Saturday, July 10, 2010

Frame of Mind

I don't' know that much has improved for me...but I think I'm in a much better frame of mind today. I guess I'm just taking a more positive spin on the happenings of the last 2-3 weeks.
*sprained ankle-- much better
*tonsillitis/strep-- gone
*infected cat bite--much better.....current round of antibiotics will finish that
*father's heart- doing well
*husbands flu--over, with no signs that I'm going to get it
*two cats that were rushed to the vet for two separate unrelated issues-seem to
be improving
*overtime- we SHOULD be fully staffed at work on Monday (first time since early
*Personal issues...causing emotional distress-- well, not over, but maybe I'm
just learning how to better deal...or maybe realizing that there is nothing I can
do to change the situation so I need to learn to accept

I woke up early and went to my weight watcher meeting this morning. Predictably I gained. Pretty much, I gained what I lost last week. OK then. I know some of the things that I did wrong. Number one, I didn't track. Number two, I drank MOSTLY diet soda and not water. Diet soda ALWAYS causes me to retain water.

The best way to put it. I'm sitting on the fence. I'm not eating poorly...but I'm not eating totally healthy. I KNOW that I don't want to climb off the fence into the pasture of unhealthiness. I well remember how I felt at 315 pounds...I don't want to go back there and conversely, I remember how GREAT I felt at my goal weight...I want to feel that again. So I know which side of the fence that I want to be on. I just need to get the courage, motivation and persistence to jump off the fence and STAY off the fence!

That said......eating healthy......I'm reasonably sure that healthy foods also promote healthy emotions. I REALLY need to be eating healthy!


F. McButter Pants said...

Sounds like you are having a hard time. So sorry. Maybe just focus on being healthy. Don't eat crap. I know that when I feel like a binge I try to pig out not so bad of stuff. I purposely buy stuff that will satisfy the binge but not cause so much damage. Sometimes that is the best I can do.

Just do your best. Only you know what that is. Hugs

WWSuzi said...

Just take it one hour/meal at a time. Baby steps are the best way for me to get back my mojo.

ERICA said...

One step at a time. Sounds like you've gotten over a lot of hurtles. Keep on keeping on!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Maryfran... you CAN do it! The fact that you went to your meeting and acknowledged the areas you need to do better shows that you are facing your trials head on. You've had some sickness and other set backs but I'm sure you will get right in there girl!!!

You've already done amazing and hard things. One day at a time. :) Remember, you are FABULOUS!


VRaz60 said...

My goodness, I've been away so long I've almost forgotten how to blog. So sorry you're having a struggle right now. I'm with Suzi, one step, one thing, one day at a time. We can get back on track, I'm sure of it. We've done it before, we can do it again. Keep the faith. (Gee, that kinda sounds like a weak 70's phrase, doesn't it?)

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