It’s been dirty

 Now now now, get your mind out of the gutter.  I’m not talking about that kind of dirty!   I am talking about my dirty thirty that I was attempting in the month of September. And let me just say, it was dirty!

As the month of September rolled around I had this grand plan to start a challenge.  I wasn’t up for doing another 75 hard, so I devised the dirty thirty.   It would include thirty days of activity, thirty days of tracking my food and keeping it under a certain level.  It involved 30 days of step count over 10k.  I’m telling you.  I was going to smash the month.   I started out strong and did relatively well the first week.  Then I had some time off work and that is when it got dirty.  I nailed about 3/4 of my goals…..but I started to slip further and by the end of the second week I was struggling.   I’m telling you, it was dirty….but not a victorious dirty!

I commenced with the negative self talk and began kicking myself for failing at my attempt.    That was something I was totally victorious at! I’m really good at negative self talk!  

Then I happened to see a video.  I can’t even remember who or where.  Quite seriously, I’m trying to even picture the person and I can’t!  But I remember the message. But this person was talking about  not going full guns blazing and instead starting with one thing at a time and building upon that.  And that is when I realized why my dirty thirty had most likely failed. I had dove in head first, in a time of my life when I was struggling to adjust to new routines, jobs and just life changes.  I had even talked about the adjustment and how I was struggling yet I started it anyway….because…I’m a glutton for punishment!   And in doing that, I was still trying to juggle the adjustment and I added multiple balls into my juggling act.  And that is where I failed.  I should have focused on  ONE thing and one thing only.  Once I got a handle on that one thing THEN add the next thing.

So I have stepped back.   I am going back to the basics.  One thing at a time.  Right now my focus is on tracking.  I need to track each and everything!!  That is my focus.   Sure, if I get my water consumption up to 64 plus ounces, awesome.  If I can get the 10k steps even better.  But my focus is on tracking!   Once that has become a habit, the. I will work on the next thing!!!

And a picture of me swinging the hammer to ring the bell (which did ring)…..

Although, I think I found my secret untapped talent is axe throwing.  Most people that attempted it couldn’t even get the axe to stick.   Each of my attempts I got the axe to stick in the wall AND the axe was while not a bulls eye at least hit the target!!!