I am so struggling to get back on track! I want to! Oh how I want to! I am ready to. But....woah...I just had an epiphany while I was writing my confessions. Like right when I wrote the word woah It all became clear to me!
I have a food addiction. Over the past few months I’ve actually had a pretty good handle on my addiction. I have been in control. I have managed. And while it hasn’t been fast, I have been losing. Queue in the sound of tires coming to a screeching halt! Yes, and then I hit that wall. I gained unexpectedly. I gained 4 pounds unexpectedly! And I took a mini vacation from weight loss. And that mini vacation set the addiction free.
Oh I’m still in the game. I still am working on losing the weight. But more of my time is spent in regrets for eating what I ate! Seriously, I sit there and KNOW I shouldn’t eat something! Yet a few minutes later...almost without any control over myself I find myself eating said item! I’ve lost control!
So back to square one.....controlling the addiction! This is hard work...and a total mental game. But I know I can do it! I am going to starting to get myself back under control at the most impossible time....two days before thanksgiving! Two weeks before my birthday....one month before Christmas! But I can do this!!!
