Wednesday, June 29, 2011


Ironically enough, usually when I don't blog it means that I've not been on track.  This is not the case. Last week i was dead on...and lost 3.5 pounds.  This week I'm holding steady. I did go over my points one day, but I think I should still be ok.  :-)  We'll see.  :-)    Todd and I have gotten out for some walks and I did zumba last night and plan to again tonight.  So I'm workin' it.

Why haven't I been on........I feel like my life is crashing down around me.  Last friday I had a slight accident (ran off the road), yesterday Todd was weedwacking and a stone flew up and broke a back side window in his car....and on and on.  Life is just crashing around me.  These things just exacerbate the other daily struggles that I've been facing.

Last night I literally just wanted to sit and cry.  I soooooo thought about skipping zumba, but I went, held back my tears and exercised. I went home.  I still felt like crying.  I put together a breakfast casserold for today and ate my dinner.  I wanted to just shovel food into my mouth with no thought.  Food is my friend and I really needed a friend.  But I also realized that it would make me feel good for exactly 2 minutes (or however long it took me to eat it) but then life would come again, crashing around me.  I realized that not only would the same problems still be there...but I'd also have the self chastisment from binging on food I DIDN"T need.  So I stayed with my meal plan and because I did actually have the points, I splurged on a handful of chocolate chips.  Boy did I want more...but I didn't eat anything. I parked my butt on the couch and didn't budge!


F. McButter Pants said...

GOOD FOR YOU! Sometime a good cry is cleansing. I do it all the time :)

Keep up the good work.

Unknown said...

You did a really awesome job of resisting the urge to binge! I can so relate with the feeling that life is crashing down on you. I'll probably blog later about some of what's been going on in my own life, so I won't bore you with all the details here on your own blog. You did great though! Good for you! :)

Karen@WaistingTime said...

I'm sorry things are so rough right now. Hugs.

WWSuzi said...

I know it's rough but your doing great! It is so hard some times and then we cruise along and gradually undo what we've worked for.
You can do this!

Melissa said...

Aw I'm sorry you had a rough week! You're doing great! hang in there!