OK, let me explain the work insurance. We have the price of our insurance which is quite pricey. We get a ‘discount’ if we sign a statement saying that we are tobacco free and if, during the yearly health screening we either show a weight loss or we are in a healthy weight range. Last year since I was a new employee I was exempt from the health screening. This year I am subject to these rules. So my weight has been on my mind a lot and has been since my health screening. I do have an appointment with my doctor. Hopefully she will sign the appeal paperwork so that I can still afford health insurance.
I resent this policy. Not for the reason you might think. I know I’m overweight and I know that causes health problems which is what makes the added money on the insurance. What I resent, is the fact that I am really working to overcome the diet mentality. I am really working to overcome that big focus on the number that the scales show. I resent the fact that my work is forcing me to think about it and worry about it. I resent the fact that this policy makes me want to crash diet.
Following the health screening I made an appointment with my doctor to try to get an appeal for this added expense. (I see her next nine day) I am worried. I saw her a week (almost to the day that my dad died) and I weighed a few pounds less than I weigh right now. My dad died and I gained 30 pounds, overnight. (Ok not overnight...but within a month.). So with all this worry about the insurance and my weight, I started to stress and I started to think about crash diets!