feel that way about other people - only myself. So if I can accept someone else overweight is a lovable, successful, worthwhile person, why do I have such a hard time with accepting I'm all though things, too, no matter what I weight?