The addiction thing is so true.  On monday night, Todd and I went out to eat dinner.  We were at a buffet/salad bar.  I am usually able to stay away from the dessert bar, or at least manage it with healthy choices.  Well, after my week I was just plain and simple disgusted.  My weight jumped up...and wouldn't go back down...no matter what I did!  So Monday night rolls around and my mentality was that, "heck, if the scales are gonna show an increase, I may as well at least eat something that I'll enjoy  at lesat once!"  So I hit the dessert bar.  I got a small piece of cake!  IT was scrumptious!  Absolutely delicious!  I sat at the table and pondered...and pondered!  It was so dang good that I had to head back for me!  I got a total of two more pieces.    Oh yes, and the pudding, and the icecream!  On the way home, todd and I talked about it and I realized that yes,  That was totally a sign of addiction.  I ate that first piece of cake and it was soooooo good.  I finished the cake and that feeling of satisfaction wasn't there any longer.  I wanted to feel that again...so I got another piece of cake.  And another.  BUT, what I realized.....that 'high' only came wiht the first few bites of the cake.  I really didn't totally enjoy the second and third pieces of the cake!  It was only that initial high that tasted good....yet I strived to get that feeling again and again and again!  If that's not an addiction, then what is?
Today I had mom check my blood sugar levels and my blood pressure.  Things are all in line!   I'm relieved about that!
I was up a bit at my weigh in...but it's all good!  We learn from the rough times.  Chalk up another lesson learned for me!  :-)
 
 
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