Friday, March 11, 2011

Plotting and planning

I'm seriously considering going back to weight watchers. The accountability is so vital for me. Last spring it didn't work. Last spring I don't think I was ready to say that I've hit bottom...AGAIN. I'm there. I need to make changes in my life. The money is the biggest factor. I don't want to spend it (and money is tight so $40 a month is a stretch....however, I'm already paying $13 for the it's actually only $27....ok, put that way.....) I've also realized that competition is not working for me. I've started competitions with people and I've bombed each and every one. Yes, I hate to when I mess up and start to lose, I give up. I'm not going to set up any dates of when I want to reach the goals. Oh wait, I'll say "ohhh I think and hope to be such and such by such and such' But I can't set any "I'll be 10 pounds down by the time we go on vacation" Once again, it's easier to give up and stop. It's this intense fear of when I start to slip and slide backwards towards failure, I just give up so that I don't have to look at myself and say 'you failed, failed again'.
I've eaten rather well this past week. My choices haven't been all that bad. I've eaten lots of fruits and veggies. BUT my weight is still up a bit from where it was on Monday. I know why though....because my portion control has been out of whack. So that's the next thing to tackle.


F. McButter Pants said...

I have been thinking about going back to meeting myself. It's about being around the group. The feedback and repeating the same old things that work. Then seeing them work.

We can get back on track. We can!

Tanya said...

I think a tangible support group could be great. I've heard tons of success stories on Weight Watchers. Good luck, MaryFran, and keep me in the loop of what you plan to do and if it's working. :)

Lisa said...

I actually just signed up to go back to the meetings. I have been doing it online and have actually been having some great success however I decided that I need that extra push.. plus as silly as it sounds I LOVE getting the stickers and I want my 10% keychain. Those things aren't important, but they are tangible evidence of how you are doing.

Vegan Chick Pea said...

I hear the new Weight Watchers program is really good, and people are really loving it. Good luck!